6/26/21 - 8:08 pm || listening to summer thunderstorms

pics from earlier this week feat. a star chart i only bothered with for half a day! two months into my summer break, two months left to go. it’s been a weird time. other than the three times a local friend picked me up for a few hours, and one visit to my grandparents’ house, i haven’t exchanged more than a few words with another human being in person since the end of the semester. i’ve taken to staying up all night and sleeping through the day to stay cool. haven’t been taking my meds... or doing laundry... or much of anything else.

7:58 pm - 12/17/22 || still relying on against me! for emotional support

3/6/22 - 3:17 pm || listening to birdsong and wind in the trees

10/12/22 - 4:07 am || listening to the starbound ost

finding familiarity and comfort in the absolute wreck that my life has become over the past few months. it feels just like high school! except that the vending machine in my basement doesn’t carry monster, so i’ve had to learn to be flexible with my sources of caffeine.

5:07 pm - 12/16/22 || drinking so much fucking coffee

finals week is upon us. i’m determined not to flunk out of 2/4 of my courses like i did last fall semester. or 1/4 like i did last spring semester. but it’s not going to be easy or fun. i’ve been trying to split my time up: each of those red boxes corresponds to an hour (or more) on my planner for the week.

all the work that i didn’t do this semester is catching up to me. i have two overdue spanish essays, a six page response to a psych article, a whole zine project, and a three hour exam all due by tuesday (or sooner).

but!! i handed in my first spanish essay of the whole semester the other day, and last night i finished the last bit of coursework for my gender studies class. what i have left isn’t easy, but it’s doable if i put my mind to it.

2/13/22 - 10:17 pm || drinking mugs and mugs of tea with lemon