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Pile 1

Which part of your needs a little more loving?

Tarot: Knight of Pentacles, King of Pentacles (r) Oracle: cactus, Moonstone(r)

Hello Pile 1, so what I am getting is that you have huge expectations when it comes to the material/physical stuff. Honestly I do feel like this is my business pile. The knight of pentacles, to me, represents being in the middle of a journey. It’s all about the process and wanting to better yourself, this card is about being grounded will trying to make your wish come true. Now that it’s paired up with the King of Pentacles in reverse; it feels like you might not be recognizing the current you who is trying to build the foundation. The part of you the needs a lot more loving is the part that tries and is persists after every “downfall” or “failure”. You try and try again. That deserves so much praise, especially in a world that values convenience. You have a lot of endurance and resilience when it comes to your dreams. It shows that you aren’t going to give up on yourself and the outcome you want.

Now the draw back is creating high expectations for yourself. For ex: you open a business but realize you aren’t getting any sales. Yes it can be discouraging when no one buys and you end up comparing yourself to other businesses. Here’s the thing, every business owner has their struggles so it really isn’t best to compare, right? I feel like that is what kind of eats you and then you start to become judgemental of yourself, which now adds to the cycle of self-doubt. However it makes me sad that you feel this way! Trust somewhere down the line you will meet your goal and if not then still congratulate yourself for trying and having that bravery! It takes so much guts to do something and out it out there! Again nothing is set in stone so why not give yourself a pat on your back? Why not thank yourself for trying?

How can you honor your needs and wants?

Tarot: 6 of Cups, Queen of Swords, The Magician Oracle: Aromatherapy, Rest

Words of Affirmation is a way of honoring yourself. Remember sometimes the words you say to yourself can impact your emotional and mental health if you continue to say it enough. So when you say things like “I’m creative”, “I’m Brave”, “I’m Encouraging and Intelligent” you will notice how it influences your work flow. It seems like you have everything in you to fine a way to make things work. You have knowledge and things to get what you’re putting effort on. Another thing I’m getting is to get in touch with your childlike self for creativity. They may hold the key to helping you get out of a rut. Perhaps you’re scared to put things out there but remember the saying “hidden things won’t be found” so if you want people to also take notice on what you’re doing then don’t be afraid to put yourself out there. If people have destructive criticism or downright horrible energy to you then don’t pay any mind. You worked hard on yourself and on the thing you’re building.

Rest is one of the top ways to really honor and help yourself. When if comes to rest – it lets your body relax and lowers down your stress. You may notice some aches in the body, even tho it is admirable that you work hard, you have to remember to take your breaks. You are a human after all you need to live, love, laugh too you know? Lol. Another thing is Aromatherapy so this is kind of my all or nothing section of people (?) this card specifically came as reversed but it also didn’t feel completely right either. So if scents help you relax then by all means do what you can to make yourself feels cozy. If you don’t like scents be sure to clean out or put away things that is a distraction.

What does your authentic self-want you to know?

Tarot: 5 of Pentacles, 2 of Pentacles Oracle: Dawn, Opossum

“Hey you, you know you don’t have to do things all alone all the time. Don’t you think our (hyper)independence makes things harder for us? Sometimes doing thins alone tends to set us back than it is helpful. Don’t forget your friends and family alright? You have so many things to accomplish and it would be nice to celebrate these tiny and big wins, don’t you think? Just don’t lose hope when things are going a little unsteady, okay? Just because there are endings doesn’t mean it’s all over. Remember there is always the next day – a new beginning or a nice reset that’s needed. Our gardens die during the winter but they grow because it’s a fresh start. Doesn’t it sound nice? I find that when all the stress is present, something needs to end. So don’t be afraid of having a fresh start. Things need to change sometimes and that is okay. But don’t lose faith in yourself and other people, okay?"

Alrighty pile 1 big thanks for your attention and this is all I have for you for now! I hope you have a wonderful day or evening. If you’d like to show your support please like, comment, and reblog. If you would like a personal reading, please check out my etsy and ko-fi: coziercoud. See you in the next one, bye!

Pile 2

Which part of your needs a little more loving?

Tarot: Queen of Wands, 9 of Swords Oracle: Rat, Grasshopper (r)

Hi Pile 2! So honestly I think what needs a little more loving is your passionate side. You may also be a bit impulsive but I’m assuming there is a lot of excitement behind this. I don’t know if people put you down because you’re a lot more extroverted and aren’t afraid to be yourself, but I will say fuuuck them for making you feel small! Take up space! There is so much room on earth it is okay to be yourself and lets be honest not a lot of people like to be themselves anyway. You have so much creativity and I think I’m specifically picking up on your creativity? You may be into the fashion and arts – may even wear art pieces or make your own. Either way you are a creative individual who shouldn’t be afraid to express themselves. People tend to hate what they don’t understand ow follow what the new hype is, so why not pave the way instead?

If you’re around people who constantly mock and bully you, of course it’ll feel lonely right? But trust me there are people who will absolutely love you for you. You’re fun to be around and well a ball of light! You’re someone who thrives on sharing your inner world to the outer. When you do move forward on making friends or creating things, don’t be afraid of being out there. Remember not a lot of people have the courage to be themselves and are afraid of even creating things due to being perceived. So don’t beat yourself up for expressing yourself, you deserve to be who you are and if people don’t like it then they can just go somewhere else.

How can you honor your needs and wants?

Tarot: 10 of Pentacles, Ace of Pentacles Oracle: Sweet Treat, Hydrate, Nourish Your Temple

Well hydrating is definitely the most important thing because when the nourish the temple card came up I immediately think “oh they need to drink water”. So definitely carry a water bottle and if you need those types of bottles that measures water maybe that’ll help? Nourishing the temple I feel like it’s an all around thing – like complimenting and thanking your body for doing what it can and helping you for day to day life. Telling yourself you are beautiful and liking the little things you see on your body. It’s doing your best to eat healthy even if veggies come in frozen bags and cans. It’s washing your body and stretching. It’s also honoring what you crave and when your body says it’s enough. So if you want that sweet treat, why not eat it? It’s not like you’re having it every single meal right? Have something that makes you feel loved like the favorite desserts you had in childhood.

I genuinely don’t endorse over consumption but I do want to say is: shop with intention. The more that you start to understand what and why you like, how your body and mind feels toward it – the more it’s easier to shop and not worry about your wallet. So for example: lets say you’re exploring yourself and you like aesthetic numbers 1, 2, 3, 4 and you start to buy all these things. Instead why not look into why you like it and does it resonate with you or is it the algorithm curating it for you? Is the style what you personally like or does the public like it on you? Later when you start to realize “hey I like aesthetic 1,3,4 because this reminds me of myself and how I feel,” you start to understand that this is what you want and feel good buying it. Also don’t be afraid to create your own things as well. It’s a nice way to save money and engage I your creativity.

What does your authentic self-want you to know?

Tarot: Six of Wands, Knight of Pentacles Oracle: Scorpio, Weeping Willow

“We’ve been working on ourselves a lot and I wanna say that I am so proud of us! Look we’re done molting and if people don’t like our new shells then so be it. Though it will kind of sting but that’s okay we’ll just meet new people, you know? Why not have fun and just be ourselves? We’re creators after all that means we find beauty in things. We create art with things that are also often forgotten, isn’t that cool? I’m all for feeling our emotions but lets be honest we can’t stay in them for ever. We got to accept what will happen even when it freaking suuucks butt. Though I do know we can make it, we can do our best as long as we don’t give up on ourselves. So lets unlearn our negative core beliefs. Who said we aren’t supposed to like ourselves? Who said to dim our light? Whop has the right to condition us to hate ourselves? I know it’s sad that people didn’t support us but as long as we support ourselves and find people who accept us then it’ll be okay. So lets give ourselves a lot of love, kay?”

Alrighty pile 2 big thanks for your attention and this is all I have for you for now! I hope you have a wonderful day or evening. If you’d like to show your support please like, comment, and reblog. If you would like a personal reading, please check out my etsy and ko-fi: coziercoud. See you in the next one, bye!

Pile 3

Which part of your needs a little more loving?

Tarot: The Emperor (r), 3 of Pentacles, The Sun Oracle: Hyena, Fog

Hey pile 3! Maybe you might come from pile 1 but there is a difference in this pile. So for pile 1 they deal with hyper independence but with you I feel like there is a need to control things due to your perfectionism. I feel like what needs more loving for you is your ability to collaborate with people in your circle. It also doesn’t have to be just about work but with people you love, value, and overall feel like a community. I don’t know how your family treated you – maybe unexpected things keep happening or you were at a helpless state in your life that caused control issues. So from then on you felt like its best to keep people from arms length so they don’t “detour” you form your plans. However, what needs more loving is your need and want to create a community.

I feel like childhood really was a big thing for you, funny enough the character Gaara also had traumatic things happen in his childhood, and it shaped your way on how to interact with people. You don’t need to feel ashamed to want company and to be with people who accept you. It’s okay to ask for help or to rely on others. I don’t know who made you feel bad for wanting connection but it’s a human thing to want that. What really needs loving is your wanting love and connection. You were on your own for too long so why put yourself down for wanting friend, family, and a partner? It may be confusing to navigate connections but you will learn and find people who enjoy your presence. What I do think that needs to be taken care of is the controlling part – no one likes to be controlled or to take complete control to get an outcome, its so exhausting right? What we can only do is control our actions and behaviors and to adjust accordingly

How can you honor your needs and wants?

Tarot: 10 of Wands, Judgement, King of Cups (r) Oracle: Dream Journal, Aromatherapy, Create Art

So pile 3 I think this might be the start of your healing journey. A way to honor your needs and wants is to think about what baggage you’re caring with you. How much it hurts your back and what stops you from trying to create or continue your connections. There is a lot of self evaluation and reflection being done, especially when it comes to how it makes you feel. What made you feel numb? What made you feel like the best way to protect yourself is to control everything? How did these things effect you? Are the people in your life still trying to have control over your life? Stuff like that but do be careful to not over analyze yourself because that can turn into nitpicking. If you’re able to definitely think about therapy and seeking out professional help.

Dream journals can help you realize what you do want and need. Now dream journals doesn’t just apply to your dreams as you sleep. It could mean the life you dream of, the things you want and strive to have. Creating are can be helpful, there’s also no need to be a perfectionist about it either, often times art wants to be what it wants and that’s a beautiful thing. By creating art it can help you process your emotions, it shows what you’re visibly feeling and how you “define’ it. Aromatherapy may also help you out as well – maybe lighting up your favorite scented candle can help you feel present. It might even be used as a way to recall pleasant memories.

What does your authentic self-want you to know?

Tarot: 3 of Cups, 2 of Pentacles, The Hanged Man Oracle: Jellyfish, Clown fish & Anemone (r)

“One day we will have the friends and family we want. Just know you don’t have to be afraid of starting over. We have outgrown and realized the connections we had with our self and other people are not healthy. I want to thank you for starting to heal and becoming more intentional with who you want in your circle. The more you understand yourself and value creating healthy dynamics the more we begin to see the scales balancing. When we see something happen that is not within our control we start to think rather than react, we think about the other person and ourselves. We’ve become wiser and grown. I want us to be happy about our progress because back then we hated unpredictability because it was always a mess but now I understand how to go with the flow. I know when and where I need to be in control and when it isn’t needed. Life feels easier that way. If you’re worried about our connections – there is no need to worry the people who love and accept us are on there way but for now lets focus on healing.”