why is he so pretty for.

In a few days we say goodbye to 2024 but I am not leaving this beautiful soul behind Liam Payne your beautiful smile your kindness

and liam is absolutely the light and love of the band and the fandom, and nothing has felt right without him. he's the only one that loved us as much as we loved them. when they all went solo and distanced themselves from 1d and from us, liam didnt. he cared about us so much and always thanked us and loved us so much. im constantly fighting my sadness, knowing that nothing would probably make him sadder than knowing he's the source of such heartbreak so i am trying so hard every day to just be happy we got to experience his beauty and creativity and talent and light when we did for as long as we did, but i cant help but feel bitter that we didn't get more time and that he should be the one with a new single, a new album, a new tour, a vacation, anything. he deserves a million and one second chances, he is still so loved and should be here to experience it now. i keep thinking "i wish i wish i wish" but it doesnt change the fact that he's gone. grief really is just love with nowhere to go, and my grief today feels all consuming.

i do wanna say thank you to this community. every time i see a gif set, a picture, or a post celebrating him, it does put a smile on my face before the tears well up. we're in this together, and i would not have gotten through this year intact without yall fr.