Inflamed
Bloated af
I know I fuck up, in behavioral wise, I mean
And Im not looking at my legs and saying things like ur disgusting, how can I hide my legs bla bla!!!
This aproach is so 2006 and I was a child back then -no context I know- but I grow up with dieters it effected me and I coped in a toxic way for a while and its okey. I am stronger than patterns —But now I want to be my best shape and just because I want that doesnt fucking mean I have a disorder nor anti-body positivist or smthn, —for me my best self’s items includes me being 20 pounds lighter, it doesnt mean the only thing yet its important and I should accept that.
I will be fasting not starving, I share my inflamed very softy legs :P here and its a statement not an insult and its a real positivity to me. This is my truth, no desperation around my weight goal or glow up project, I felt inspired to act on it and wanted to write down my goals. Im not saying Im being real or vulnerable here, Its way easier here then real life so in a way this is safe space to me. And Its better to fix my procrastination problem🙃
<3 final words to my Ed self, you are dying and this endless loop to keep us in pendulum. Back and forth it’s crumbling. And my adult self who isnt actually an addict, is not boring at all. And I found you cool 2 years ago other then that you were hell and now I mainly think ur a loser :( Ur dying and there is no other way. <3 555 Im serious😬😬😡😡🥸 555
