#kyungchul

210114 (pics and captions from twt)

First of all: I never imagined that the MV would get THIS many views and we’d make it for the goal for 1mio in 24h!!!! It still feels unreal and I stg I never streamed this hard (EFLs are known for being bad at streaming) 

>>>> Fast forward we actually got a date for an online fanmeet!!!!!

Our dearest Universe Hipsters/Cowards actually sang their 2 others songs - and made everyone cry out of feels!

“HE LOOKS SO GOOD I’M FAINTING”

They looked THIS good. Both of them T.T

“a reminder that when heechul went to the police station to sue malicious commenters, he kinda looked like this“

Hanryang has a strong lyrics and seeing that reminded me of what a tough year 2020 was for him and Petals! We didn’t get to see him for a long time and had to hear the nastiest things from other fandoms (I actually lost a friend bc we fought so much bc of that oof). I clearly remember the live when he went to the police station and I was SO proud of him! He’s so strong and didn’t let the haters get to him. Over the year I learned so much about how to deal with haters - from himself. And I’m so grateful for that bc I clearly live a more peaceful life now and don’t get frustrated anymore!

DINDIN IS DINDIN!!!! This so is sooo my jam and I lost it when he came in and performed it T.T (my friends had to tell me to stop singing with him hahha!)

“dindin in his classroom waiting with his dads for the parents-teacher conference“

At this point I was just buffering in happy! Even tho I didn’t understand a thing it was the best thing I’ve seen - plus all the jokes about Dindin looking like their kid!

“bibi ma’am how can you be this gorgeous“

me and the whole tl were simping over her YET AGAIN - bibi we already adopted you <3<3<3 you’re so cool and precious

“elfs collecting babies”

And the family jokes kept coming XDDD

fun fact: Bibi is 1cm taller than Dindin

Heechul 83liner, Bibi 98liner, Dindin 91liner, Kyunghoon 84liner

“why was i thinking super junior’s gonna appear and perform burn the floor bc of the light“

Suddenly a black screen!!!! AND THEN ATEEZ SHOWED UP! Their performances were so cool T.T Afterwards Kyungchul cared so much for them - MY HEART. The way they adopted Ateez - Elfs found new friends in Atinys who made this possible. With their streaming this was only possible and I am so so thankful for them!

The Hanryang Stage was just everything! Ateez were soooooo hyped and happy to be there!!!! Kyunghoon was so so comfortable (usually he can be quite awkward), Bibi was being the queen we deserved and Dindin was so cool T.T

Heechul tho.. as a petal I couldn’t stop smiling. This felt so good and so right! Seeing him happy singing and rapping - smth we didn’t get to see last year to this extent! Also he said he remembered loads of things from when he wrote raps and rapped for Suju and was once again reminded how much he likes making music (Sir, we’re waiting for that Flower Petal album hihihi).

Esp for me who’s not initally sold on ballads this was even more a win for me and I’d be lying if Heechul’s deep voice doesn’t send shivers down my spine!

Seeing him being a natural and effortless MC, making sure everyone is comfortable and looking THIS good - this felt like heaven. Maybe I am so overwhelmed bc I witnessed friends seeing concerts and their ults last year while I couldn’t - so now I KNEW this was even more special and the closest and most center Heechul I’d ever get. It truly felt like more than a livestream bc of all the surroundings!

It was made even better bc in contrary to a year ago I wasn’t alone! Our squad today was quite fun tho: 

My girl who loves Bibi so much,

a friend who ults Ateez

and me who fell for Dindin a year ago

and we all simped so much for Heechul here! It was smth I experienced for the first time and BOI it felt great - I am so grateful.

Another thing: Kyunghoon. Oh boi I was so intrigued and crossing my fingers for him during the show - he is a ballad singer who hadn’t done hiphop before. He was struggling a lot but WOW the way he improved SO much and made smth so so beautiful??? My mind is blown! I can’t even comprehend what a win this is for Rockins’!!!! You guys rock and Buzz ist truly a great band T.T

So in the end it was THAT experience for me I’d never thought I’d get. I even had my Suju bong with Chullie’s name on it! When I got it and put his name on it I was so sad bc I’d never though I could wave it to him singing his own song. That changed now and I can’t believe I was THAT lucky T.T 

pairing: kyungchul (heechul/kyunghoon)

rating: general

length: 1.8k words

tags: unrequited love, pining, (light) angst, one shot

summary:

hope·less·ness (noun): a feeling or state of despair; lack of hope

or

Soogeun:Restraining order.