I hadn't been up into the living areas of Clark's house since Howard came into the picture. At least, came into the picture for me. That one day when he breached the property and I came up to intercept him.
It was on that day that I realised just how little Clark actually needed any of my protection. Clark didn't need me to protect him from Howard. In fact, even if Howard attacked him, they had stated very clearly that they both would prefer for Clark to take Howard down than for me to intervene.
The only one in this house that needed my protection was myself... And so I had retreated to downstairs, to the media room, and I had monitored the house for myself. Because what else was I supposed to do? What else could I do?
In time, I even ended up leaving my intel drones in their box because, again, what was the point?
But Howard had come to bother me here and there, and then he'd dragged me out for that junkyard operation... He'd gotten me moving and thinking again, much as I hate to admit it.
He had insisted I was 'part of the team'.
And with everything that was moving around me, I was now abruptly realising that something was brewing. Something was moving, setting up, preparing. And I was wholly uninformed. Mostly because I hadn't cared to listen in, especially not after the first time I realised those two were in a relationship and always being gross making eyes at each other, but that was beside the point. I was uninformed, is what the point was.
And that bothered me. Now, it bothered me. Howard had mentioned a war, and I had no clue what he even meant. And Jay's cryptic words had only made the feeling worse.
I needed to get back into the loop too.
And so, despite my hang-ups about it, I took my drones with me and warily climbed the stairs to the living areas.
I hadn't see Clark since that last time I came upstairs. I had talked to him, but not in person. But even then, I knew his schedule. I knew when he was home, and when he was at work.
It was hard to catch him when he was alone -- read: not wrapped around Howard -- but I knew this was one of the rare moments when he would be.
I had been hiding in the media room so much, being out there in the open left me feeling weirdly vulnerable, my throat tight with nerves. But I pressed on, and I knocked on the man's office door.
"Clark? I.. need to talk to you." I hadn't given him any advance warning. I glanced anxiously at both ends of the corridors while I waited for a response from the other side of the door. For good measure, I positioned one drone on each ends to keep an eye on them, then returned my gaze to the closed door. I already felt marginally better.