#lgctee

it’s been some time since i last wrote here, but i feel this entry should be entirely taken as a bookmark. i don't want to keep writing, confessing, spilling frustrations, or developing hopes and dreams. when hyukjae from the future finally opens this journal - if he remembers the password correctly - i want him to interpret it as a bookmark - it’s nothing special but it’s still remarkable.

the year is 2024 and i’m living my 23th birthday. of course, mom and dad are still together and still treating me as their most precious treasure. i cannot say i don't feel the same about them. i will always be grateful for everything they did for me, how much they risked and are still risking. 

i cant say i didn’t make good friends, because then i’d be lying. rowon is still the most insufferable person i’ve ever met and sometimes i wanna punch him and destroy that pretty face but then i’d regret it and would have to apologize. he’d look at me the same way and would still make jokes. but i can’t say i don’t need him in my life because i do, i will always do.

to be able to reconnect with both tee and jinyoung, in very distinct ways just made me very proud. i missed having jinyoung back in my life and tee, well, i’m not proud of distancing myself from him, overthinking and acting wrongly but he still welcomed me back with the same smile. they both did and it was just refreshing and good. i didn’t know i needed them in my life that much but i do.

jasper is as breathtaking as he was back in london and even if we never had any reason to break things off - and we never did - i did my best to keep him close (he still tries to escape but teasing him is one of my favorite pass times i admit). 

yes, hyukjae from the future, not everything went well you know. you know what still happened and you know who (not voldemort) still messed with our heads for a long time, but we did okay, you don’t have to worry, i took care of it.

there’s also max. the max thing still stings, still hurts if i think about it for too long. i know i’m being petty, just like jinyoung threw on my face, but i’m still human. he was important, i wanted to be as important to him as he was to me. but you can’t always get what you want.

or i can.

because if it weren’t for max (and he won’t probably ever know that), i wouldn’t have…parker. yes, this is the bookmark you need to keep. parker. it’s hard to explain, to define, to quote, to understand but parker happened and there’s nothing i would change, not even how things started. if we were supposed to follow some kind of screenplay, things wouldn’t have come out as great it did. he makes me smile, it’s simple like that. he makes me not want to give up on things, and makes me wanna fight.

i don’t have any wishes to make this year, i just wanna keep this date marked. bookmarked.

Cupidyoon fully intended to ship Tee (@lgctee) with another V&A member, but decided the Jintee fangirls were way too scary to mess with. Tee got his soda candy first and Cupid took his sweet time walking around before finally dropping the matching one in Jinseo (@lgcjinseo)'s palm. The patience couple, he shall call this ship, because it was sailing at the speed of molasses. At this point, Seyoon might end up with four kids before these two even get any.

Seyoon noticed some sort of tension between Minkyu (@lgcminkyu) and Jihan (@lgcjihan). He figured any tension could be good tension and sometimes a little resentment made better sex. Regular cherry flavored candies went to this couple - just make up already!

The blueberry candy in his hand was reserved for Seunghyun's match but honestly, Seyoon was struggling. Seunghyun (@shxlgc) was his childhood friend, occasional enemy and an annoying twat. Nobody really deserved Seunghyun, take that sentence however you would like. So with a grin, Cupid approached his dear Mushushu with both blueberry candies in hand. He slipped them into Seunghyun's pocket with a wink. "I am sure you would rather take care of yourself." Hey, at least he didn't say the F word out loud.

One party boy deserved another and Seyoon simply knew Hyuk (@lgchyuk) and Haneul (@lgchxneul) would have fun together. In fact, he might want to join them. For partying, of course. Pineapple flavored candy for them, Seyoon's precious dance all night ship.

Now, what about Maylin (@lgcmaylin), dear Maylin. She hated most guys, didn't she? Seyoon handed her a peppermint candy because she spicy and looked around for her perfect match. Oh, maybe Eunwoo (@lgceunwoo)! The guy was hot and pretty quiet from what Seyoon remembered. If a man didn't talk much, he had less chance of saying the wrong thing, perfect!

Seyoon was pretty certain Max (@lgcxmax) was already dating a dude, but real life boyfriends didn't count for this Halloween game. After some contemplation, he decided to match Max with Kai (@lgckai) and came up with a whole dramatic story about two hardworking trainees, constantly stuck in evaluations together. Slowly developing feelings, stealing looks across the room and...Yes, it could be fun with their grape flavored candy.

Who was left?

Seyoon tossed Rowon (@rowonlgc)'s black cherry into the air and caught it back in his hand. Oh Rowon, this one was so very tricky.

So focused on his thoughts, he nearly ran into Soyoun (@lgcsoyoun). "Ah, I am sorry." He bowed his head like a good lil trainee but slipped the idol a light pink candy he believed to be cherry-blossom flavored. One of the more unique ones he'd gotten. The matching one he'd given to Ichika (@lgcichika) onee-sama earlier. Certain fanfics may have changed his favorite ships forever. Long live Ichiastrid.