#lightandlove

What is one blessing you feel thankful for today? ❤️

Love is the absence of separation. 

𝚂𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙵𝚄𝙻 𝚂𝚄𝙽𝙳𝙰𝚈𝚂

What are you grateful for? In the last few months my life got turned upside down and all around in a matter of days. I was lost, alone, confused. I had to leave my home and restart my life with nothing but a few bags of clothes and my bed. My best friend who I thought of like a brother cast me aside for someone very toxic. I was branded awful. I was branded a horrible person, all for trying to compromise and relay my opinions to someone who I loved and cared for deeply seeing the toxicity of the situation. 

The months that followed were hard. I was alone, without my car, without everything. I still managed to get to work with the help of a coworker with a lovely soul and my boyfriend who unfortunately does not live in the same country as me. There were moments when I cried. There were moments that I really thought long and hard about if these accusations against me were true. I was so invested into these claims that I thought for a moment that they could possibly be real. Then I realized something..

There’s nothing wrong with being yourself and expressing your opinion to someone you love even if they find it negative and don’t want to listen to it. Honesty is the best policy. After some long thought, I looked at the situation in a whole new way. I realized that these claims were only as real as I made them.  I didn’t scream, I didn’t yell, I didn’t give ultimatums. I came from a place of love and compassion and spoke calmly every time I went to him to discuss a matter I thought needed to be discussed even if it was met with anger. I realized that I did everything I possibly could in the most honest, loving, and caring way I could think. 

Sometimes you can do everything right and still lose. BUT! These are simply lessons from the universe. This hardship was a trial. I firmly believe the universe sent this situation to me so that I would be able to realize my strength and love myself more by exiting the situation. I’m grateful for this. I’ve done so many things in the last 4 months on my own then I have in 3 years. I found a home, I found a way of life that I enjoy, and best of all I found peace and strength. I found a new wave of appreciation for myself. 

It wasn’t but 4 months after this whole situation started that I received a text message from my best friend explaining to me that I had been right and he had finally opened his eyes to the situation. This woman was toxic (she dumped him, married someone 3 weeks after leaving him, then went mia on bills, took his car, and his dogs) and he realized that I was coming from a place of love and I wasn't trying to bully him. I was happy and we reconnected and are now good friends again. I’m still hurt from the experience but after going through something life this it was easy for my to forgive. People aren’t perfect and if someone is genuine in their apology there’s no reason not to give someone another chance.