disclaimer: this is kind of grosse and very weird. It contains images of large teeth falling out and Daniel Radcliffe.
My dream last night: I was late to some sort of fancy event. Everyone was sitting around elegant round tables and I was supposed to be there for my parents. I'm not sure why. But I snuck in and sat down next to some friends of my parents. All of a suddent I felt like I had rocks in my mouth. And the more I felt around with my tongue, the more and more tiny rocks I could feel. When I realized it wasn't rock, but teeth, I got scared and went to the bathroom. When I looked in the mirror, it looked like my mouth was full of nerd-shaped chunks of tooth. The weirdest part though...my other teeth weren't disinegrating...it was like they were just shedding...because they rocks of calcium were accumulating out of nowhere.
So, I took them and spit them out into a napkin. The next thing I know, Constantine is there, pulling out a green nerd from the pile of nasty rock-teeth. He picks it up, shows it to me with this happy and confused look on his face like "look what I found, you silly girl". Then he disappeared and I looked into the mirror. MY FRONT LEFT TOOTH WAS HUGE. Bigger than a quarter and hanging on by only a hair. I was mortified. (I had a dream before that my two front teeth were huge and I pulled them out/they fell out and I was toothless in the front). So I was terrified. But when I looked again, I saw that there was a normal size tooth behind it. In line with my other teeth. I was no longer afraid to shed the tooth. I was relieved.
Right then I realized that I was just dreaming and just told myself to wait until I woke up. I've read before that teeth in dreams represent insecurity and self-esteem issues and I feel like this is kind of a big deal... Symbolically I was shedding my teeth, but there were new ones behind them. I could purge the old. The old self.
I am a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
I think the reason I had this dream was because I was talking to Constantine about this last night. I've never dated or been around a guy that is so wonderful. Someone who doesn't just accept me as I am, but someone who embraces me for who I am. I don't have to strive, I don't have to try to be something I'm not. I can shed the insecurity and literally...be myself. I'm so thankful for the grace of letting me be myself. It's funny. The other day he touched my back/love handles-ish area and I was like "What are you doing? Touching my back fat?" and an interesting conversation followed but last night on the phone he says "I miss your back fat". I laughed for a good three minutes. He said he loved it and that I better never lose it. hahaha. Rest assured, he doesn't think I'm fat. But you get the idea.
For those of you are thinking "where's the DANIEL RADCLIFFE part?!" Here it is:
For some reason....I had POWER. I had blackmail on him. What? I don't know. But all I remember is that we were sitting up in a bed and the door to the chamber of secrets lay ahead of us. I said something very serious like "You need to go in there... and unlock the chamber of secrets..." but before that, because I had the power, I said he had to kiss me. For some reason, my subconscious brain was saying "lauren, you have the opportunity to kiss Daniel Radcliffe right now. Do you know how many girls want to do that?" (Although, I'm not even like a huge fan of his or anything which is why this is particularly weird! I barely even know what the chamber of secrets is!) Anyway. We kissed but it was so akward because I bit his lip! hahahaha I was like "Sorry, I don't know how that happened". I don't remember if he even spoke a word. I think he just smile/laughed. But the last think I remember saying is:
Now go in there and unlock that chamber of secrets.
