#just done

How many times can I screw this up?

How badly can I screw this up? Before you’re just done with me.

Questions like this can really haunt us in a relationship. Because everyone has their breaking point. And because, if we’re honest with ourselves, you and I have within us the (all too often realized) capacity to screw up any relationship.

I’m not talking about intentional stuff. Our problem is more subtle. Whether it’s through what we do or say without thinking. Or what we fail to do. You and I have some serious skills in this area.

If we’ve ever wondered why someone has abandoned us, why they’re just done with us? The odds are that you and I are at least part of the reason why.

It’s something we don’t like to think about. Because it makes us wonder which relationship we’re going to screw up next. And who’s going to be just done with us.

Which is why today’s Gospel is so important. After all Peter has done. Denying Jesus on Good Friday. Abandoning his ministry and going back to his old job.

After giving Jesus every reason to be done with him – to treat Peter just like Peter treated Him – Jesus doesn’t throw away their relationship. Jesus invites Peter to come back, to come home.

The simple truth? Our capacity to screw up any relationship is a tiny, feeble thing – when compared to the love of God for us.

Because God has no interest in throwing away His relationship with you.

There is nothing that you can do to change that. Nothing that will make God say, “I’m just done with you.”

No matter what you’ve done, God will not abandon you.

No matter how far you’ve gone, God is inviting you to come back, to come home.

Cleo: thinking I will get angry

Meanwhile my actual reaction when I saw it:

Needing to vent it out right now. I have been applying to jobs for warehouse/factory work. I have been denied 3 times now, and it is starting to get to me, because I want to get into the blue collar work. I have worked in customer service/retail since I was 16, and now that I want to branch out into a new career. It is so freaking hard to do, because I have no warehouse experience. Which even in the application process they state that it does not matter, but will ultimately tell me I am not selected. Like it makes me feel that I am the problem. When all I wanna do is freaking work, or why else would I have stressed in getting in shape! I have been trying to stay positive, but I am losing that more and more as of late. I don't want to be in customer service anymore for the fact that I just want to be told what to do now. I am about to be 36 and yet changing careers seems to be a fucking crime...

Just needed to vent it out, because I am just trying not to drink during the day....

You know what is super annoying? Having a friend who acts like they know everything in regards to health....

I love my girl, but damn sometimes she be being extra! She states that she is "thinking" of starting to get into exercise and get healthy. 😒 So I'm like awesome! Since you are starting how about walking around your neighborhood vs gym. (Since she doesn't drive) Granted she is a bigger girl who has had knee problems. I'm like girl start off with just walking it out on your sidewalk and strengthening with stretch bands until your are able to walk the block! She tells me naw I already walk back and forth at work. I don't wanna do the side walk because it feels like I am just in one place!

To be honest this statement kinda pissed me off. Because you want to start, but you don't wanna really start?! I am frustrated because she tries to give me all this advice on my journey, but don't practice what she fuckins preach! Like what the actual fuck?!

How are you gonna be bigger than me and tell me how to lose when you yourself don't do the same?! When I started to have knee problems I was like oof I need to change, because I am literally disabling myself! So, I started to walk and use stretch bands to help me get fit, and change how I ate. It has taken a year to get to where I am at, and yea so far I only loss 30 lbs and have fluctuated, but I have loss inches and gain strength to where I now don't feel pain in my knees like I used to! Is it gonna take time? Yes! Due to not gaining this weight overnight but after several years!