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Here are my takes on which of Gotham's villains each of our lovely Ateez members would be.💜💜💜

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Hongjoong - It’s the laugh. The unhinged cackle that, for others, means a long night of trouble, destruction, fire, and explosions. Sure, he knew how to take the lead, make someone smile, and get people to laugh a little. Okay, maybe it was more like laughing so hard they would end up at Arkham. His goal for the people around him was to make them live a little, because… why so serious? His laugh for you still signifies a long night, one you welcome and almost crave because it means you're the one in trouble. You’d feel destroyed by the time he's done. The fire inside you would burn till morning, and explosions... let's just say you'd see fireworks behind your eyelids many, many times. To him, making this city fall is just a way to pass the time, but you're his priority - whether it's slow and torturous or fast and brutal, his twisted mind would always find ways to remind you exactly why he never played tricks on you. As for Gotham… well, there was a reason why they called him The Joker.

If you'd like to learn more about the other seven members, you can go ahead and access the full breakdown on my Patreon as a membership holder.

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Hello, dearest readers,

One of these days, I hope things finally work out.

Let me explain what has happened in the last few days/week.

On February 21st, my oldest special needs child had knee arthroscopic surgery to add a cadaver tendon to the inside of their knee to stabilize their patella and stop it from dislocating up to 7 times a day.

I spent that weekend being a nurse mom, keeping them on their medications every 4,6 and 8 hours, plus assisting with dressing, washing, and wound care.

Then, from February 24th - 28th, I helped my 65-year-old stroke and brain tumor survivor mother pack up her bedroom, as she has been living with me since 2008 as a dependant because today she and her boyfriend of 10 years are moving to North Carolina.

In the midst of all that, I had to have my T2022 Toyota Highlander Hybrid Broze Edition voluntarily repoed because I am still not working, still waiting for my shoulder, uterine, hernia, and knee surgeries while still recovering from the sepsis, which can take up to 3-5 years.

I am lucky enough that my mother's boyfriend gifted me my mother's 2016 Ford Fusion, so I am not without a car.

However, the only help I had in watching my youngest child while I worked or cared for the oldest special needs child, aka my mom, is now gone, which leaves me trying to figure out what the heck to do.

Childcare near my home costs about $360 weekly (excluding school holidays and breaks).

This means I would essentially have to work to afford it.

If I did get a job, it would also push us out of the assistance bracket for health insurance, requiring me to earn enough to cover that expense.

However, with my pending surgeries... I can't find it myself to get a job when I might need to leave.

Who knows how long it will take to recover from each surgery in this upcoming year or two?

I don't mean to bitch, but I just wanted to let you all know what has been going on and my current level of stress, which is why focusing is hard.

Maybe now that the surgery is over and my mom is gone, then I can stop freaking out internally and get some writing done.

We are currently experiencing voluntary evacuation orders due to my health status but we aren’t leaving because it still has quite a way before it gets to us.

The fire started at 10:44am, by 11:08 am it was 58 acres, then at 11:28 am it was 500 acres and now at 3 pm it is at over 5,000 acres.

My valley is under an extreme weather warning due to the winds reaching gusts up to 100 mph.

So… we may end up having to evacuate to a different state because that is the closest relative.

Whee!!!

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I am writing you from the ER.

The derma glue, to close the surgery site, came off when I took off the bandaging from my surgery on the 26th and I saw my surgeon on the first and he said it looked OK.

However, starting Friday, I started having diarrhea like that and then through the night it started hurting like a motherfucker and feeling hot to the touch.

Then when I woke up today, I just got worse and worse and worse and worse and worse… I can barely walk without someone helping me.

I woke up with Violent shaking, massive diarrhea, can’t keep down anything except for a sip of water here and there and even then I still try to throw it up, massive dizziness, passing out, I feel like I’m on fire, but I’m freezing to death, my surgical site is leaking like a faucet and it’s hot to touch and then it feels like a rock.

They have mentioned possible hospitalization but who knows.

They finally gave me Norco and more Zofran and now I am on two different IVs of antibiotics and fluids.

I also stopped shaking and having to keep in the fetal position.

Sorry for errors, using speech-texting mode, my hands are still shaking.

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Hello, dear reader!

Although last year had many ups and downs, the end of the year was pretty much down.

I did post an update about my mental health on 12/23, which explained a lot of what is going on in my life.

Now, with the New Year, I have goals!

I am finishing the last two chapters of American Mate's editing, which I hope to finish today, then I will work on a new chapter for each of my stories.

I am not on a set update schedule because I realized I was stressing myself out by trying to force out updates for every story before doing another update for a story that was already updated... if that makes sense.

I hope that helps answer your question...

In the meantime, feel free to check out my other stories in my library or the exclusive Patreon membership goodies.

Hello, dear reader!

Unfortunately, I do not know of any stories from the time or era you are looking for, and I don't write stories unless they are from my Patreon membership holders.

2013-2015 is a very interesting esthetic for BTS... they were much more of a punk rock meets hip hop... like a punk hop or hip rock vibe.

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@remedyx, @yoongiofmine, @bethanysnow, @dream-with-lauriane,

Do any of you lovely people have any stories or know of any that would fit this dear reader's request?

Also, Thank you. I am happy you love my stuff! Thank you for taking the time to read it.

Hello, dear anon reader,

I don't usually take requests from non-membership holders, though your request does pique my interest.

Namjoon as Li Shang: he can be everything a man is made of and has the strength to match. He leads his army to be the best while being slightly clueless the whole time.

Taehyung as Chien Po: He is the gentle giant out of the group, and though he can be soft in nature when things are going well, he is a force to be reckoned with when those he considers family are being wronged or are in danger.

Hoseok as Ling: The man clearly thinks he is the shit and knows how to make a girl swoon while simultaneously making himself look foolish just to get a laugh out of those who he holds essential to him. He is another one to look out for because he will kick your ass the moment you do something against his code of ethics.

Yoongi as Yao: Simply put, our short king is just that short. But do not forget he is savage and will do anything, including cross-dressing, to find a way to get back at those who put him down and tried to harm his clan. (don't tell anyone, but he likes to play around just to keep the young ones happy,y which puts a smile on his face)

Seokjin as Mushu: Worldwide Handsome Dragon because he thinks he is the slickest, hottest, and most wanted person while being a complete and total scaredy cat. He is driven to lead, teach, and prove himself but goes about it as interestingly and endearingly as possible.

Jimin as Cri-Kee: Though we all know that Jimin is a flirty boi... he is accident-prone to a fault. He always falls into (or off of) things that he shouldn't, but somehow, he finds a way to luck his way into helping and saving others when they need him the most.

Jungkook as Khan: he is more muscular than one should be for his species and has impressive looks. He is loyal to a tee and always willing to put in the extra work, training, and effort to ensure he can support those who he finds worth his time, even if it takes a while for him to warm up to you.

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Hello, dearest readers,

I had the honor of being interviewed by @psychosupernatural!

You may have seen the ask that was sent to my inbox.

After a mini-freak out for being asked in the first place, I agreed.

They also permitted me to share the interview with my readers!

I don't want to sound self-centered by sharing this with you.

I just thought that if someone was interested in knowing (even if it was for school), maybe others might want to know as well.

So here you go!

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What’s your motivation for writing fanfiction?

I started my first story, ‘Breaking and Entering,’ for myself because it was the first winter after COVID-19 broke out, and the world was shut off from itself.  Then, after reading fanfics for the first time, I started writing my second story (Reciprocal Synergy) and stopped after no one paid any attention to it when I posted it on Tumblr and AO3.   After reading a fantastic story by @yoongiofmine, I was inspired to write American Mate—A BTS Hybrid Playmate AU. I was initially going to keep it to myself because the online world had already shot down one of my stories, so why do it again? My oldest child (15 years old) said, “So what? Do it for yourself.” And I did.

I tell newer or struggling veteran writers, “Write for yourself. Enjoy what you wrote. Somewhere out there, someone else will match your freak. Someone else will want to escape into your world. Someone else needs to feel that support, even from a character in a story on their electronic device.”  At this point, it's like an inner mantra.

How have you learned to write good fanfiction?

First, it is still being determined whether my fanfiction is good. Like all works of art and creativity, what I do may not be everyone’s cup of tea.  The fanfic that I write takes a lot of time to cultivate. Most of my time is spent researching anything from sciences and behaviors to interviews and documentaries. The ability to tie facts into my works is what I think sets me into a category that draws in others because it makes it subconsciously believable despite the characters being werewolves, hybrids, aliens, or soul mates with abilities.  I also use my American Sign Language and Psychology education to help build these miniature universes. When I write, I consider the characters' psychological aspects, internal processes, and non-verbal communication. For works that also include animalistic tendencies, I research that to the furthest of my ability. I have done it so frequently that my city's large animal and exotic animal veterinarian has helped me several times. This can make the writing good if the readers want to read it. 

How do you judge the quality of your fics? 

Quality requires consistency and continuity. If side notes, footnotes, or character reference sheets are not used to ensure a solid foundation in the story, the reader will be confused. That confusion, that difficulty to read fluidly, is where the quality lies.  I could have a fantastic idea, but if it is not easy to read, no one will read it.  As for the wording, grammar, and the like, I practically failed every English class. My degrees are very much fact-based research papers written in MLA and APA. Due to my horrible history with writing, I never had the guts to take something like a creative writing course, although I have had a poem published worldwide.  When I read something I have written, if it pulls me back into the story and makes me want to read on and keep writing, it has good enough quality to show others. 

How did you / do you learn the “rules” and conventions of fanfiction?

I don’t think I have to be honest. There are common boundaries of respect, such as placing warnings, indicating where adult themes start and end, and noting where influences have come from. As a writer, I follow these out of a desire not to shock or trigger my reader and to support other fanfic writers.  I have been the reader who started reading an out-of-this-world fanfic and was thrown into a panic attack because there was no warning. I ended up messaging that writer and letting them know they have a trigger in their story. That writer was shocked that the story was triggering. When I explained that it was gracing the edge of being a particular type of fanfic, yandere, and how it was doing that, the writer understood and updated the warnings.  Unfortunately, fanfics do not have a predetermined set of rules that everyone is made aware of before starting their fanfic writing journey. It is a game of mimicking with individualizations sprinkled in. Also, as a writer, you have to be able to take in the thoughts of your readers and make adjustments without taking offense to that feedback.

Do you tend to stick to only one fandom, or do you migrate from one fandom to another?

I migrate fandoms.  My first fanfic was ‘Breaking and Entering,’ an original Young Adult high school werewolf story. I started writing it because I was bored while having COVID.  One of my most popular fanfics, American Mate, was inspired oddly. I read a BTS fanfic written by Yoongieofmine. The Playmate AU aspect of her story caught my attention because BTS is not among the top K–pop groups I follow. However, that story made my mind run with the thoughts of combining Playmates with Hybrids. I ended up writing Yoongieofmine and asking permission to write ‘American Mate.’ I have also written for other K-pop groups, Ateez and Stray Kids, and a Thai Boy-Love Drama, KinnPorsche.

What sort of relationship exists between you as a writer and the characters that you create on the page?

Interesting question, to be honest or not…  All of my stories, except the werewolf ‘Breaking and Entering’ story, are written in a y/n style, meaning the main character is the reader. These stories are written to pull the reader into them by negating a leading character name and replacing it with the notation y/n = your name.  I have to put myself in that leading character role to write these stories.  I fully understand that the stories are just that– stories. None of what is written is in any way possible. Still, while the reader or I read the story, I do my best to immerse myself in the place of the leading character and have those relationships, experiences, trials, and fears with the other characters.  Each chapter that is written starts as a dream or fantasy that I have personally had. Those give me an outline to work with, but I have had the experience where I am so into and connected with the characters that when I stop writing, I think, “wait, what happened?” So, I have to go back to read over what I have written, and then it's a moment of “Oh!! That is what I wrote. Well, that came out of nowhere.” Simply, I have a connection with them because I don’t think I could write them if I didn’t; however, I am not delusional enough to think they are anything more than words on a page. 

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