I...had bittersweet little dream just now. It was nice though. It was like. I was 17. For some reason, I always have dreams where I'm still highschool age. But I saw someone cool. Someone who was like the older sibling I didn't have while my real sibling was away and distant. I hope this doesn't make them feel odd if they read this cuz I know they read our posts sometimes, hehe.
I had a dream that, instead of meeting Yugo through Penny's let's play for the first time. I met them at a bookstore. I think it was movie night or something, there were some creepy images from a horror film on a projector in there. And in this dream we talked and talked. They were so friendly to this imaginary version of my 17 year old self. Like a librarian to a goofy ass kid asking questions they're a little half awake for.
They had so many stories to tell. Also in the dream this bookstore library has multiple guest rooms for some reason. And I wanted to sleep at the library in my own room or something cuz the library was always my safe zone when I studied. But that's unrelated.
The point is. I wonder if I've always looked up to Yugo like that. Like an odd but caring instructor at a quirky gothic library or something. It was nice.
I think me watching the midnight snap Freddi Fish stream put me in this mindset when I was trying so hard to get to sleep. It brought me back to time where I had fresher eyes. But still, a heart broken by sanism and an ableist soceity's exclusion.
Thank you, Yugo. You made my years during the end of high school where I was willingly in online school, better. It helped us all grow. I remember being in my local library so much and trying so so hard to focus on Penny's Psychonauts stream to increase my paitience as an ADHD ocd kid. All I could do was draw sometimes. But I finally got that school work done. Never forgiving my high school for what they did to my undiagnosed misophonia. They didn't even respect me that much diagnosed.
You helped me figure out my lesbian identity. You helped so many people realize they're not alone.
You and Day brought a unique spice to the indie game scene that it desperately needed.
I'm sure you've helped many people figure out who they are involuntarily, and voluntarily. Without Smile for Me, we wouldn't have seen your beautiful art. Never seen Dr Habit, that you and Day created together. We'd never see the beautiful, silly or deeply emotional romances you had to tell. You healed a teenager's broken ego. It was wonderful. I still cherish what you've done for the world.
Thank you, acquaintance of the internet.
