INFATUATION (1/?)
homelander x fem!reader
summary ā homelander meets Ashleyās sister and heās already feeling infatuated with you and he just canāt help it, even though ashely is fucking annoying he canāt help but think you were the exact opposite.
warnings ā homelander is himself a warning, stalking, toxic behavior from homelander, breastfeeding, kinda angst and fluff
word count ā 2174
authors note ā this is my third homelander fic and the other two are on my AO3 account and this one will be as well. also tried and different writing perspective.
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YOU took a deep breath looking at the huge Vought tower, looking down you saw your daughter in the stroller and it calmed you down a bit. Eleanor was the light of your life and yeah that might be a little bit of a cliche but it was true.
Her father ditched ever since he figured out you were pregnant and all you had was yourself to help fend for you and for Eleanor. He was a douchebag anyway only cared for himself and his own life, not caring what happened to you or Eleanor but you were doing okay on your own.
I mean yeah paying for all the stuff for a baby was hard but at least you didnāt need to pay for formula since you breastfeed, but you just move for a job that would hopefully work out. Luckily it was close to your sister, Ashley. Youāve been in contact but never visited since you didnāt have the funds to do so, but now you could see her all you.
Ashley was your number one supporter when you got pregnant and she was even there when you gave birth and loved Eleanor. She was also the last defining factor of moving here in the first place, you could have a job that paid decently and see your sister.
You knew she worked for some of the most popular supes in the world and thatās why you were kind of nervous to step in the building. They were superheroes though, theyāre not dangerous. At least Ashely hadnāt told you anything that would imply that and she even invited you to come to her work.
So how could this go wrong.
It was just worrying, thatās something youāve done since you were a small child and even took some anxiety medication to help.
Walking into the big building with your stroller, you wouldāve thought people mightāve been ogling at you but it seemed like everyone was into their own conversations or just minding their own damn business. That was at least nice, at least.
But it was intimidating standing in the lobby of this building where the seven stayed. The supes were nowhere to be seen at least and you hoped Ashely would get down here soon because it was getting awkward. You texted her when you first arrived which was about 5 minutes ago and you were starting to worry.
Luckily Eleanor hadnāt sensed your discomfort.
āY/N you made it,ā Ashely says with a smile as she walks up to you, wearing her usual bright pantsuits.
āI was worrying you forgot about me,ā You said with a smile as you hugged her. She gave you a tight squeeze before looking down and smiling at Eleanor.
āHowāve you been,ā Ashely asked as the two of you walked towards the elevators. You didnāt know where you were going but it was probably to her office or some more private place so you could talk.
āItās been hard taking care of a newborn baby but Iāve been pushing through it,ā You told her vaguely not wanting to worry her. Youāve been only getting 3-4 hours asleep on a good night, but it was the normal life of a single parent, or a parent in general. āEleanor is totally worth it though, she is the cutest thing,ā You cooed at your baby as she gurgled in her stroller.
āShe is, and Iām glad you brought her here because Iāve been wanting to babysit and since youāre closer it's so much easier to do,ā Ashley says with a smile.
āI just donāt want to intrude on your life, you have a job that you need to do and having a baby will only make it harder,ā You expressed as you picked at the skin around your finger nails.
Bad habits die hard.
āIt wouldnāt be a burden trust me, Iāve been wanting to see my niece since she was born and I insist,ā Ashley promised.
āOkay only if youāre okay with it,ā You muttered as the elevator doors finally opened and you walked behind her, to her office which seemed totally cool to you.
āI canāt believe you got your own office that is totally badass, and it totally suits you,ā You complimented as she closed the door behind her and leaned on her desk and gave you a coy smile.
āIt does feel good to have an office but this job is kinda grating,ā Ashley murmured looking down at the floor.
āThat is totally understandable though, I mean youāre brushing shoulders with the seven, the most famous superheroes, who wouldnāt be stressed,ā You reassured her sitting on the couch and placed the stroller next to you so you could keep your eye on Eleanor.
āAt least somebody understands,ā Ashley says, giving you a smile. Something dings on her phone which she then pulls out of her pocket and her eyes widen. You look at her worried as you move the stroller back and forth. āIām sorry I have to go,ā She rushed out.
āWait what am I supposed to do here,ā You quickly ask as your heart races against your chest.
āDonāt worry I wonāt be long, just stay here playing the tv, Iāll be back as soon as possible,ā Ashley says before leaving the room and slamming the door behind her.
Unfortunately for you that woke Eleanor and she started to cry as you jumped at the door slamming. You stood up and grabbed her and started to bounce her in your arms trying to calm her down.
āItās okay,ā You cooed as she continued to cry and scream in your arms and it seemed as though the bouncing didnāt help your stressed baby.
As you were about to check her diaper in case it needed to be changed, you felt something wet on your chest and you immediately knew what it was. You hadnāt breastfed Ellie since early this morning and your breasts were full, when Ellie started to cry it usually happened. Instead of checking her diaper, you would try to check and see if sheās hungry first, and since youāre already ready for it, might as well take advantage of it.
Sitting down on the couch, you lifted your blouse up and since you decided not to wear a bra that day it was a little more easy but it ruined your shirt and hopefully you could get Ashely to find one.
Settling Ellie in your arms right near your primed nipple she immediately latched, and since your breasts were full it felt like relief as she began to drink from you. You supported her head as you leaned against the comfy couch, she squeezed the fat of your breast as she suckled the milk out.
It would normally hurt due to her pinching but since you were in a relaxed state you didnāt really mind. As she began to relax, you began to as well.
You looked at your baby as your chest was filled with so much love, that you would have never felt for anyone else. You probably wouldnāt feel this amount of love for anything or anyone else that enters your life again.
And you were perfectly fine with that.
āAshley Iāve been fucking looking for you every-,ā Homelander cursed as entered the room with an angered expression on his face but it turned into a confused one when he saw you.
God this was the most embarrassing moment that would ever happen to you, you knew you shouldnāt be ashamed of breastfeeding but this was Americaās most beloved supe and when he looked angry as well.
Homelander averted his eyes so they werenāt trained on you. He was angry when he was looking for Ashley and expected to find her in her office but who the fuck were you and he didnāt want those old thoughts to come back. But he couldnāt help it as he saw the scene unfold before him.
āIām sorry Homelander-sir I was ju-,ā You began to say as you stood up and turned around so he didnāt seem as uncomfortable. It was obvious due to his stature stiffening as he entered the room and you didnāt want to do that. As you were speaking though you were cut off by him.
āWho the fuck are you,ā Homelander snapped as he looked at you as you turned around. Ellie was still at your nipple, and you didnāt want to remove her from it as she seemed very hungry so you did what you thought was best.
āIām Y/N Ashley s-sister,ā You muttered and stuttered as you stared at the wall and began to force your body to relax so it would freak out Ellie.
Homelanders gazed at you even more confused. He didnāt know Ashley had a sister or even a niece for that matter. But he couldnāt deny that you were pretty, beautiful even and he didnāt know if that was due to your actual look or what you were doing.
Ellie decided that she was full as she removed her mouth off of your nipple and you used one hand to pull your shirt down, so you could turn around to face Homelander.
āLike I said Iām sorry about that, I was here to see my sister and she rushed out and Ellie started crying and when she does that, this happens,ā You say looking down at your shirt. āAnd I thought I was alone and-and she was really hungry and Iām just sorry,ā You quickly said your apologies, god this day couldnāt get any worse could it.
āNo worries,ā Homelander waved it off and put on his smile. āItās natural right,ā He nodded and pointed to the baby.
You visibly relaxed as he said that. He wasnāt angry with you, it wouldāve been horrible if America's strongest supe was angry at you for a normal bodily function. But he did seem kinda uncomfortable you would say, his smile didnāt reach his eyes but it was better than his eyes being red.
Meanwhile Homelander felt his mind swarm with thoughts about you already and he just met you. He was about to say something but Ashely walked in the room with a shocked expression on her face.
āSir Iāve been looking for you everywhere,ā Ashely breathed in deep as she had a somewhat scared expression on her face as she looked between Homelander and you. She was lucky that Homelander didnāt melt your face off as he saw you there and she let out a sigh of relief.
Homelander gave you a wary look and you took that note as you put Ellie in her stroller.
āDonāt worry Ashley we can meet up later,ā You gave her a reassured smile. āNice meeting you,ā You gave Homelander a quick smile as you exited the room and felt your body relax that you were out of that awkward encounter.
Although Homelander had already set his eyes on you.
Later that night Homelander found out where you live through the tech department as he could get any one of those people to give him anything.
All day he had been thinking of you, his thoughts were all surrounding you and he tried to shake it off as attraction, which was definitely a part of it but he knew a part of it was due to your milk filled breast. He couldnāt help wanting to find you and just watch you.
As he stood on the building across from your tiny apartment, he used his x-ray vision to see what you were doing. It seemed like you didnāt have an exciting night but what he saw was certainly exciting. You were using a breast pump to get the milk out for the baby. The TV was playing but he didnāt pay attention as his cock throbbed his pants.
You looked pretty tired though, must be due to that baby and you were already dozing off catching yourself multiple times. His thoughts trailed off as he wondered what it would feel like to be doted on by you. If you would praise him and let him get a taste of what he actually wanted.
Homelander knew he was becoming infatuated with and some part inside of him was perfectly fine with that. He would find a way to see you again, even if he had to scare it out of Ashley or find out where you worked and āaccidentallyā bumped into you. It didnāt matter what he had to do, and what lengths he would reach to get to you.
He just couldnāt wait to see you again and wondered if youād bring the baby, he hoped not but if so that would be totally fine as long as he got to see you.
Taking a deep breath as watched you and his body was filled with arousal and he knew you were already a part of his life for better or for worse. Probably a better for him and unfortunately worse for you.



















