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Coming into view, was one of the lower-ranking officers for the Resistance. You hadn't gotten around to introducing yourself to him, the feeling of guilt washed over you. That was something that you liked to know, you prided yourself with getting to know each of your fellow officers.

"I..I..I'm sorry to disrupt."  His nervousness was evident in his voice. "One of the pilots has requested the presence of Colonel Y/L/N." He spoke addressing the Resistance army.

Without looking at Leia, you could tell that she was sending a skeptical look your way soon replaced by a smirk.

The Captain and Leutient weren't all too pleased that you were requested elsewhere, allowing you to get out of the meeting.

"Wait a minute here." The Captain spoke in a stern tone. "Why does this...this pilot need Colonel Y/L/N, and not someone else?"

The officer stood, with widened eyes, as the color drained from his face.

"Colonel Y/L/N, is too important to this meeting to go off and deal with some mediocre assignment." Huffing, he crossed his arms while leaning back in his chair. "Someone else should go."

"Enough," Leia spoke up. "That is nonsense." She cleared her throat before locking eyes with you. "Miss Y/L/N was requested. I will fill you in later. Now go."

Curtly nodding your head, you quickly gathered your belongings before rushing out of the room, with the officer on your heels.

Once the door was shut, you turned toward the officer. "Colonel Y/L/N." You spoke, holding your hand out. "But everyone just calls me, Y/N."

Nodding, the officer accepted your hand gently shaking it. "Private Smith."

As you walked side by side, you continued the small talk. "Do you prefer being called that, or do you go by something else?"

Clearing his throat, he nervously scratched the back of his neck. "Well.. Everyone else in the ranks either calls me Dave or Jak. Because I'm from Jakku."

Nodding your head, you smiled at him in which he warmly returned. "Okay, Jak."

Continuing the venture through the halls, you continued the conversation, until you heard two voices that belonged to your two best friends.

"Y/N!" Finn was the first to reach you.

Quickly he tugged you in for a firm hug. You had just gotten back from a top-secret mission with one of the other members of the army. Your team was lucky to get back in one piece.

"You're safe." He whispered more to himself than to you.

Pulling back slightly, you gripped his arms giving them a light squeeze. "I'm here Finn. I'm okay." You spoke softly offering him a warm smile.

"Y/N!" Poe pulled you in for a tight hug. "We were so worried about you."

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As you sat at the dinner table with your friends, the sound of laughter filled the air. The feeling of coziness and warmth washed over you. It was something you had missed while away on your months-long trip.

"Poe, and Y/N." Leia spoke, standing in front of your table. "Can I please speak to you two?"

Sending each other a worried glance, you excused yourselves and followed Leia into the hallway.

Leia stood before you, with her arms crossed over her chest as a stern expression was written along her features.

"Poe, the next time you want to see miss Y/N, and she's in a meeting..." Her voice broke off. "You need to have an excuse ready." She winked at you both, before giving you both a hug. "Now, please try and stay out of trouble you too."

Once Leia, was out of sight, you turned toward each-other giggling, before long it was full-blown fits of laughter in the hallway. The laughing fit, earned glares from the other Resistance soldiers passing by.

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As you were getting ready for bed, the feeling washed over you. The same feeling that you had almost all your life. You were force-sensitive, something that you had in common with Leia. More often than not, that was something that you always spoke to her about. You hadn't understood it since you had it.

Lately, you were getting these feelings more and more. You hadn't been connected with anyone yet, nor had you heard a voice that didn't belong to you. However, that changed all changed.

Sitting on your bed, staring at your hands you were able to sense the presence of another. Someone that you weren't familiar with. A dark presence.

Looking up, at the figure in front of you, you were quick to scramble to the other side of the room, clinging onto the wall for dear life. Quickly, you recognized the figure. It was Kylo Ren, dressed head to toe in his black uniform. As quick as he appeared, he was gone.

Climbing into bed, you attempted to sleep. Tossing and turning, the thought of Kylo Ren standing before you in your bedroom, plaguing your mind. His image before you was only in your room for a split second, the time had seemed to go slow feeling like hours had passed. Quickly, questions had replaced the image of Kylo.

'What if he was able to see your surroundings?'

'What if he could see where the Resistance was?'

'What if-'

The sound of soft, but firm knocking on your door pulled you from your thoughts. It also caused you to jump out of your skin, making your heart race rapidly.

Making your way to the door, you opened it slightly, peering into the hallway.

"Y/N?"

"Finn?"

"I...I couldn't sleep." Finn spoke, dropping his gaze to his feet. "I had a nightmare."

Opening the door, you allowed Finn access into your room.

Time passed before there was another knock on your door. Sighing, you threw the blankets off making your way towards the door. You were surprised to see who was standing on the other side.

"Poe?"

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"General Organa." You spoke firmly. "Can I speak to you for a minute?"

"Of course."

Following Leia into a more private room, you let out a sigh of relief.

"What is it?"

"Have you...Have you ever been connected to someone through the force?" You questioned gazing out of the window, into the airplane hanger, watched the pilots getting their planes ready for the next battle.

The sound of Leia's soft chuckle filled the air around you. Stepping beside you, she followed your gaze into the airplane hanger.

"Yes, my brother Luke."

"Are you able to see each other's surroundings?"

"No. We've only been able to see the other person."

Silence fell between you.

"What is this about?" She questioned in curiosity.

"Oh, uh nothing."

"Uh-huh."

Giving you a knowing look, she glided towards the door. "Just...Be careful."

Nodding your head in understanding, you placed your hands on the windows ledge once the sound of the door shutting echoed off of the walls. Hanging your head slightly, you let out a deep breath. The feeling of uncertainty overwhelming you. As your mind began being clouded with thoughts, the same feeling of darkness began washing over you.

Your friends began playfully debating what Kylo Ren, looks like under his mask. Your small group quickly became the loudest in the cafeteria.

Jake gently nudged your shoulder. "I bet you're glad, you're having lunch with us now." He chuckled.

You giggled nodding in response. "I've missed this."

"I bet," Jake nodded. "We've missed you being with us."

A tap on your shoulder quickly disrupted your thoughts. "Ms. Y/L/N, you're needed in the bridge."  The stormtrooper left as quickly as he came.

Sighing you glance at your friends with sorrow. "I'm sorry, I have to go."

Your friends quickly responded with "It's okay," and "We understand."

Nodding you quickly made your way to the bridge.

"Where have you been!" Hux exclaimed.

"It was my lunch?" You tilted your head.

"There's so much to be done!" He continued. Shoving a stack of paperwork at you, he smirked. "Get to work!"

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Hours had gone by as you worked. It was late into the night before you even glanced at the time. Sighing you shook your head. Hux was always trying to take his anger out on you, trying to make you look incompetent in front of the other officers.

Heavy footsteps echoed through the bridge, signalling you weren't alone.

"Y/N?" A husky voice questioned.

Furrowing your eyebrows in confusion, you turned toward the voice. Shock quickly danced along your face.

Kylo Ren.

He was still in his robes, but without his mask.

"S-Supreme L-Leader?" You stuttered. Heat rose in your cheeks as you mentally kicked yourself.

"What're you doing here? Your shift was over hours ago." He stated.

Frowning, you nodded. "General Hux gave me paperwork to do."

"Ah."

Nodding you turned back around continuing your work. The chair next to you was pulled out, before a black blur moved quickly, occupying the space beside you.

Glancing at Kylo with confusion, you questioned him. "What're you doing?"

"What does it look like I'm doing?" His voice was harsh.

Flinching slightly, silence fell between you as you quickly brought your attention back to your work.

Moments passed before he broke the silence.

"Sorry."

You nodded in response, not taking your attention off of your work. Kylo sat beside you quietly, observing you. Before you knew it, you were both passed out sleeping on the desk.

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"Do we wake them?" A voice questioned.

"I don't know." Another voice responded. "I don't wanna be the one to wake the supreme leader."

"We could just pretend we didn't see them?"

"How? We literally work two feet away."

"Want to go get coffee?"

"Is that even a question?"

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"Y/N!" Hux's voice boomed, causing your eyes to fly open. "What do you think you're doing!"

You had fallen asleep beside, Kylo Ren at your desk. Your head was resting on your arm that was touching Kylo's. He mirrored your position. His chocolate eyes flew open, boring into Y/E/C in confusion.

Groaning, you lifted your head gazing at Hux over your shoulder. "I-"

"Remove yourself from the Supreme Leader." He spat in a stern voice, grabbing your bicep yanking you toward him. "Leave. You've already embarrassed us enough today."

Frowning, you scurried out of the bridge to your corridors.

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Laying beneath your blankets, you were watching your favorite show. Hux was still punishing you for your slip up with the Supreme Leader the other day. You had been on leave for the past three days. It began feeling weird that you weren't working or being smothered with work.

The sound of a firm knock on your door pulled you from your thoughts. Slightly groaning, you threw the covers off.

Opening the door, you were shocked to see Kylo Ren standing before you. Your mouth fell open slightly, as you gawked at him.

"Hello, Y/N." He spoke through his mask.

"Supreme Leader." You greeted, nodding. "Do...Do you...want to come in?" You hesitated.

Nodding slightly, you stepped aside, allowing him entry.

You both were standing in the middle of your room, standing awkwardly in silence. The hissing sound of Kylo taking his mask off replaced the silence.

A sudden burst of confidence, you crawled under your blankets gazing at Kylo expectantly.

"Wha-"

"Are you going to join me or what?"

Fear danced along Kylo's expression for a spit second, before it was gone.

"But-"

"No, buts."

Toeing off his shoes and cape, he joined you beneath the blankets. Both of you watching what you had on previously. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Kylo sneaking glances at you occasionally. Whenever you turned to look at him, he would quickly revert his gaze.

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Since that night, your relationship with Kylo had advanced. He had been spending more and more time with you.

Kylo had begun spending more time with you in your corridors than his. Half of his clothes were in your room, scattered about.

Waking up, Kylo wanted to talk to you through the force.

"Y/N." His groggy voice echoed.

You groaned in response.

"Are you awake?"

"I am now." You snapped opening one eye, gazing at Kylo.

"Can I come over?"

"Since when do you ask?" You teased, turning on your face facing the wall.

The door to your room opened, as the sound of heavy steps sounded. The bed dipped as the covers were lifted. Warmth radiated from the body next to you. His even breathing, lulling you to sleep. Absentmindedly, you turned around so you were face to face. Moving closer to him, you were closer than you've been before.

Groggily, you sat up slightly placing a soft kiss on Kylo's lips.

"Goodnight, Kylo." You say voice filled with sleep, as you snuggled into his chest.

"Shh. Be quite in the meeting. Keeping going and I'll reward you after. "Kylo spoke softly.

Before you could protest the doors to the room had opened and several had entered and sat down at the large table. Lucky enough you couldn't been seen due to the metal panels on the side of the table. Still your face reddened at the thought of blowing your commander in front of others. You smiled as the meeting began.

"I believe us making this deal would be for the best commander," some officer said to commander ren.

You ran your tongue from his base slowly to his tip. Making sure to suck quietly at the pre cum. You licked kitten licks enjoying his sweet taste. After a moment you grew more confident and took him all in your mouth. Enjoying the twitch of his cock as you did so. You moaned which lucky enough was muffled by his cock stuffed deep into your throat.

You stopped for a minute making sure no one heard. Kylo's hand then reached under the table and pulled your hair. He had most definitely heard you.  Which the idea of Kylo punishing you only made your dripping wet cunt ache. You bobbed your head quickly moving your hand with you as the meeting continued    

You could feel your own wetness running down from your cunt. As you sucked and licked your commander your own hand trailed down pushing your skirt up. Rubbing your clit as you bobbed faster. You wanted so badly to stuff your cunt with his cock.

"That will be all." Kylo said dismissing them all.

After the doors hissed shut kylo pushed his chair back popping him from your mouth. You gasped from the sudden lack of him.

"Did I said you could touch yourself?" Kylo asked as he pulled your arm forcing you back on to your feet.

"nn no commander." You answered.

He stepped towards you blocking you in between him and the table. He lifted you on to the table and swiftly stuffed your cunt with his gloved fingers.

"Who's cunt is this y/n?" He asked as he rammed and curled his fingers into you.

"Yours Kylo." You moaned closing your eyes enjoying the feeling of him.

"Your such a good whore aren't you? can't even suck my cock without touching MY cunt. can you?" His fingers filling you as he pumped them deeper.

You attempted to answer but the swell of cumming on his fingers was starting to become to much.

"You wanna cum for me like the whore you are don't you?" He asked as he sucked on your sweet spot on your neck.

"Yes.. yes commander please let me cum." You pleaded.

"No." He said. He pulled his fingers out of you. You gasped as your orgasm was ripped away from you.

"Kylo!." You yelled.

"Your my whore." He spoke. "MY needy greedy whore and I'm going to fuck you like one."

His lifted you off of the table and placed you down in front of the control panel that over looked the hanger. shoving your face against the glass. You couldn't help but moan as he held your neck in place forcing you to look at the workers below.

"I want everyone to know your mine." He said to you. He ripped your shirt to your uniform pulling the fabric exposing your breast. He pushed you harder against the glass.

"You like that they can see you don't you?" Kylo asked.

Before you could answer Kylo ran his finger through your wet slits.

"Look at you dripping onto my floor from how wet you are." He rubbed slow circles on your sensitive bud. "Do you want me to fuck you here? Let everyone watch as I slam my cock into you?"

"God yes! please commander." You begged.

"Please what?" He snarled as he leaned over the panel flipping a switch.

"Please fuck me in front of everyone Kylo. I want them to see me cum on your cock. Please commander fuck me." You begged louder.

Your voice echoed through the room and hanger. You gasped at the realization that he had turned on the coms. Your gasp however was quickly turned into a moan as he stuffed his hard cock into you.

"Fuck your so tight and wet." He hissed as be bottomed out into you.

He lifted your right leg and placed it high above the panel. Angled deeper into you. Holding onto your hip with one hand, he still held your neck forcing you to watch the workers below you. He slammed his hips up and the slowly pulled his cock further out until he slammed back into you.

Loudly you moaned, your cunt tighting around him as more workers stopped and looked up at the window towards you.

"You like your commander fucking you don't you." He asked.

"yes commander!" You moaned as he stretched you open.

"tell them. Let everyone hear how badly you love my cock. How much of a slut you are for me." He groaned.

You moaned for a second trying to catch your breath.

"I love it commander. I want to be stuffed by your big hard cock all day." you moaned loudly.

"I want you to fuck me and cum in me commander. Breed me like the whore I am." You panted.

"fuck." He whispered.

"Oh commander please let me cum." You begged as he plunged deep into you. The need to cum started to become to much. After being denied early you badly need to cum. You closed your eyes tight trying to wait for him to say you could.

"Look at them." He groaned. "Let them watch you cum on my cock like the whore you are."

You forced your eyes down as he rammed into you. Some workers stood still watching, a few acted like they didn't hear or see you. But one or two palmed themselves while looking up at you as you bounced against his cock. You breast and face pressed firmly against the glass.

"Cum for me. Show them who you belong to!" He yelled slamming against your cervix.

"YOU COMMANDER!" You yelled cumming on him.

You pussy milking him as you came.

"Fuck!" He yelled as he kept fucking you through your orgasm.

"Please cum in me commander. Please. Please commander ren cum in me." You panted over and over like a prayer.

"God damn!" He thrusted his hips. "I love fucking your cunt."

He grabbed your hips holding you against him as he spilled himself at last into you. He held you there as he gave you every last drop. Slowly he pulled out. You couldn't help but whimper as you already missed the feel of him.

Softly he turned you around pulling your uniform back into place sweetly. Once he was done he bent down to the panel.

"Back to work." He barked flipping the coms off.

You turned towards the window to see everyone hurry along as fast as they could.

"Are you alright y/n? "He spoke to you softly turning your head back towards him.

You smiled happily, "Yes commander I couldn't be better."

He kissed your lips gently, "If its to much you just have to say our safe word love."

"I know Kylo. It wasn't to much. I liked it." You giggled resting your head against his forehead.

"I could tell." He laughed.  

"come on my love. Lets go back to out rooms and freshen up." He took your hand into his and lead you back to your joined rooms.

You couldn't help but smile. You loved Kylo and you knew once you got to our rooms that you to were far from done.

   Finn and Han were sprinting through the Starkiller Base headquarters, and Chewie and I were sharp at their heels. Now and then, I would hear the chaotic sounds of blasters firing and people screaming, telling me that there was some sort of brutal attack on the entire base. We raced past dozens of empty rooms, having to conceal ourselves every so often from Stormtroopers rushing to the scene of the chaos. Finn led us through winding corridors and hallways, seemingly knowing where to go, even though it felt like we weren't making any progress in this maze of a base. I was keeping an eye out for the girl I had seen earlier (Rey, I supposed), but at least an hour had gone by, and she had yet to show up.

   The shock of knowing that my squadron was alive, after believing for months that they were all dead, had been replaced with anger. Anger at my own stupidity, anger at my weaknesses, but mostly anger towards Kylo Ren. He had lied to me about everything - and because of that, I was in a completely different situation than I would have been, had I known the truth. My perspective of everything had changed; I realized that, whether General Organa had been searching for me or not, I still owed everything to her. Even if Alavai and Jaxx were dead (which they weren't), I still should have continued to push myself away from Kylo Ren, instead of finding comfort in him. I owed them that much, if not more. And Kylo Ren... I was disgusted with myself to have let him get close to me. He was a large part of the threat on the Resistance, and I had let him touch me, let him walk by my side. I still wasn't sure if what I had felt for him was a part of his control on me or not, but either way, I was horrified that I had ever even spoken with him.

   As we reached the end of the corridor, Finn and Solo pushed themselves against the wall, and I followed. Several workmen jogged by us with blasters at hand, shouting orders to each other.

   "Is that a PLX 2M?!" Solo whispered.

   Finn looked at him confusedly. "How do you know so much about First Order artillery?" he said.

   "I knew a guy who used to sell them in the underground market." Solo replied. "And, boy, what I wouldn't give to have that missile launcher right now..."

   Chewie let out a small cry, holding up his crossbow.

   "Yeah, Chewie, but sometimes you want to put more than just an arrow in someone's gut." Solo rolled his eyes.

   Finn slowly crept to the other wall, followed by the rest of us. Across the room was a large, metal door; through it's window, I could see racks and rows of different weapons. Being a natural rebel, it was a sight for sore eyes, and I was anxious to get my hands on it all.

   "Well hello beautiful..." I mumbled, unable to hide the excitement on my face.

   Solo chuckled. "She sounds more like me than my own son." he said.

   "Ok." Finn said, ignoring our comments. "First things first, we need some better weapons..." He gestured towards Chewbacca's crossbow, "... no offense. Then we need to get the shields deactivated on the base. The rebel squadrons will be coming in pretty soon, and they won't be able to deal any damage if we don't get those shields down first."

   As Finn continued to describe his plan, my attention was locked on someone else. A chrome-clad Stormtrooper marched down the halls towards the weapons room. Their armor revealed their elevated status, along with the cape that draped over their shoulders. Granted, I had no idea who they were - I hadn't seen them on the base, despite having wandered almost the entire thing.

   I tapped Finn on the arm. "That might be our ticket to the artillery room." I whispered.

   "Perfect!" he said. "Alright - Solo, you cut them off by the door - just grab their attention for a second. I'll come up behind with Chewie, and then- "

   Before he could finish, we heard a loud, animalistic cry, followed by a crash. Through the corridor, Chewbacca had thrown himself on top of the high-ranking officer - despite their attempts to throw him off, his weight held them in place. He looked back at us and gave a victorious yell.

   "You idiot!" Finn said, exasperated. "You could have blown our cover!"

   Solo pushed past Finn. "He is an idiot, don't get me wrong. But at least his heart's in the right place."

   Chewbacca let out a defiant cry.

   "Oh- I'm sorry, your highness, thank you very much for taking the initiative in this."

   Chewbacca pulled the officer back up on their feet, and held their arms securely. Finn approached them and glared angrily through their helmet. "We need access to the artillery room."

   "And what makes you think that I would give a band of fleas such intel?" she said calmly.

   "Huh." I stared right through her helmet. "Never thought the First Order would give such a high rank to a woman, given how they treat them."

   She turned her head towards me. "For your information, I earned my rank. Supreme Leader Kylo Ren's interest in my skill had nothing to do with my promotion."

   "'For your information', bitch," I held my blaster under her chin, "... Kylo Ren doesn't give a shit about you. He doesn't give a shit about who's behind that helmet. All he cares about his himself. So stop pretending that you're the favorite one here and give us the code to the damn room."

   For a moment, she stared back at me. "You're right..." she finally said. "As I recall it, you were his favorite, actually."

   My cheeks grew hot from her remark. Angry, I hit her across the side of her helmet with the end of my blaster. She recoiled a bit, and her chrome exterior now had a scratch across it from my gun. Han grabbed me by the arms and pulled me away as I tried to slug her once more.

   "Calm down, feisty!" he spun me around and stared at me in the eyes. "We need this thing alive, remember?"

   Chewbacca growled at Solo, pointing at me.

   Han sighed. "I don't know what she meant, and I don't care, ok? This chick has been helping us long enough through the base, so I'm counting on her as our way out."

   Finn spoke up. "What did she mean, you're Kylo Ren's favorite?" he gave me a suspicious look.

   "Oh, she didn't tell you?" the officer spoke again. "For a while now, she's become his pet. He's been keeping her in his chambers and providing protection for her. He even fought my general to keep her out of harm's way. I don't know what information she gave him to change him into her protector, thought it must have been important."

   "I didn't give him any information," I said angrily. "... he said he- well, it doesn't matter what he said, I didn't make him do anything."

   "Sorry girl, but it does matter." Solo looked me in the eyes again. "What did he say to you?"

   My cheeks grew hot with embarrassment. I felt like a child being reprimanded for doing something I shouldn't have. Is he really going to make me say it? "He said... he said he loved me." I mumbled quietly.

   "Huh?" Finn said.

   "He said he loved me!" I responded, a little louder than I wanted to.

   Solo now had a look of disbelief on his face. "And you believed him?! You gullible sack of scrap metal- "

   "Are you kidding me?!" Finn said, and looked like he might vomit.

   "Look, I get it, it's stupid!" I shouted. "You don't understand how dumb I feel for falling for it! I think he was controlling my mind with that dumb force shit, that's why I believed him!"

   Solo ran a hand over his face. "Oh my god, kids these days..."

   "- but I swear, I didn't tell him anything! I didn't give him information, I didn't trade anything for protection... he just, sort of did it. All by himself."

   "Ok, look here, kid." He looked back at me, serious once again. "I don't care what happened. You seem alright to me, and like you've got your senses back. You've helped us so far, so I'll trust you. But so help me, if you step one foot out of line- "

   "I swear, I won't."

   "- you're going to be his dinner." He pointed to Chewbacca, who growled in agreement. "And it's been at least four hours since he's eaten, so he's hungry."

   I looked at Chewbacca, who gave me a rather toothy, yellow grin. "I promise, I won't."

   Solo nodded, satisfied with my answer. "Good. Now, what's it gonna take to get you to open the artillery room for us?" He looked at the officer.

   Finn thought for a moment, before answering confidently. "I know where the trash compacter is."

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   After upgrading our weapons, Finn, Chewie, Solo and I continued to sneak around the corridors. Finn kept mentioning the "Rey" that he was hoping to find, which made me wonder why everyone in the galaxy was searching for this girl. Solo and Chewie continued to mumble passive aggressive remarks to each other, despite Finn's shushing. I followed closely behind them all, still fuming about Kylo Ren's lies and the officer's remarks. My emotions were a jumbled mess from being pushed away for so long, and it was getting more and more difficult to keep them at bay.

   Eventually, we had found Rey (after nearly slamming into her when turning corners). She was the girl I had seen earlier, and was much less threatening than I had assumed. Although I couldn't tell why she was so important to the First Order, I decided not to question her origin and intentions. She seemed trustworthy enough, and it was evident that Kylo Ren had traumatized her enough as well.

   Upon seeing each other, she and Finn had embraced for a while, while he mumbled apologies to her and she cried. I stood there in silence, awkwardly watching and wondering how long they had been apart. Chewie stood next to me and grumbled impatiently in the silence, to which we then continued our journey through the base. At some point, amidst the chaos and commotion of personnel running around the base, fighting whatever was attacking them, Han Solo had separated from us. Chewie told us (translation provided by Rey) not to worry - that he could handle himself.

   Finally, we arrived at a large, dark tunnel that ran deep into the ground - so much so that it was impossible to see the bottom. We carefully made our way across the thin platforms and bridges, making sure to avoid any of the Stormtroopers or officers below.

   "Where are we headed?" I asked quietly.

   "Out." Finn replied. "The Resistance is planning on blowing up the entire planet, so we need to get out of here fast."

   "The Resistance is here?!" I said in disbelief. I wondered if Kiera and Delmi were there too. For their own sake, and so I had a chance to beg their forgiveness later, I hoped they weren't. "Do you know how much time we have?"

   "Not long. Hopefully we can get back to the Falcon in time."

   "Look!" Rey cried out, and pointed to a platform below us.

   Upon peering over the ledge, my breath caught in my throat. Han Solo was standing on a bridge, right in front of Kylo Ren. My heart stopped at how close they were to each other.

   "What is he doing?" I said, leaning over the railing to get a better look. Kylo Ren's body was shaking and his shoulders slumped, and with every word he said, Solo's lip would tremble. My intuition was telling me that, whatever was happening down there, it wasn't going to end well.

   Rey furrowed her brow. "Is he reconciling to his father?" she asked.

   Like hell he is... "We need to get him away from Kylo..." I said sharply.

   "But it looks like Solo might have finally knocked some sense into that kid!" Finn was staring anxiously at the scene below. "Is... is he crying? What a big baby- "

   "He's not really crying!" I said, holding my blaster into position. "He's faking it, that son of a bitch!!"

   "Hey, watch it- "

   The sound of my blaster firing drowned out Finn's concerned voice. I never let my weapon down until I made sure it hit its mark - right in the back of Kylo Ren's leg.

   Even from the distance, I could hear his anguished cry as he keeled over. Solo looked up at us with shock and anger. He was obviously shouting in wrath, although none of us could make out what he was saying.

   "What the hell did you do?!" Finn shouted, and snatched my blaster before I could fire again. "Are you crazy?!"

   "I may have just saved Solo's life! That boy is a liar who would sell his own soul to get what he wants, and you can't trust a damn thing he does!!"

   "Or you could have killed him!!" he shouted back.

   "She's right." Rey chimed in, still watching the scene below. "He won't change. We need to get Solo out- "

   Before she could finish, the sound of a lightsaber slashing echoed through the hall. We looked back to Kylo Ren and Han Solo on the platform; Kylo's lightsaber was buried deep into Solo's abdomen.

   "NO!!" Finn shouted. Rey gasped in shock, followed by an anguished cry from Chewbacca.

   My breath caught in my throat as I watched Kylo Ren throw Solo over the edge of the platform. I could feel my heart drop into my stomach as he disappeared into the gaping hole below. I was frozen in shock. "God, no, no no..." I muttered the words over and over, hoping it was a dream.

   "He's gone..." Rey said shakily. "Solo, he's gone. Oh my god, Leia..."

   Kylo Ren looked up at us, before locking eyes with Rey. If he could have had any more hatred on his face, he did. He gripped the hilt of his lightsaber tightly, as if he were going to throw it.

   "Go, go!!" Finn directed Rey away from the ledge as fast as he could. Chewie and I continued to stand there in shock, staring down at Kylo Ren. He now stared back at me, somewhat shocked.

   How did you get here?! His words were full of rage and resentment. I could feel him trying to dig into my mind again; that same, painful scraping from before, when he had tried to interrogate me. Yet, I didn't succumb to the pain. Instead, I was able to feel his emotions. Leaking through the wrath on the surface were sadness, regret, and pain of his own.

   "Why?!" I leaned over the railing and screamed at him. "He was your father, you bastard!!"

   He glared up at me, furious that I could feel his emotions. Come here, NOW.

   The pull was stronger now - I was fighting the urge to obey his command, and it was harder than ever before. I closed my eyes and focused: don't do it, don't listen to him, think of something else. I directed my attention to my hands, gripping the railing as hard as they could.

   "What's wrong with you?!" Finn's shout snapped me back to reality. He ran towards me, Rey close behind. "We need to go, now!!" He grabbed my arm and dragged me away from the edge.

   Chewbacca began firing his blaster at whomever he could and yelled in rage. I took one last look at him - although he was beastly, I could see the pain in his expression. He was fuming and hurt that he had just lost his life-long partner, and that it was to the man's own son. He disappeared behind the walls of the room, his cries echoing, as we fled the scene.

   Finn led us outside the dark and sleek interior of Starkiller Base. When I stepped out into the snow, my eyes forced themselves shut; the world around me was so white, from the snow that completely covered the planet, to the cloudy sky above. I hadn't seen such a bright setting in ages, and it was painful to look at. I followed closely behind Finn and Rey, trying to focus on their footprints ahead of me as I fought to keep my eyes open. Above us, I could hear the sounds of X-Wing and TIE Fighters firing at each other. Debris from destroyed space crafts rained from the sky, nearly hitting us as we continued to run.

   Eventually, we entered into the woods. The sky was blocked out by the towering evergreens around us, but the snow still fell heavy. I could hear Finn's and Rey's strained breaths, as well as my own pounding heartbeat, now that the commotion was well behind us.

   "Wait!" Rey shouted, slowing to a stop. She put her hands on her knees and tried to catch her breath.

   "What is it?" Finn stopped next to her, concerned.

   Rey took some deep breaths before looking back at Finn and me. Her face was covered in tears and sweat and her hair was a mess. "Where are we going?"

   Finn looked around: although he knew where the fight was going on behind us, there was no other indication that we were heading towards safety. Or, furthermore, if there even was such a thing. The sky was growing darker with each second, making it even more difficult to tell what direction to go in.

   "I'm not sure," he finally said, "... but we just need to get away from the fight. We need to get you back to the Resistance fleet."

   "And what about Han Solo?!" I said angrily. "We're not going to talk about what just happened? That his own son just killed him, and that we had the chance to stop him? But we didn't?!"

   Finn sighed. "We don't have the time for that right now, if you hadn't noticed! And there was nothing we could do!"

   "There was!!" I stood firmly in front of Finn, staring at him with anger. "I tried to save Solo and you stopped me! I could have killed Kylo Ren that moment, but you wouldn't let me!"

   "You had plenty of chances to kill him!!" He matched my volume. "You pranced around with him for who knows how long, and you didn't do a damn thing! You're not any better than me, or even him!! Why didn't you kill him, huh?"

   I opened my mouth to answer, but I couldn't think of anything to say. Why didn't I kill him? There were so many chances I could have taken, why didn't I even think about it?

   "Face it, you've become one of them, haven't you?!" He continued.

   "Fuck off!!" I screamed as I tried to slug him across the face. Finn grabbed my arms and tried to fight back, although I held my stance firmly and continued to try and punch him.

   "Stop it you two!!" Rey shouted.

   We both looked at her. She was standing straight, her hands balled into fists, and a look of frustration hanging from her face. "What happened was awful, and I don't know what to tell Leia. But we'll have time to discuss it later. We need to get out of here, stop wasting your time and your energy being idiots!"

   Finn and I looked at each other, and instantly I felt foolish. I quickly moved away from him, and he let go of my arms. We both stared in opposite directions of each other.

   I understood what this was - for the first time in a long time, I was finally free of Kylo Ren. Now, all of the emotions that had been pushed back were rising up, more intense than ever. I had to control this, before I couldn't. I didn't want to be like Kylo Ren, who didn't care where his anger directed him.

   "Ok." Finn broke the silence. "So what now?"

   Rey looked around her, as if an answer would pop up out of the snow. "I don't know. Just keep heading away from the center of the base?"

   I nodded in agreement. "That sounds good. We should be safe for a little bit - I can't hear him right now."

   Rey and Finn both looked at me in astonishment. "What?" they both said.

   I froze. Shit! Panicking, I frantically searched for an explanation. "Wh- uhh... y- you don't hear him too?"

   "Hell no!" Finn stared at me like I was a creature he'd just discovered. "What do you mean, 'hear him' ?"

   What now, what now, what now... "I, uhh, sometimes I hear him, like he's speaking to me. Directly. But, it's... it's in my head. But I hear his voice, just... in my... head."

   They continued to look at me in shock. I shifted my weight in the uncomfortable silence. Stupid! Why the hell did you say that? What's wrong with you?!

   "How?" Rey finally said.

   I quickly shrugged. "I don't know, it just happens. He can hear me, too."

   "What?!"

   I slapped my forehead and sighed. You fucking idiot!! "I mean, he reads my thoughts! Erhm, but not all of them. I've been getting better at blocking him out."

   "Oh, so you've been practicing with him, have you?!" Finn crossed his arms over his chest and gave me a suspicious look. Rey continued to hang her jaw in disbelief.

   "No! No, that's not what I meant, just- "

   Suddenly, Rey was launched into the air, screaming as she collided with the tree behind me. She was instantly knocked out as her head hit the trunk.

   "Rey!!" Finn cried out, rushing towards her as she fell to the ground. I began to follow him as well - when I heard it.

   Come.

   I froze, fear rushing through my body. He was close. Kylo Ren was close to us. I had to get as far away from him as I possibly could.

   "No..." I answered, searching for an escape. I let my feet carry me in a random direction as I tried to find any sanctuary from the situation.

   Finn looked back at me desperately. "I need you to help me get her out of here!"

   "I'm sorry..." the words fell out of my mouth, barely a whisper. "I can't stay here, he knows I'm here- "

   "Of course he knows!" Fin shouted angrily. "He knows we're all here! We're all in deep water, not just you! If you run away now, you only put yourself in more danger, or you abandon your friends to die. Is that what you want?!"

   Finn's words quickly sank into my brain. Of course I didn't want that. Just like I didn't want to leave Delmi and Kiera behind. I didn't mean to abandon them, I was just... running away. Saving myself. Finally admitting this to myself made tears flow from my eyes. I never even thought how leaving them behind would affect them, not just my own self. How could I have done that, and truly called myself their friend? "Oh my god..."

   "Look, I almost ran away too." Finn said. "And it didn't just affect me, it affected Rey. I let my fear put my friends in danger - I was a coward."

   "I'm not a coward." my voice shook as I spoke, more to myself than Finn. Although I knew the words were a lie.

   "Then help me help her. So we can all get each other to safety." he pleaded. "If you really aren't a coward, you won't leave her behind."

   I looked at Rey, still unconscious in the snow. She needs both our help. Don't abandon them again. Don't abandon Kiera and Delmi.

   "Ok." I said, still shaking. I knelt down next to him. "What do we do?"

   Finn searched his mind for a plan. "Chewie should be getting help... we just need to keep- "

   He was cut off mid sentence by a stone colliding with his head. He was knocked back into the snow, right next to Rey.

   "FINN!" I cried, dropping next to him. There was a small trail of blood running down from his forehead, although not too much; he was just unconscious, but that wasn't good either. I scanned the woods around us, searching for Kylo Ren. Strangely, the trees were the only things surrounding the area. He was nowhere in sight.

   "What the hell?" I whispered, still in shock. I looked at the stone on the ground, just a few feet from me. It was smooth and glossy - too artificial to have been lying around in the woods. So where did it come from? And further, stones didn't just fly around for no good reason. It was Kylo Ren, it had to be.

   I shook my head, clearing the panic from my mind. I had time to get Rey and Finn to safety. And right now, that mattered more than myself.

   I quickly spotted two fallen trees, one leaning against another. It made a small shelter against the wind, and anyone who may have been coming from behind us. I scooped up Rey into my arms and carried her behind the trees. She was lighter than I had expected, and barely made a dent in the snow. Finn, on the other hand... I resorted to dragging him by his arms, and struggled to throw him over the two trunks. He landed heavily on his side, his head resting in the snow.

   Come here.

   A chill ran down my spine. It was him. The voice was calm and gentle, but it was him. Fear quickly flooded my veins and my heart pounded. How long has he been here?

   Trust me.

   "Don't you fucking dare..." I whispered, anger building in my chest. "Don't you dare think that after everything you did- "

   I kept you alive. I spared you. I gave you a chance no one else had. You should be thanking me.

   I squeezed my eyes shut. I knew he was lying, it was obvious now. Yet there was still a part of me, an innocent, gullible part, that thought he was right. And I couldn't drown out that thought.

   You're tired. You need to rest.

   "No!" I shouted, sinking to the ground. I buried my head in my knees and held my ears shut, trying to block out any thought, any lingering of him.

   I know you.

   "You don't know shit about me!!"

   Come here.

   His voice resonated throughout my head. I couldn't hear the wind anymore, I couldn't hear my own heartbeat... it was just those two words, over and over again, beckoning me to move towards Kylo Ren.  

   "STOP IT!!" I screamed. "Get out of my head!! Just get out!!"

   Come here.

   "No!" I shouted again. "I won't! Stay away from me, stay out of my head!!" I clawed at my head in attempt to distract myself from his words. They were oddly alluring to me. Instead of them being angry and violent, they were gentle. Almost as if he was cooing at me. I knew it was all a trick, but my mind was used to the softness of his voice. I was so tired, so weak, and so desperate, and the sound of his words were so enticing.

   Snap out of it!! I thought to myself. Whether the words were kind or not, this was Kylo Ren; the man who manipulated everyone and lied about everything. I shouldn't have been interested in anything that had to do with him. Yet, even as I mentally screamed at my weak will, I continued to feel the want to get up and go to him.

   Eventually, I couldn't resist the urge.

   "I'm not crazy..." I mumbled, pushing myself off of the ground and making my way to him. I didn't know why, but I didn't bother to question it.

   He was standing in front of me - where he came from, I had no idea. Upon seeing me, he removed his helmet and dropped it in the snow. His lightsaber was ready at hand, glowing menacingly against the white of the forest surrounding us. His expression was calm, though I could see a hint of anger and frustration in his eyes. I stopped a few feet away and stared at him.

   "I'm not insane." I repeated - like a broken record.

   "Do you actually think that?" he spat, his voice shaking in anger. "Can you even think for yourself anymore, after what I've done to you?"

   What does that even mean? I thought, and Kylo Ren heard me.

   "Would you believe me if I had told you that you haven't acted of your own free will since the day you got here?"

   I didn't answer. I couldn't answer, I couldn't even make any facial expression to show my pain. But the inside of my head was screaming with agony, at his words and at his hold on my mind.

   "Keeping you in that cell," he continued, "that was just the beginning of breaking you down. I knew your will was too strong to succumb to physical pain, and may have only gotten stronger through the torture. So I waited - it wasn't easy, and you know I'm not a man of patience. But I could see that leaving you alone in that cell was destroying your sanity. You became desperate for any sort of comfort or consolation, that it didn't matter from whom it came. Naturally, I took the opportunity, right when you had told me you had given up. You were at your weakest point, and I was able to control your emotions without you ever knowing it. I made you feel safe, at ease... and because your will was so broken, so defeated... it was simple, almost too easy, to make you think and do what I wanted. I could make you believe anything, trust anything, feel anything, all with a small thought of my own."

   "If you could do all that," I said, trembling, "...if I was so broken, then why did you drag it out so long? Why didn't you just get the information you wanted and kill me?"

   He didn't answer right away, as he calculated his answer. "Simple boredom." he replied. "Which was my mistake, of course. There's nothing to do on this base besides giving and taking orders. When I realized that I had created such a puppet out of you, I decided to have fun with it. Although I believe this attack could have been long avoided had I just retrieved the location of the base and disposed of you."

   My brain was hazy under his trance. Each word he spoke made me think of when I had trusted him, when I had felt comfortable around him. But the memories were sour now, and tainted with the realization that it was all a game. "You..." I began as I glared into his eyes, to which he seemed intimidated. "You are nothing but weak, and you know it."

   "Quiet!!" he cried, bringing his lightsaber up to my neck with a menacing expression. "You've been lied to since the moment you got here! You can't possibly know what I am!!"

   "I saw what you were moments ago!" I shouted back at him, ignoring the lightsaber at my neck. "You're a monster, and a murderer! But more than that, you're the rotten bastard, a disgraceful, son-of-a-bitch- "

   "I SAID QUIET!!" he growled.

   "- lazy and immature coward!!"

   "ENOUGH!!" Kylo Ren drew back his lightsaber and slashed it across my torso. I collapsed against the tree behind me, though he used the force to keep me standing up. I seethed and bit my tongue as I stared at the new mark on my stomach; it didn't cut through me, but it left a long stripe, stretching from one side to the other.

   I looked back at him. "Just kill me!!" I screamed angrily. "You've stated your intentions, and you've shown me how I'm not a piece in this game anymore - so just kill me for god's sake!!"

   Kylo Ren clenched his jaw, still fuming. "You're not going to bother asking why I'm explaining all of this to you?!"

   "I couldn't give a fuck about you or what you have to say!"

   He ignored me. "I'm telling you this now because, well... because I couldn't tell anyone else what I was doing to you. I've kept our secret for months, lest anyone find out the fact that I was just having fun. And as you should know, any type of isolation - whether it be keeping a secret, or not being able to speak to anyone but my own conscious - it's a wretched feeling. So, that is why I am explaining my plan to you. It doesn't matter if you know, since I'm going to kill you."

   But-

   "But what?" he sneered. "Did you really think I felt affection towards you? Did you honestly think I was telling the truth?" he spat the word out, as if it had tasted sour. "I must have been doing a very good job of it, then, since even now, you still believe I had feelings for you. That, or you must be terribly dense." he walked to my side, disappearing from my vision. "Think to yourself - why would I ever admire you? Why would I be so infatuated with such an insignificant person? You mean nothing to me, and you never have. Nor will you ever."

   He allowed me to speak, only to answer him. "You said that I entranced you. That you were intrigued by my resilience to the force. You said - you said you loved me." I felt stupid and ashamed repeating his words - they were obviously lies. It was so damn clear now, it made me want to vomit. And I had been so blind to believe that they were true. It was sickening to know that I had ever accepted them to be real. It made me realize how weak I was, how gullible I had been.

   "Not all of that is a lie." He stated, as I got back up on my feet. "I was interested in you. You had the strongest willpower of the pilots in your squadron. Possibly, of all the pilots I have come across. I was confused in how you were able to remain reserved under the force. But I never loved you." he chuckled to himself. "It's funny to think that you believed me when I said that. All it took were a few lies, and I was able to control you, little by little."

   He sighed, turning to look me in the eyes. "It is, however, disheartening, to think that all this work I put into you still resulted in nothing. I had hoped that in a few weeks you would have revealed the location of the Resistance Base, but then they had to come and initiate an attack. I wasn't able to fight them off and keep you under my control. Even the most experienced Jedi can't control that much at once."

   Anger welled up in my chest, and I wanted to scream. I wanted to punch, scratch, kick, do whatever I could to injure Kylo. However, the restraint holding me back from hurting him only fueled my anger, which led to tears falling down my cheeks. Everything he was saying was so painful, but now that I knew, I wasn't shocked by any of it. It was something I had expected from so wicked a person, yet every second of listening to him speak was torture.

   "You think this, right now, is torture." he said. "But wait until I finally kill you."

   This caught me off guard; I chuckled to myself a bit. "You know what? I've been waiting for it for weeks." I said with a sneer. I knew he hated that, and I didn't care. For the first time in a long time, I felt liberated. Kylo Ren was about to kill me. I was going to die - death was right in front of me, shrouded in black and angry that I had managed to escape his grasp more than once. I wasn't afraid. I wasn't giving up, either... I just felt at peace.

   But of course, he wasn't going to let me have that. "I will thoroughly enjoy this, my dear."

   As he said this, he pushed the cross hair of his lightsaber into my abdomen. A fierce heat flowed violently from the lightsaber and into the rest of my body, and my muscles twitched and seized instinctively from the wound. Even though I was still under his grasp on my mind, I stuttered and shook in pain. Tears began to fall harder, and I could feel the lightsaber cauterizing as quickly as it tore through my skin.. It was warm, but it only made the pain worse as time went on. My breath was heavy and cold, and my heartbeat had quickened drastically. I felt the pain; I knew it was pain, and it made me want to scream and writhe in agony. But all I could do was stand there and stare Kylo in the eyes, until he either released my mind from his grip, or finally killed me. And I was sure it would be the latter.

   Fear

   But I wasn't afraid.

   Father. Han Solo.

   These images and thoughts in my mind weren't my own...

   Pain

   These were his thoughts. Kylo Ren's thoughts. Why could I hear them? Why were they so loud in my head?

   I can't do this.

   I looked at him in the eyes. Does he know I can hear him? I thought. The pain from the lightsaber subsided as I continued to listen to his thoughts.

   Suddenly, I noticed his expression change; he seemed angry, as if I had insulted him. His eyes widened, and leaned in closer to my face. "You will not break me!!" he spat.

   The next words that slipped from my mouth... I'm not sure where they came from. I can't even say that they were my own.

   "I won't be the one to break you, Ben."

   Upon hearing me speak, he wrapped his hand around my throat and began to choke me. The lack of oxygen was excruciating, however, I continued to be numb to the pain.

   "What did you say?" he growled.

   I struggled against his grip, trying to pry away his fingers with my own. I attempted to answer him, but his hand only tightened around my neck with each gasp.

   Suddenly, a blue light raced past my head. Kylo was forcefully knocked to the ground, tearing his lightsaber away from my side. I could feel the force being pulled from my head, and almost instantly, pain replaced it. I fell backwards into the snow, screaming in anguish from the pain in my abdomen. My muscles convulsed involuntarily, my head seared with pain - it was all so much at once. Only moments before, Kylo was holding me back from reacting to the wound, and now that he was gone, all I could feel was the searing heat in my side..

Since becoming a First Order Doctor, you hadn’t seen Kylo Ren much. There wasn’t very many people who were nice to you. They still saw you as ‘Rebel Scum’ and if that wasn’t bad enough they often called you ‘Traitor’ to your face. After awhile, you gave up on trying to make friends with anyone in the Empire. Thankfully, you had your chambers as your sanctuary. You were stationed in the infirmary wing, so you often took your lunch break in your room, to avoid the awkwardness of walking in to the cafeteria and getting stared at. 

It didn’t take long before you were homesick for Crait. Homesick, for your friends, everything you left back home. Today, it hit you like a wave, and you were currently drowning, in the water. Kylo, had felt your sadness and your anxiousness, and tried to contact you through the force. You weren’t having it today. After, your shift was over you made your way to your chambers sighing in defeat. It had been a rough day, patients, weren’t too happy that they had gotten a ‘Rebel’ Doctor to patch them up. That didn’t stop them from saying hurtful things to you. 

Letting out a sigh, you couldn’t help the tears that had formed, now threatening to fall. Once, inside your chambers, the tears streamed down your cheeks, with no end in sight. It wasn’t long before you gathered your most comfortable pajamas, you thought it would be best to let it out, so you went into the bathroom, turned on the shower, and threw yourself a ‘Pity Party’, in the shower.

Kylo, was overwhelmed with your self thrown ‘Pity Party’, and the tears that were streaming down your face. He felt a ping of his own sadness, because he has been distancing himself from you. It was something unknown and foreign to him. He shares the same romantic feelings you have, but he wouldn’t let himself feel them. To him, any sort of feeling was a weakness, that someone could use to their advantage, it didn’t stop him from his attempts to keep trying to contact you through the force. When it was apparent that you wanted nothing to do with him, he couldn’t help but frown and furrow his eye brows, thankfully nobody knew what type of emotions his face portrayed behind his black mask.

Today, started off different from every other day. Your presence was request at the bridge where Kylo and General Hux were. Hux, was never a fan of yours, always making it very clear. Once you arrived, both men turned their attention to you. Kylo, wasn’t wearing his helmet today, which made you curious. Looking at him, it wasn’t hard to see that he was trying to get inside your mind. Since, the last time he was in your mind and failed to gather any information, your connection to the force had strengthened. It allowed you to be able to build a deeper and stronger shield in your mind, stopping anyone from trying to see inside, this seemed to have caught him off guard. 

“Supreme leader. General Hux.”

General Hux gave you a sickening smile before greeting you, “Hello, Y/N.” He took your hand in his and placed a kiss on the back of yours.

This caused you to make disgusted face, at his actions before responding, “Uh, thanks, I think?” 

Making sure he saw that you wiped the back of your hand on your uniform pants, in disgusted.

“Why am I here?”

“There’s some men who have seem to caught something, and we just want to make sure it’s nothing serious.”

Nodding in understanding, Hux, lead you to the side, area that had five men, who you assumed, needed your medical attention. Kylo, being curious as well as being protective, was leaning against the frame, making sure that none of the men over stepped their boundaries. 

It was five hours later, when you finished. Each of the men had something different from the last, ranging from Mono to strep throat, to a dislocated shoulder. You hadn’t noticed the tall mysterious man, standing there until it was time for you to pack up, and turn in. 

Turning to leave, you jumped causing you to drop your bag of your equipment.

Placing your hand over your heart you said, “Geez! You scared me!”

Chuckling, he picked up your bag for you, before he placed it on your shoulder, the gentle gesture, causing your cheeks to heat up. 

“Sorry.” His husky voice sounded, “I had to make sure none of the guys over stepped.” 

“Why does it matter if they do?” You asked dumbfounded.

Clearing his throat, a blush crept across his face realizing how close the two of you were standing, “It doesn’t!”

“Wait!"  You exclaimed happily, “You like me!”

“I do not!”

“Admit it! You think I'm gorgeous... You want to kiss me... You want to hug me... You want to love me... You want to smooch me... You want to hug --”

Before you could finish teasing him, both of his hands found your neck, pulling you to him before his lips were placed over yours. Your hands made their way, his his waist and fisted his black top. Turning his head slightly, his warm tongue, ran along your bottom lip. Allowing him, access he groaned at the contact of your tongue on his. One, of his hands moved into your hair, holding you tightly, as if you weren’t real and would fade away any second. Suddenly, you were interrupted by someone clearing their throat. 

Reluctantly, you both unwrapped yourselves from each other, resting your foreheads together before Kylo’s, deep voice sounded,

Today, there’s little to no work. Most people are working on finding leads to the map to Luke Skywalker, but you and Kylo Ren are just sitting around or walking around the halls. You two aren’t friends, but you aren’t enemies. You two don’t hate each other at all. You and Kylo are just walking through an empty hallway, when he all of a sudden, he stops. 

“I’ve never seen your face.”

“Excuse me?” Your modulated voice from your mask asks him.

“Show me your face.” He says.

“Why? You rarely show your face.” You shoot back.

He places his hands on his mask and takes it off. You see his dark locks and pale face. “Your turn.”

You roll your eyes, even though he can’t see. “You really want to see my face?” You ask. He nods. You roll your eyes again and place your hands on your mask. “You’re sure?” He nods. There wasn’t anything wrong with your face, you just didn’t like to show it.

You slowly took off your mask, letting your H/C hair fall out. 

His eyes widen. “Oh, maker they're beautiful.” He says. You laugh. “Did I just say that out loud?”

“Yes, you did.” You reply.

“I’m sorry.” 

You smile. “It’s okay. Actually, not many people have called me beautiful, let alone compliment me.”

He furrows his brow. “Why haven’t they?”

“Well,” You begin. “I’ve never been ‘normal.’ People made fun of me for being force-sensitive and I didn’t have many friends.” 

He walks up to you and moves some of your hair behind your ear. You blush. “You should take off your mask more often.”

“Here’s a deal. When we’re alone, I’ll take off my mask. Other than that, it stays on.”

“Deal.”

After that, you two hang out all of the time. If either of you were having nightmares, the other would come. You two became great friends. You think you might be catching feelings for me. He also now knows your real name. Y/N.

One night, you have a nightmare. Those are normal, but there was something different about this one. It included a child. (Not Baby Yoda. I know what you’re thinking.) And she killed you and Kylo. When you wake up, Kylo is there holding you.

“Hey, Y/N, it’s okay. Calm down. I’m here.” He says calmly as you attempt to compose yourself. “You’re okay. It was just a dream.

“It felt so real.” You reply. Kylo plays with your hair. He recently learned that doing so helped you calm down. “There was a child. She couldn’t have been older than 14. And, she killed me, and you.”

He gives you a confused look. “What did she look like?” 

“Um... Long, black, curly hair. E/C eyes. And she had a lightsaber, so she must have been force-sensitive.”

He kisses your temple, something both of you do to calm the other down. This is the side only you get to see of him. “It’s probably nothing.”

“Probably.” You try to slow your breathing. You put your head on his shoulder and he continues playing with your hair. “Now that I think of it, she looks a lot like you. But not completely like you.”

“The Force is probably messing with you. It’s unlikely we’d have a child. We’re just friends.”

You sigh. “What if,” You start, “I wanted us to be more than friends?” He furrows his brow. “You’re calming to me, you’re kind to me, and your looks are a plus, but not the main reason that I’ve fallen head over heels for you.”

“You, love me?” He asks.

“How could I not?” 

He looks into your eyes, then your lips. He leans in, and you meet him in the middle. 

It sounds cliche, and it is, but it feels like your stomach and heart are exploding. You’ve fallen for him since he called you beautiful. You two pull away because you, unfortunately, have to breathe to survive. 

“I’m so happy you feel the same.” He kisses your temple again. 

You smile. “That was terrifying for me. I have never been that forward.”

“You don’t need to be afraid when you’re with me. You are amazing, kind, and beautiful. I want you to know that.”

“Thank you.” You put your lips on his again and pull away after a few seconds. Kylo plays with your hair until you fall asleep. He smiles at your peaceful form and lays you on your bed and puts your blankets over you. He looks at you for a moment, then leaves your room and goes to his quarters to go back to sleep.