#lesbianthoughts

Look a little closer

Is that a black ring? On robins middle finger? On her right hand?

dedicated to my angel just yesterday i was in 5th grade 5th grade was my first real crush a girl long jet black silky hair smooth skin she sat next to me in class i gave her pens and markers and presents we were friends with other girls, but during recess we would sneak away to our own games i would watch her sing taylor swift dream of her she'd let me stroke, braid her hair we were just best friends and then one day i told her i wanted to marry her so then she said nothing I said "friendscanmarryeachotherimsosorry" she smiled we never spoke of it again at the end of the year, i made us both memory boxes, filled with stickers and pictures and letters and then we went to separate schools i visited her over the summer picked her flowers  blushed at the time, thought nothing of it and for her birthday, in autumn of 6th grade i visited her she gave me snacks i gave her gifts we never saw each other again i try to text her but she’s busy i found out she was straight cool its ok, and when i first came out i thought i was bi but no im gay she doesn’t know it was nice though, those were such simple days of summer, just her and I. even if she didnt like me back she supported me, i trusted her, she protected me, i loved her it was hard to explain to my mom, who thinks i dont know a friend from a crush it was true love different then my old boy crushes i know and yet i still have this deep feeling telling me i shouldnt be this way a voice all too familiar i want her scent again yet i “should” like boys why i used to say she was my guardian angel her name was pri and no one will ever understand the burning passion the young love that I had for her