#lemakethings

oK WELL. firstly im a regret fueled multi timeline eeaao truther, because the multi timeline concept when portrayed as created by choices doesnt sit right with my brain and from this lens everything makes sense to me. because as timelines created by randomness, it feels so heartless and pointless; while the idea, the very message eeaao's trying to convey is exactly the opposite of that. theyre all regrets. just like when Evelyn told Waymond she saw a great life without him and she wished he could see it

how i view eeaao is basically

(knowing) everything (the facts - the Shape of the Universe, the one Truth)

(being) everywhere (the pain. the hope - the feelings, the Heart, the Human Part)

all at once (accepting that and continue to live on)

or everything (question arc), everywhere (answer/core arc), all at once (tea party) /hj

that can only make sense when the multiverse isnt something to just. be. something that neglects the people living in it. but also in this way or another way, intended or just described as such shortly after, another name, another portrayal of regrets. not just hm. not just any regrets. personal regrets. for example if you take Evelyn's line to Waymond about her martial arts timeline out of the sci-fi (namely "magic") context, it could be translated to "i regretted marrying you just to live an ordinary life". and i like that view a lot more because framed in this way it actually centers the people more than it seems. that yes nothing matters everything could be different everywhere in time and space but their core remains the same...

also like theres really something about "Jobu Tupaki" (the concept, what is talked about by other people) that is alienated and detached from her "original self" (what is perceived by. well let's say, Evelyn) at the start. how Evelyn wanted to be just like Jobu, as in, having her strength, her power, the reason of her formation, so that she could defeat Jobu. thats an approach that is lack of love - just like the whole verse jumping thing at the start, which was used to get special abilities only. thats like just asking for the "how" only to redo the exact thing, not considering that their positions are so different, not considering that everyone in themselves are different either

just like this, Evelyn's turning the chessboard around, assuming the opponent to be just the same as her, having the same kind of position, the same kind of mindset as her. she's seeing The Truth only as a sequence of actions and not considering the person behind it. i mean, fair. Jobu's talked about like the plague anyway, she's so alienated from the family and detached from "Joy Wang" as a concept

like i said earlier, everywhere is about the very Heart. eeaao's core arc. first half of this is exactly what Evelyn wanted earlier, she got put into Jobu's shoes, understood, but then only felt and acted like Jobu instead of creating any difference. the position changed, from the outspoken "ill defeat her if i become just like her", to the silent "of course she would become this way". Evelyn became numb to every universe shes in, existing for the sake of existing, because existing in itself to her no longer holds meaning if everything is everything and everything changes and everything is meaningless and doesnt matter. personally i feel like thats such a beautifully written tragedy. if nothing really matters, even people with a higher sense of understanding, living life as if theyre on a higher plane of existence, cannot escape such numbness and detachment

like this is not my life. ive lived so many lives. i cannot feel what im supposed to feel because i felt too much, and that emotional energy source had run out on me

this image again:

its so sad to want this then finally have someone who understand you only for them to think hmm theres really no other way

also since were going with the regret fueled multi timeline understanding it is also. knowing that things you regret, if given the chance to happen, would still leaves you with so much pain and other regrets, with just some random specks of happiness. happiness, in that way, does not hold any meaning, if it too shall pass, and replaced by suffering instead. even in a world that doesnt exist, a world you want, a world you aim for, a world youre more than you now, youre still going to suffer as hard as your current world

the second half of everywhere is very frequently talked about so although i really really love it i dont really want to keep repeating what others had said because. yknow. i love the message a Lot but others had made it very obvious. i love being kind i love cherishing feelings despite feeling like living in so many lives. despite regretting so many lives. because every lives are worth living! not just existing aimlessly and throwing away emotions because they dont matter

(this is also the exact approach that i often tell people to read umineko with, although a bit different because its consuming a story and in this case its living. nevertheless, theyre all cherishing your feelings to the fullest, and not neglecting everything to find what is "real" and "true")

so like what i really do want to talk about is the contrast of how Jobu is seen by Evelyn at the start of the movie and at this very point. the keyword is acceptance. with kindness, understanding leads to acceptance, and that very acceptance ties the "Jobu" everyone feared wth "Joy Wang", Evelyn's daughter, together, as they should have always been because theres no Great Evil splitting from Evelyn's daughter, there has always been just Her. the final notes of everywhere resonate with me so much, because then, it finally clicked for Evelyn, and she chose to accept that truth