#k rambles

So it really chaps my ass when RPFers go “oh, you know why that is—wink, wink, nudge, nudge” every damn time like we aren’t watching two people who are great at their craft. Who have honed their skills for at least a decade. Who have been grinding and putting in the work on top of their day jobs. Who spent their hard-earned money on classes and workshops and getting their own projects made.

You’re invalidating their skills for your shipping agenda.

And it’s literally in the quotes and under every video/ gif that shows kissing/ intimacy on the show.

It’s tiresome.

I LOVE THEM SM,,,,,,,

yapping under the cut

Sure, Bee all the time tells Star how they’re similar bc both of them tried to rule Cybertron and totally failed doing so, but also because they both mask their real personality or their real selves to the world.

Bee uses this friendly and “everything is alright” mask, he’s seen as someone who always trying to do good, who is the successor of Optimus, someone harmless, when in reality he’s someone capable of making wrong decisions, who has worries, someone even volatile and constantly angry or done with everyone. We actually saw of this side during RID, he was two seconds away from actively shooting someone and he has his bitch side

Star masks himself with this evil sona, the great Starscream who will stab you in the back at any given moment, the only thing he knows is to lie and manipulate others for his own benefit, he doesn’t care about anyone but himself and you shouldn’t trust him. In reality he’s someone, who unconsciously, cares so much (smth similar to Ratchet I think) he doesn’t want anyone to notice how vulnerable he actually is, how much he feels about everything, and how easily he is to break and how he needs someone else beside him so he doesn’t go crazy.

Both are faking what they’re, because the world told them that’s all they can be. They’re two-dimensional, with no chance of changing, with no chance of people seeing them as what they actually are.

I love it when a narrative is like, “Woe. Unconditional love of a child be upon thee,” to a depressed fictional man. Gotta be one of my favorite dynamics for real.

Jing Yuan reminds me a lot of Lilia Vanrouge from Twisted Wonderland. Like yeah the long-life species army general single parent things are the obvious connections but also I think they both share the same parenting flaws (physical and/or emotional distance out of not wanting to burden their child(ren) with their own pain; discounting their child(ren)’s love for them because they see themselves as fundamentally unloveable—which is more of a headcanon on JY’s part, but it’s real to me; letting their underage child be in the military and/or giving them intensive military training). Also Yanqing’s dynamic re Jing Yuan is like a mashup of both Malleus (weird political/formal distance in an obviously parental relationship) & Silver’s (wanting to repay an adoptive parent for their love, through military service even, when the parent doesn’t see a need for it; secret past his dad told him nothing about) dynamics re Lilia. Oh god, this is why I think Jing Yuan sucks at cooking; it’s the Lilia associations (plus Jing Yuan giving Yanqing money for food/eating takeout in “Taking It Easy”: there’s no way this man can cook). Also no wonder why I like Diasomnia so much. Sometimes a family dorm can be a single father, his two children, and their screaming pet crocodile. If you know you know.

Disclaimer I’m not saying I think Lilia or Jing Yuan are necessarily “bad dads,” in fact I have said and will say again Lilia Vanrouge is literally the father of the millennium (if you know you know) & I don’t really like categorizing people as “bad” or “good” (vs. action/intent/consequence). Every parent has their flaws, some are better and some are worse (in action/intent/consequence), re Jing Yuan and Lilia their kids love/respect them and want to be around them so they’re on the better side of things in my book.

Plus, I do think Yanqing picking up the sword was something he wanted to do himself at the very beginning, c.f. Jingliu’s Myriad Celestia Trailer where he talks about his reasons for doing so—and attributes his original desire to Jing Yuan telling him stories about Jingliu, before saying anything about expectations (and where he talks about repaying Jing Yuan’s teachings at the same time, so presumably after he’s started learning). So I do see a difference in parenting quality between Jing Yuan and say, Crepus from Genshin Impact, whose expectations for Diluc seem more heavy-handed/originating from Crepus himself. Yanqing’s pressures I think actually stem a lot from political/societal circumstances external to the Jing household, although Jing Yuan’s reticence does contribute to them.

There is that line in the kitty text message conversation about how in Yanqing’s earliest memories, he’s already being taught something by Jing Yuan. I think you can interpret that something as anything from reading to (if the previous paragraph is unconvincing) swordplay, but in my heart of hearts it is playing the flute.