Day 4: A relationship/dynamic you enjoy
Had to participate somehow and use this chance to spread my Laurphemer/Ephelauri agenda. π
- Kinda angst? So, be prepared.(not a lot but still)
- Colorcoded so easier to read:
(Red - Ephemer's kinda subconscious thinking?? basically his own thoughts from his own pov)
(Blue - Ephemer's kinda conscious thinking??? his sanity calling him out on stuff)
- Inspiration from the scene Shift Pride. (might wanna check out after this?)
- More comments in the end.
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Sooooo snap out of it, Ephemer!
Ah, there we go again. At this very moment we can see the utmost intellectual level of conversation that happens inside of Ephemer's head.
Nowadays it really is a normal occurence and Ephemer has gotten used to it.
Nothing new, really. Just Ephemer's voice of reason keeping him in check. You know, so he doesn't make a fool of himself right in front of his fellow Union leaders. Not that it really mattered anyway, they wouldn't laugh at him, atleast not of an ill intend. Ephemer knows that very well.
Hey! You are slipping away again!
The room is dead silent. Everybody else is focusing rather well, except for Ephemer, of course.
Ephemer gulps as he adjusts his position in his chair. Eyes wandering around the room.
Just, focus on your book!
Right, the book.. The book...
Ephemer is really just happy for his conscious side of brain keeping him in line. And with his unconscious side that keeps wandering around.. He was not-so-happy with.
But you know when someone you know makes a nice gesture towards you and then you just can't stop thinking about it?
Like, no matter how hard you try, you just see them in a different light than before.
Like that time when Lauriam checked in on me on the Foreteller's Chamber!
It was just the two of us and he made this absurdly bad joke that still managed to cheer me up for some reason?
How does that have to do anything with the book you are reading? Concentrate.
R-Right, my bad, I know..
But isn't he just a beautiful person? With his flowery perfume and soft hair and everything..
Oh, and I wonder if others have noticed how nice his handwriting is? He writes in cursive!
Concentrate on the book Ephemer.
Also he's surprisingly strong, isn't he? I'll wonder if he could let me, prehaps..
Would it be too embarassing to ask? I mean, if I ask nicely maybe he would agree..
OH LUX HEAVENS, JUST READ THE DAMN BOOK!
Fine, finish the sentence then!
...Would it be too weird to ask him to carry me in bridal style? Only to test it of course!
Juuusttt out of curiosity?
Y.o.u a.r.e t.h.e l.e.a.d.e.r a.m.o.n.g.s.t a.l.l o.f t.h.e U.n.i.o.n l.e.a.d.e.r.s!
SO, STOP ACTING THIS WAY FOR THE FORETELLER'S SAKE! The responsibility lies within YOU!
It's YOU who have make sure that everything doesn't fall apart!
It's YOU who have to keep everyone together! We have NO TIME FOR THIS!
I need you to C.O.N.C.E.N.T.R.A.T.E!
Finally, the shame started to creep in. Oh, the shame, that old insufferable friend Ephemer couldn't quite shake off.
Because Ephemer knows better.
He knows better than to crush over his fellow Union leader friend, and he knows his responsibility within the group.
Still, he has just let it happen.
And that makes him feel quilty. He shouldn't be feeling this way, not towards someone who he considers to be his friend. And he shouldn't be even considering these kind of thoughts because he was the leader.
If something is to go wrong, he should be able to act fast and accordingly! As a leader should!
And PLEASE, stop staring at Lauriam! He might just notice!
Ephemer's gaze finally dropped from the hypnotizingly pretty friend of his, that is sitting across the table with no clue in his mind about all the sorrows and burdens of Ephemer's heart, to the book that is sitting in his lap.
To were it originally should have been.
It really is moments like this that makes his heart ache.
But there really isn't anything that he could do to get rid of these feelings. He couldn't tell Lauriam or confess his feelings to others for support.
As sad it was to realize at first, being a leader of the group comes with a shattering amount of expectations, responsibilities and worries.
And sometimes being a leader is a lonelier task that Ephemer would like to admit.
But he would manage, because he doesn't want anyone else to go through this. That alone makes him puss through all the hardships.
But maybe that is what being a leader is about, to endure what others can't and to suffer so others don't have to.
Even though it might be lonely at times.
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No, but seriously do you guys ever wonder if Ephemer felt guilty over how things went?
Because I'm sure that he damn well did feel that way. π₯²
Ephemer & Lauriam would be such a cute couple. Like, there's so much potential in these two and it's a shame that the ship isn't very popular. ππ
On the other hand, maybe I should do it my own mission to spread this ship over to others 'cause I'm literally brainrotting here over them alone lmaoo. π§
Anyway if there's any other fellow Laurphemer shippers out there WOULD LOVE to be mutuals/friends or smth. ππ«Ά
(Also, have a doodle, you're welcome π)
