#kamaratsu

Oh Anonym, I hope you’re strapped in. I just had an hour long conversation about this yesterday.

For starters, Karamatsu’s personality is very similar to mine. Now obviously we’re not EXACTLY the same, but we share similar traits. He’s flowery with his words, bold with his aesthetic, has a flair for the dramatic. I love fashion (but I’d blow him out of the water, don’t try me), I love to sing, I love to write (obvs). The way I speak can be dramatic both in serious and comedic conversations. But it’s not just that, we saw in season 1 that Karamatsu had a tendency to be ignored or used and I resonate with that because that’s who I used to be when I was younger. An accessory, with so much to give - love, kindness, help, only to end up stepped on.

Now I’ll be the first to admit that Karamatsu is just as shitty as his brothers. He’s not exempt and I’m not going to pretend he is or that he’s perfect. But he has so much heart and so much love in him. The way he’s willing to do for his little brothers even to the point of it bothering him and stressing him out enough to cry - hooooo do I know that life. But you do because you care. Because you love so much that you feel it’s worth it, even if it hurts. That’s the exhausting part of having a big heart. You’re so liable to be taken advantage of. But you take hits and keep it moving because your loved ones are more important to you.

However, just as Karamatsu has been showing he’s growing thicker skin, so did I after my first love. I was tired of being hurt and being used, so I formulated my spine. I’ve been through many a traumatic event, but I have come out fighting every time. I’m never ever intentionally snide or nasty, and I try my best to do right by and be kind to others, just as I feel Karamatsu has in him to do. Plus he’s a giant crybaby even though he does his best not to show that kind of weakness in front of his family, and I’m the same fucking way. Ol’ Kara and I are very similar people.

Now here’s some headcanony nonsense that you’re free to ignore, but I personally feel is so…him and it drew me to him further:

He’s a gentleman through and through. Karamatsu would do the cliché things - chocolates, flowers, pretty poetry. But he’d be so much more in depth than that. I so firmly believe he loves hard and he loves deep. Devotion and true romance runs deep in his veins. He’d be the type to take you in his arms when you’re so emotionally distraught - holding you through the night, rubbing circles into your back when you cried and making sure you knew you weren’t alone. He’d stroke your cheek as you laid in bed together with him, and with every fiber of sincerity of his being he’d tell you how much he loved you. Karamatsu leaves lingering touches, kisses deep and long, stares longingly and intensely. Once he gets past his NEET phase of his life, he’s so quick to learn your body. He maps out your spots and works to make sure he’s bringing you to the brink of pleasure. He’s quick to give, and it drives him crazy to watch your face twist in the ecstasy you both feel. When he makes love to you, there’s so much emotion behind him, so much passion and intensity. He writes music on your skin, lights a fire in you that burns with so much fervor that you find it so hard not to love him wholeheartedly. He’s a passionate lover, and you feel it in the way he tattoos invisible words of love on your flesh - they pulse when his voice whispers them in your ear.

Fighting with him never lasts long. His heart aches too quickly and his guilt is maddening. He loves you too much to stay angry and he’ll always try to be the first to apologize. It hurts him worse when he knows he’s hurt you. Tears aren’t uncommon, but it’s a show of how truly terrible he feels for ever doing you wrong. Kisses and holding you close are how they end.

happy chinese new year!!!