Seemingly, my body is not designed for pregnancy and structurally it would appear that Iām held together with Pritt Stick glue. My joints are hyper mobile which resulted in SPD (Symphysis Pubis Disfunction) - an incredibly painful condition ādown thereā due to the weight and positioning of the baby. This meant from months 4-9 of my pregnancies I was in excruciating agony almost all of the time, including at night, so I barely slept. Then there was labour and the joys of natural childbirth, plus an optional extra of a migraine on top. Yay, go me! Thankfully, the only perk of SPD (for me at least) was hastened 7 hour births, and then all I wanted was to sleep. I had months of painful sleeplessness and exhaustion to recover from, but do you suppose Steve let me sleep? Did he hellā¦ because *he* was tired too. He even held my hand during my daughterās birth and told me earnestly and emotionally āIām really going to look after you Karanā - which didnāt ever materialise - as he insisted we took it in shifts (one night on, one night off) to get up and look after the baby; he needed his sleep too you understand. It was cruel and unusual to be sure and felt tortuous at the time, as I was never allowed to fully recover or restore. After a couple of weeks, he went back to work and I was expected to start from where Iād left off, supporting him in his business, like nothing had happened. Whilst the world often stopped for man-flu, I couldnāt dare be ill, or have any time off after e.g.: miscarriages, treatment/surgery or following the death of my dad and more recently my mum. In fact, he left me for Helen three weeks after mum died, and two days after her funeral. So you see why Iām Too Relieved To Grieve now the trash took itself out? Because a catch he aināt! Oh sure, heās other c-words I can think of, but none of them are ācatchā. Read how this how saga started, progressed and ended in my long awaited memoir Too Relieved To Grieve | The Alternative Heartbreak Handbook, available from Amazon and on Kindle now: https://amzn.to/2Y4sC0s (link in bio) #toorelievedtogrieve #thealternativeheartbreakhandbook #karanscottauthor #karanscott #karanscottcoaching #memoir https://www.instagram.com/p/Cn9sCnQNxot/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
