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Kiarra Waidelich in Corps

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FUCKING CHILD AND BESTFRIEND YOU'RE FUCKING TWENTY ~(*.*)~

I think about a year and a half ago (it might be two years I'm not too sure tbh) I repiled to a post where you were looking for new people to talk to. At that time I was in a dark spot and sort of just looking for a thing to make me want to stay. Little did I know that it was as easy as getting on a K-pop tag and message you.

@deobienthusiast

In the time that I've known you, you've been there for me, you've made me laugh, feel at home and accepted. I hope I've given some of it back. You are one of my actual bestfriends and I hope that one day I'll get to give you the hug you deserve and need in life.

I love your rants about things you feel passionate about, if it's an intrest or being angry at things doesn't matter. You speak your truth and don't let people trample on you.

I hope you know that I love you and I will always be a snap, kakao or tumblr message away<3

Also here are some memes from when life might not be all too fun and I'm asleep o afk:

Love you,

JJ x Reader

Warnings: There will be mentions of the sexual assault from the previous episodes. Other than that, nothing that the show doesn’t cover: alcohol and physical fights, etc.

Hey guys! Thank you for all your support on part seven!! I'm really glad that everyone has been enjoying the series. My dad just gave me his old laptop so now I should be able to get this series up more frequently! (I was using my mom’s before). Let me know if you want to be added to the tag list :) and thank you for reading I hope you enjoy!!💖

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A collective gasp echoed around the crowd at Midsummers. Ward looked over to where his son had tried to disappear into the crowd and if looks could kill Rafe would have been six feet underground. 

Flustered your aunt and uncle looked between Rose and Ward. “I think we need to find a way to get out of here so we can talk.” Ward spoke under his breath to your uncle. 

Your aunt motioned for John B to take you inside, Sarah, JJ, Pope, and Kie followed. John B handed you off to JJ as soon as you reached him. He and Pope hung back for a few minutes to ensure that Rafe wouldn’t follow. Sarah led the way up the stairs and down the hall to your room while you clung to JJ for dear life. He was the only thing you were focused on. The feeling of his shirt balled in your fist. The warmth of his hand around your waist. The sound of his breathing which helped you steady your own. Once you reached your room he carefully sat you down on your bed before sitting down beside you and wrapping an arm around you. Kie crouched at your feet and held your hand while Sarah closed the door. You were in a daze, numb from the shock and not at all ready for the conversation that you knew was going to follow. 

“It’s going to be alright babe.” JJ whispered into your ear with a soft confidence despite the fear in his eyes. He was scared for you, everyone was.

“Y/n, you are strong and you’re going to be able to get through this.” Kie gave your hand a squeeze. 

“What’s going to happen now?” you asked unaware of the words even leaving your mouth. Tears began to well in your eyes once again. 

Kie placed her head in your lap comfortingly. “I think the adults are trying to find someone to supervise the party so we can all go somewhere private.”

Sarah sat down on your other side now and stroked your hair. “I think we’re going to go over to my house and you’re going to have to tell my dad, Rose, and your aunt and uncle what happened.”

You nodded tears rolling down your cheeks now. JJ placed a kiss on your head trying to fight back tears of his own. He was angry and terrified at the same time. His heart broke seeing you like this. Your face which usually harbored a vibrant smile was pale and expressionless and your body felt limp against his own. 

A soft knock sounded on your door that made everyone jump. Pope opened the door and John B followed him in closing the door behind them. 

“Hey Bug,” you looked up at Pope with big teary eyes, “how are you holding up?”

“I’ve been better.” you said emitting a soft chuckle which everyone echoed. Sarah moved so that John B could sit next to you.

“Kie’s parents offered to chaperone the party while we all go over to Tanny Hill to talk this out. Okay?”

You nodded softly, your lip trembling. Pope kneeled down next to Kie, his tall frame became even with yours as he placed a hand on your shoulder.

“Ward and Rose already took him over there. We’re not going to leave you. You’re surrounded by people who love you and will protect you.” 

JJ lifted his hand and guided your chin toward him, “We’re going to keep you safe.” 

Your aunt spoke softly through the door, “Are you guys ready to head over?” 

Everyone stood and interlocked hands. You were in the middle of JJ and John B, Sarah was next to him on your right with Pope and Kie next to JJ on your left. Everyone's hands remained intertwined on the walk to Tanny Hill until you had to follow your aunt and uncle into Ward's office and they closed the door behind you. 

Your eyes immediately darted to Rafe who was standing in the far corner of Ward’s office. You plopped down on the leather couch your aunt and uncle on either side of you. Ward and Rose sat opposite of you. 

“I’d like to start off by apologizing y/n.” Rose reached over the coffee table, grasping your hand in her own. “I shouldn’t have assumed that your friend would have done that to you.”

“My boyfriend actually. Thank you for your apology Rose, I really appreciate it.” you looked up from your lap briefly to flash her a small smile. 

You could hear Rafe’s breathing become shallow at your words, causing your heart to pound in your chest and your hands began to shake. Your aunt noticed this and rubbed your shoulders. You leaned your head on your uncle's shoulder, glad they didn’t question you about JJ and after tonight you knew that they wouldn’t. 

Ward started. “Honey. I know it is going to be hard to tell us what happened. But we are here for you and we need the whole story.”

You nodded before closing your eyes and taking a deep shuddering breath. 

“We were at a party in the boneyard…” You recounted everything that had happened. What you said. What Rafe said. The way he grabbed you and slammed you against the wall. The way he touched you. Everything, even the smallest of details. You weren’t entirely present for most of it. You just allowed the words to flow out of your mouth while tears streamed down your cheeks. Rose, Ward and your aunt and uncle all listening intently with concern and horror stretched across their faces. 

-

As soon as the door to Ward’s office closed everyone breathed out an anxious breath. JJ let go of the burning feeling that was swelling up in his throat and allowed the tears to flow freely down his face as he paced back and forth along the hallway in front of the office. 

“JJ she's gonna be okay.” Kie tried to comfort him. 

“Blondie, its Bug.” John B grabbed his friends shoulders and looked into his eyes, “Lord knows she’s a fighter. She’s just through that door and you’ll see her in a little bit.” He pulled JJ into a hug. 

JJ pulled away wiping the tears from under his eyes as Kie came up behind him and rubbed his back. “But he’s in there with her.” He paused, the words were choked as they came out of his mouth and his face contorted in a mix of pain and fury. “You guys don’t know what he did to her. I’m supposed to be keeping her safe. I promised.” JJ slid down against the wall and began fiddling with the seaglass and leather bracelet.

John B and Pope sat down on either side of him and the girls sat with their backs against the wall opposite the boys. 

“JJ, She’s safe in there. Her aunt and uncle are in there with her. So are Ward and Rose.” Sarah said comfortingly.

After a moment Pope broke the silence, “What did he do exactly?” 

Kie shifted her dress before shifting her gaze to JJ. She nodded at him saying, “JJ I know it’s not your thing to tell but if you don’t tell us she’ll have to and I don’t think anyone here wants to put her through that again.” 

JJ nodded and sniffled before repeating exactly what you had told him at Battery Jasper. About halfway through the story John B stood up and began pacing, doing everything in his power not to punch a whole in the walls of Tanny Hill. He had tears of pure rage streaming down his cheeks. Rafe had put the Pogues through a whole lot of bull shit, but now knowing the full extent of what happened that night, his anger bubbled at the surface and he tried to keep it from boiling over. He watched the anger build up in Pope as well and he could see JJ trying to keep from grinding his teeth and digging his nails into his palms as he spoke. Looks of absolute horror and sorrow were painted across Sarah and Kie’s faces. 

When JJ finished Sarah’s glance shifted to John B. She stood and reached to comfort him but he was past the point of no return. 

“Sah, thank you for trying but this needs to ride it's course. Bug is like a sister to me and it is taking every muscle in my body and all of my focus to not barge into that office and drop kick your brother into oblivion.”

“You and me both.” JJ huffed from his sitting position. 

The door to the office opened and your aunt poked her head out. “Kie, JJ, we need you in here.”

JJ sprung up immediately and practically ran into the office. Kie exchanged a look with the others and gulped before following your aunt in.

-

JJ immediately took your aunt’s spot on the leather couch and took your hand in his own, his eyes locked on Rafe. While you stared somewhat blankly at the bookshelf behind Ward and Rose, Kie took the chair to JJ’s right and your aunt sat on your uncle’s left.

Your aunt looked between you, JJ, and Kie before speaking. “JJ, Kie, y/n told us that you two came to her aid that night and I want to thank you for that.” She nodded at your uncle. 

“But we’d also like to know what you saw. Just to gain a fuller understanding.” your uncle continued. 

Kie started. “Well we were around the fire at the boneyard. Everyone was just chilling and talking when I heard someone screaming for help down the beach. I asked JJ if he could hear it too and when we heard her scream again we ran toward the noise.”

JJ shifted his gaze from Rafe toward your aunt, who he knew decently well from the times that she’d come visit her sister on the island when you were kids, “I don’t think either of us really registered what was happening. The only thing I saw was that Rafe had a girl pinned up against the rock wall, I couldn’t see who it was or what he was doing. Naturally I pulled him off of her and we got into a fight.” 

“I got there after JJ had pulled him off of her. Y/n was sobbing and crawling in the sand looking for her bracelets. The back of her white t-shirt was soaked through with blood and she had an array of bruises and scratches on her wrist and a red handprint on her face.”

As Kie finished her description of your wounds your aunt began to cry and your uncles fists clenched. Rose’s mouth was agape and Ward’s head was in his hands, they both choked back tears. 

JJ continued, shifting his glance to Rose and Ward, “I didn’t know it was y/n until I found this bracelet that I gave her before she left when we were twelve.” 

Rafe huffed and rolled his eyes across the room. JJ’s anger boiled over. 

“Do you have something to say Cameron!!?” he spat, standing up. None of the adults made any effort to stop him. “She could barely walk. Have you even seen what you did to her. Because I have. Do you know how hard the last few days have been for her? Because I do and so does Kie and John B and Pope and Sarah.” Pausing he glanced at the ceiling, “Thank god Kie and I heard her crying.” He looked down at the ground and swallowed hard before saying, “You were going to rape her weren’t you?” Everyone drew in a collective breath. The tension in the room was swamp like and everyone except for JJ and Rafe had turned into statues. JJ had asked the question that no one wanted to. The question you had been avoiding for days. “And for what Rafe? Huh? Because she knew us? Because she loves us? She didn’t do anything to deserve that.” 

JJ’s body was now wracked with angry sobs but he pushed them down and stood tall when Rafe charged forward at him. You flinched and your uncle protectively placed his body over yours. Ward quickly stood up and placed himself between his son and JJ. You whimpered softly, “That's enough JJ.” He softened immediately as you grabbed his hand with your left and his forearm with your right, pulling him into you and putting your head on his shoulder. 

“Rafe, stay the hell away from Y/n and JJ.” Ward scolded his sun as he forcefully walked him behind his desk and sat him in his desk chair.

“Dad you’re defending a pogue!” Rafe protested. 

In response Ward simply walked back to the couch and before sitting down next to Rose turned back to glare at his son. “I thought I raised you better than this.” Rafe was silenced. 

Rose shifted the conversation back to the events of that night, looking between the three of you she uttered, “What else happened?” 

Kie whispered, “Well we brought her off of the beach and then I went to grab everyone else.” 

Curtly your uncle said, “Then it’s time for us to bring them in.” Everyone nodded. 

Rose stood and brought in the rest of the Pogues from the hallway. John B walked in fuming. Sarah clutched onto his arm in an effort to both calm him down and prevent him from strangling Rafe. Pope closed the door and shot daggers at Rafe. They stood behind you, JJ, and your aunt and uncle on the couch. 

Despite being in the same room as the boy who assaulted you, you felt calm in your protective bubble of people that loved you and left him ostracized. Yet, your whole body continued to shake and it became more difficult to take deep breaths as you relived the events of that night and vivid flashes of it came back to you. The next hour was a mystery to you, you were unsure of what was said. You could hear the distant voices of your friends and feel the occasional vibrations from JJ’s voice as they described what they saw that night and spoke of the way they protected you. Your aunt’s voice snapped you back into the conversation. 

“Sweetie, y/n, are you with us?” 

You shook your head against JJ’s shoulder and let out a soft, “No.” 

Your uncle turned to you and grabbed your hand. “We want to keep you safe y/n. Ward and Rose will support us in any action we take against Rafe for what he did to you.” 

You turned to them and they each gave you a soft understanding smile. Your uncle finished, “Would you like to press charges?” 

You lifted your head from JJ’s shoulder and sat up. You felt like the wind was knocked out of you. 

“No.” Everyone in the room had a confused look on their face. “I want a restraining order. That way he will still have to look everyone that loves me in the eyes knowing what he did.” you said with sudden confidence.

Ward nodded. “Okay.” 

JJ rubbed your thumb with his own. John B placed a hand on your shoulder, as did Pope. Sarah and Kie were on either side of them glaring at Rafe. 

You spoke again, looking between your aunt and uncle, “Can we please go home now?” your spark of confidence was gone and the question came out as more of a plea. 

Your aunt nodded. The Pogues all escorted you out. After deciding to handle the rest of this in the morning your aunt stood and embraced Rose, they followed you out the door. Your uncle stood and walked over to where Rafe sat. 

“If you ever so much as look at my niece again, let alone talk to her or lay a finger on her, I won't hesitate to press charges. I swore to my sister in law that I would protect her daughter if anything was to ever happen to her. Y/n is the closest thing I’ll ever have to a daughter. I will do anything to protect my little girl.” 

With that he shook Ward’s hand and followed after the rest of his family. 

-

When everyone returned back to your house there was a jumble of hugs and tears. Your aunt wrapped each of the boys into a hug and thanked them for everything they did for you. Your uncle hugged you before handing you off to the girls. Sarah and Kie didn’t let go for several minutes until John B came over and unraveled you from their arms before wrapping you into his own. 

“Bug.” he sobbed shallowly. Tightening his grip around his best friend. 

“Bookie.” You cried into his chest. While the boy who was practically your brother held you, your uncle pulled JJ to the side. 

“Thank you for standing up for her son.” He wrapped JJ into a hug, “And for protecting her.” Tears began to form in your uncle’s eyes. “Keep her safe, please.” 

JJ looked at you hugging John B over your uncle’s shoulder, “I always will, until the day I die.” 

-

Your aunt decided that everyone should sleep over the house because she didn’t want you to have to be alone after tonight. Everyone went home to grab their things while you slipped out of your dress and into your favorite pjs. You stared at yourself in the bathroom mirror and took in every aspect of your appearance. The worn tie dye t shirt, your disheveled hair and blotchy face. Your bloodshot (y/e/c) eyes and red nose. Finally managing to slow your breathing, you undid the braids in your hair and plucked the lavender out of them before gathering it on top of your head and putting it up into a messy bun. You removed your makeup and washed your face before heading downstairs to wait for your friends. 

Kie arrived first followed by John B and then Pope. Sarah finally arrived thirty minutes after Pope and explained that it was because Ward and Rose wanted to make sure that everyone was okay and Ward wanted to see her for a little bit. The Pogues all went up to your room but you stayed on the couch and waited for JJ. You felt hollow and like each of your limbs had turned to lead. You had your head laid in your aunt's lap and you were staring at the ceiling when you heard the door open. 

Your uncle gasped, “Son what the hell happened?” 

At his words you bolted upright. Your soul practically left your body as you looked at JJ. He was silhouetted in the doorway a backpack in his hand, still in his vest and dress pants. His shirt was stained with blood. JJ’s cheekbone was bruised and swollen and his lip was split, still bleeding. His eyes locked with yours as they filled with tears. 

“Hey Bug, I ran into my dad.”

As always if anyone needs anything please feel free to message me! I’m always here to talk about absolutely anything, I love you all dearly<33