thinking about how from the beginning Nemesis never really had a choice in her contract because it was made when she was six years old (or at least when she was still around that age since that was when she found Ziz-san, and also because in And Then the Girl Went Mad she's still a small child and she's already dealing with "overflowing wrath") and most likely was done as a way to keep her from dying since she used to be left alone in her house enough to beg for the door to open so she could get out at times.
like that is straight up child neglect!!! I wouldn't be surprised if she went locked inside the house for enough days at a time to end up extremely hungry. That is a small child being locked in a house that is probably rotting from how old it is considering it's been there for like nine or ten centuries. And sure, you could argue that it was a house built of something that wouldn't rot, like stone, but also. Let's be real. It's a house in a forest built by someone who was working as a woodcutter. it's very likely that at least a part of it is made out of wood, and wood rots.
And, anyways, a 900 year old house that has been abandoned for the majority of said 900 year long existence and canonically fell into disrepair is probably not the best place to raise a child BY FAR unless you do some serious restoration work, which I DOUBT Hanma Baldured did!!!
And in the end, Nemesis never really had a choice in fighting against Wrath because not only was she a small child who probably didn't understand her emotions, but she says it herself that she was so neglected that she was straight up forgetting about what pure happiness or sadness felt like and just kept feeling the one thing that the contract was basically making her feel, which is wrath.
We know the contracts kinda maximize certain feelings in a way, and i'm sure that the wrath contract does the same and potentially worse, since wrath is pretty much an emotion. If it wasn't for the contract, I feel as if what Nemesis would've been feeling would be numbness as a way to cope with her situation, but, because of how the contract worked, the feeling of wrath was basically being implanted into her mind.
And the fact that she describes it as "overflowing" makes me believe this even more, because it makes it sound as if it's something that she herself couldn't normally contain or feel, it's something external to her.
I think way too much about baby Nemesis to be healthy asjdhgsjkdh
Anyways, to conclude this, I think we should murder Nikolay Tolle :3
