#kt rambles

While I don't disagree that fertility issues and miscarriages are often used as a cheep way to add drama to a narrative, and often do end up being misogynist in some way or just don't really add anything to the overall plot (not to bring the MCU into this but an example that comes to mind is Natasha equating her being forcibly sterilized with being a monster). However, I don't think that the inclusion of fertility issues or miscarriage is inherently misogynist. It is a thing that happens to people in real life, and I think that it can be explored in interesting and nuanced ways.

In the case of Severance, if they had just had the flashback to Gemma having a miscarriage and done nothing with it, I would agree that it didn't add anything but angst to the narrative. However, this really isn't the case. For one in season 1, Mark tells Alexa that he and Gemma had tried to have kids but it didn't work out. This implied some sort of infertility happening, and with the flashback to Gemma miscarrying, we see that he was downplaying what happened a bit, which says a lot about Mark I think. Also, the miscarriage is not just a one off thing. In the cold harbor room Lumon is using Gemma's trauma over her miscarriage/infertility to test and see if their brain splitting procedure is working.

Reservoir Dogs (1992) // ft. my personal re-soundtracking 

Hello beautiful!

I haven’t worked on that story in soooo long 😭 I never planned to be MIA this long, but life’s just been crazy and I feel like I never have down time with my job and parenthood, I do plan to finish off the two series I have going at the moment, but I just don’t know when. 😅 hopefully soon though! But I can’t make any promises at the moment! I planned for Beauty and the Beast to be a longer series, but that may not happen now so I’m thinking I may see if I can shorten it down a bit without losing the good stuff that I had planned for it. I don’t want to story to feel rushed or forced, but I may just shorten the filler things I had planned. We’ll see! It’s not fully dead in the water yet, just maybe a little lifeless for now 😂🥲

But I’m so glad you love that series so far! And I truly hope that you’ll enjoy wherever the story ends up going in the future! Sorry for the loooooooooong wait on updates, and fingers crossed I can get some work done on it soon!!!

Aries - - when have you felt the most confident in your writing? when have you felt the least confident?

The most confident I’ve ever felt about my writing came when my creative writing professor [ aka the most amazing man i’ve ever met ] talked about my writing. He was constructive, but so enthusiastic about my writing and my process and my words. I remember going to his office for a conference and he handed me an award I’d won for a piece I’d submitted and I almost cried because he gushed for fifteen minutes about it. His confidence in me rubbed off a bit. 

I feel very unconfident about my writing for so long. the doubt keeps creeping in at the edges. whenever I can’t find the exact wording i want and get frustrated, I think it’s not worth it. when I feel like I can never get anywhere with the words, I feel lost. when I watch videos about how hard it is to get traditionally published, I wonder if I’ll ever “make” it. so in essence, if someone is hyping me up, I feel very little confidence.

on the other hand, i write for myself, so i don’t really need to be confident at the moment. 

Pisces - - how do you visualize scenes? do you see it like a movie in your head, or do the words just flow?

it’s really a combination of both. some days, I see a scene so clearly it is like a film is rolling and the words just fit together. other times I have a feeling I want to invoke so I struggle with the wording to get the atmosphere just right. Some days I don’t know how to say 1600s gold hued Baroque ballroom with lens flare and chilling organ music. Other times, it is less about what a scene looks like and more like what it feels like. sometimes it's war just working through how a scene should move, flow, fit together with other scenes. other days it’s a puzzle, trying to fit together certain threads and weave them together, i ask myself, can this character really be here? can this character say this? have they learned this yet? it’s all kind of complicated and messy, which matches my drafting style, so it works. 

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