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YOU ARE NOT SAFE

RUN

RUN

RUN

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Here I am, like every year, trying my hand at NaNo.   Not starting out great but at least I got some writing done.  This has been a tough year for writing for me. I am hoping Nano will be a catalyst to get me writing again.  I have so many WIPs.  I am hoping to finish a few of them during Nano this year.  As always, if you enjoy my fics, consider buying me a Kofi or just sharing this post would be much appreciated.  Thank you and have a great week!  A list of my WIPs and their status is below the line.

A whole image broken into all the confusing colorful pieces,

Scattered on a table, a few pieces missing from the years of use,

Being finished halfway only to end up broken apart back in a box.

I started to try building myself on my own this time,

To figure out what image I really am,

I scoured those pieces to find the edges, finish the border, and find the structure of who I was.

And while vital to successfully putting this picture back together,

Building edges and structure was the easiest part,

Filling in the image and finding what I needed next from the pieces that were so carelessly strewn around.

The long and arduous process of getting every piece upright, rotated in the believed right direction,

Finding smaller parts to complete left floating in the middle,

Desperately searching for an anchor to hold them to the walls built to contain.

And when I finally finished,

Proud to have worked so long and hard,

Being able to make out that full picture was always the goal.

But now that the image was filled in,

Those lost pieces became evident.

What was unrecognizable in a pile of jumbled pieces now were glaring holes in a picture all but just complete.

Then you came along,

Looking upon the years of work laid on the table in front of me,

"This must have taken you quite some time to finish,

That's more pieces than I've ever seen before.

It's impressive you stuck it out so long to finish,

Rather than giving up and putting it away."

All puzzles deserve a chance to be seen as whole,

And I lament my lost pieces,

Having worked so long on my own to build the big picture.

With no hesitation or questioning,

You grabbed your tools and made pieces to match the holes I had.

You filled in and finished me.

I was no longer a puzzle missing pieces,

I can safely say I have never felt this kind if feeling before. The safety and comfort. The warmth that just continually grows. This feeling of eruption bubbling under the surface. I didn't know this was something someone could feel.

And I'm not scared of it being tainted in toxins. I'm not fearful or sad. There is no tinge of guilt or regret. This is new and different and good. Overarching good has been flooding in with this change of tides and I never knew life could be so fine.

You have made me feel safe and cared for. I don't feel like I need to fear you. It's something new that I never had that I could feel before. You tell me how you feel and the certainty that comes with it radiates the energy I crave so deeply.