I guess the toughest part about loving people is to accept that they can leave you some day. Nothing is promised. Nothing good is forever and it might hurt a lot that the people you can't imagine living your life without, you actually have to live without them. they say "life goes on" and it really does but we often time really forget to mention that before the life actually starts to go on after losing people, it begins to stop too. it feels stuck. like the void people leave is unavoidable and we need to find actually healthy ways to fill it. recently had to let go off a bestfriend who i was dating for an entire year, it wasn't easy. it still isn't. i loved him more than i loved myself. i still do and i always will. he's a good man. but that day i read an instagram quote "the things that often feel like the end of the world, really aren't" and i said "i wish they were." it felt so heart wrenching that i could physically feel the pain in my heart and my whole body. i can't really explain how much of myself i had given to him. but the thing with loving is that it comes with these risks because even though we make promises, we make those promises only in hopes that they come true. we make those promises only because our heart desperately desires them to be true. nobody can promise anything neither you nor me. so when we do make those promises we mean them by heart but sometimes our lives have other plans and things don't work out. and that's okay. that's what loving is. it hurts. it hurts a lot. and that's why it takes a lot of courage to be a hopeless romantic. to not shield your heart and be loving is a hell lot of work. but i guess one thing this experience has taught me is that, people and situations change and yes, people can leave despite you loving them but what you did for that person was out of the goodness of your own heart and you are brave for doing that. don't stop loving. if the people are abt to leave despite your attempts to love them, they'll leave but atleast with a little love in their hearts. this world needs love. but also don't let your love destroy you. learn when to let go. it's a slow process but you'll learn it. but don't you dare stop loving. this world needs love. i need love so i can't really stop loving if i need it myself. sometimes it's just hard to admit it because we don't wanna be vulnerable or weak but we all do need love.
— pillofmoonlight



















