@kyouseiâ  //  Humans are fragile, weak creatures, Kokushibo thinks, bandages knotted at the boy's missing limb to stop the bleeding. There is nothing Muichiro can do, and Upper Moon One intends to keep it that way. "It takes some time... to turn powerful Slayers... but I know that you... will exceed my expectations... my descendant."
dammit. dammit. dammit.  DAMMIT.
the words ran on repeat through his brain again & again. dread consumed every inch of his body just standing near the upper moon. never had a demon made his body feel weighted, as though his gaze alone would turn him to stone if he stared too long. yet, with his body slumped against the wood beam & the demon looming-- there was no where else to look.
even with the marks painted across his skin, it hurt. if it hurt like this, the idea of the pain without them was unthinkable. with his own blade rammed deep into his chest, the hand that now laid across the floor in a pool of his own blood. eyes forcing themselves away from the demon to the hand & then to the blade. his hand twitching as the desire to grab the hilt & strike at close range.
â our blood has long since severed, â  NOTHING bound them at this point. they were closer to strangers than family. he would never accept the demon & himself as one of the same.  â we are not family, â  his name was forgotten to the ravages of time, as deserved. â a demon doesnât have a place in the family. â
his words oozed with venom as he spat at the beast who so carefully tended to the wounds he created. if the panic hadnât set in, it wouldnât be much longer.  his desires to transform the hashira whether he willed it or not would unfurl if he didnât move. the ever changing landscape of the building made someone else coming in all the more unlikely.Â
his heart threatened to burst from the confines of his chest as pain mixed with anger. an anger that mixed with fear. disgust & shame not just at his short comings when dealing with the upper moon but, the truth set upon him. no matter how distant, no matter how much denial-- he was descended from the man once known as michikatsu tsugikuni.
gritting his teeth, his unsteady heavy hand once again shook & trembled as he reached for the hilt of the blade, only coming to rest atop it as his strength wavered to pull it out. â i refuse-- â  gasping, heâd give a pause. â i refuse to become a vessel for his-- or your bidding. i wonât disgrace my family name. â