I’ve been kicking myself for not being more ambitious when I was younger, thinking about why didn’t “achieve more.”
The things I’ve thinking about achieving now…weren’t even on my radar about five or six years ago. All I wanted to do was travel, which I did. I also learned, a lot. My knowledge of the world was quite limited. I idea on what was/is possible was so small compared to what I know now.
I’m currently watching the Netflix documentary, How to Fix a Drug Scandal. It’s highlighting issues about drug testing in the state of Massachusetts. The two criminals were known for being stellar at their job, but they weren’t happy with their station in life; this seems to be especially be the case for Sonia Farak.
Two educated, hard-working (at least in college, one of the women was essentially cheating through her job and not doing any true chemical testing) women who should’ve been happy with their lives. I imagine they were getting paid pretty well as they were chemists.
I can’t help but think, if I had been ambitious but didn’t do the internal work I’ve started to do in recent years, I probably would’ve fucked myself over in a similar fashion, as I was quite immature and didn’t have a solid sense of self. I had some growing up to do.
I write this to late my fellow late bloomers know that you’re okay; that the lessons you’ve learned taking a windier road will help you; and lamenting “time wasted” is of absolutely no use.
That said, now might be a good time to start putting those lessons to good use.
