#jun15

Nunca es fácil decir adiós a las cosas que han estado presentes en nuestras vidas durante tanto tiempo, pero a veces es necesario.

Puede haber algo mejor por llegar, pero no lo dejas entrar, porque todos tus espacios están ocupados con cosas que alguna vez fueron geniales pero que hoy ya no te hacen tan bien.

Seokjin | Yoongi | Hoseok | Namjoon | Jimin | Taehyung | Jungkook

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Summary: Kim Seokjin. It’s him who introduces you to the world that is this school. The first year with him passes quickly. [a drabble in which you go to the same school with the Bangtan gang and are tiring to figure out if that’s what they really are. a gang? or a pack?] Word Count: +1.5k Note: Kim Seokjin, a fine man. Took me a while to write this but once I had an idea of what I wanted to see, the drabble really surprised me. I hope you like it. Make sure to read Namjoon's chapter first ✨ college!au, supernatural!au

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It’s Kim Seokjin who introduces you to the world that is this school. He’s a steady presence, encouraging and genuine and even if there’s no time to hang around the kind senior after the first year in which he is your guidance student, coincidental meetings in the hallways become your most treasured moments at this place.

The first year with him passes quickly. The first days are full of orientational stuff, full of faces with no names and words without a guarantee of sticking to your brain. Everything that is new demands your attention and Seokjin offers a vantage point, an opportunity to look at the mess from above. After a quick while, you can finally put meaning to the strange stares you receive whenever Seokjin treats you like a younger sister, whenever he pats your head and whenever he graces you with those high pitched, rollercoaster laughs of his. Kim Seokjin is one of those reoccurring, unavoidable topics at this school for some reason.

Half the students’ body spends their day admiring his body, the other half spends it admiring his wallet. If you want to believe rumors, he owns a restaurant downtown and apparently, his mother has won a Miss Korea contest before, not that you can confirm or deny these things when people try to interrogate you. Despite his obvious generosity with you, you’d never thought about asking about his family’s financial situation. How shallow, you think. While that matters to the entire school, it doesn’t to you.

Seokjin has been there for you during orientation week and after and whenever you see him now, you feel better afterward. He never fails to crack a joke, never fails to crack your bad moods. His life philosophy raises you up. Money can’t buy that, you decide and revel in the fact that people don’t get to see there deeper, more sincere parts of Seokjin just because of their pettiness and stupidity. To be honest, you prefer his company even over many of your own friends from your classes (not that there’s a ton), simply because he finds ways to be real with you. Even if you don’t talk about everything on your minds, you strengthen each other. It’s refreshing to see someone ask about your interests with actual affection.

So, considering how your relationship with Seokjin works, your little paradisiacal world crashes when you notice him in passing by the parking lots one day. Half-hidden between cars, his tall form is crumpled on the ground and he’s crying. One mess follows the next when you notice his arm is covered in blood. You run towards him to help, but Kim Namjoon and Park Jimin emerge from behind another car and help him up. Their appearance is more than suspicious, there’s no denying that you would rather they would stay away from your friend. It makes you freeze and stay at a distance, even hide when they scan the parking lots.

One thing that you had admired Seokjin for was his smart mind. He always knew what wanted from him. He would never let himself be dragged into certain cliques or friend groups, no matter his level of popularity. He didn’t care for becoming some sort of object of prestige for them. And now, the Bangtan gang has gotten to him, or better, has taken him by force.

When you deem it safe to run to him, there’s a black dog trailing after Kim Namjoon and Kim Taehyung, who has joined the other two. It’s intimidating, reaching up to Namjoon’s waist, blood on his snout and a growl to make anyone run for the hills. After overcoming your goosebumps, you stay where you are, letting your heart ache and Bangtan take your friend. When Seokjin, a sweating, sobbing Seokjin notices you and shouts for you to stay away, it feels like you’ve lost a part of yourself to the dark side.

And sure enough, on the day after that jarring experience, you choose a seat in class that’s close to the windows so you can keep an eye on the school’s door, there’s Seokjin, paraded by the Bangtan gang as they enter school fashionably late - as they always do. (Not that any teacher cares. Some people still insist that even the principal bows to Kim Namjoon.) Seokjin looks better that morning, fresh and energized - as if the gang had revived something forgotten in him. He’s almost glowing. It makes you frown and wonder what Bangtan did to him. Just this image turns your silent optimism into a sour mood. The entire day there are intrusive thoughts you can’t shake; the entire day you receive a few sympathetic glances from him but when those aren’t backed up by actual attempts to seek conversation, the effect is gone. It’s simply incomprehensible how he could become so untrue to himself to hang out with them. When the gang walks past you, calling him Jin instead of his full name, you snort. There’s a shimmer of hope to find an old thing about your friend hidden from their view, stashed away until your return. When Seokjin answers the call enthusiastically, accepting the new name without blinking, even that flies away.

Maybe there’s some secret that could explain everything, but that thought stings even more. That you might have become one of those people who don’t know a thing about what’s going on with the real Seokjin. You wonder to what extent the Bangtan gang knows him, how much he would dare to open up for them.

When you notice Kim Seokjin bowing to Kim Namjoon for the first time, surprise is an understatement. You feel stunned, actually, to see the elder honor the younger so demonstratively. That’s definitely something to jot down in your notebook of observations, just like the way Seokjin switches drastically from drinking coffee to drinking only teas and water. Still, despite the reversed roles in the age-hierarchy of your community, there’s no doubt about Seokjin being older - he’s one grade above Namjoon (who skipped a grade, which is widely known), and he still reserves himself the right to tell the dimple-cheeked boy what to do and to honor his elders. Age is important to Seokjin, you know that. This display of submission is just one indicator of how the gang dynamic works. You can’t say that you like it, but then again, you might be a little biased.

Then, during recess, when your mood is the lowest, you watch Jimin hug Seokjin from behind, even jumping on his back in an attempt to snatch the elder’s food, and whispering something in his ear to distract him. Against your expectations, Seokjin lets him (you know he doesn’t like touchy-touchy people who get too close), and moreover, he smiles. Then, he opens a new conversation that has everyone involved immediately. Apparently, this new constellation of people has not only you but also the rest of the school shocked. Even the school’s newspaper discusses the news in some not-so-clandestine way.

The following days, you make a firm decision from the moment you move your head off your pillow. I will not spend time obsessing over Seokjin today. I will live my own life, be happy and forget about this rather than being miserable. If he thinks we’re still friends, he should come to me and explain. The plan works - for three hours. Even though you’re determined not to look at Seokjin, everyone else does. Also, the Bangtan gang is present everywhere somehow, always pushing into your line of vision without permission. Additionally, your fingers still itch to keep notes about the other members. So in the end, you can’t help but pick up your notebook and give in to the urge of figuring out Bangtan’s secret.

When you face the wolves, it’s strange. At first, you don’t understand the Seokjin’s role in the pack at all. He’s everywhere, spending time with every wolf in a different way, then just running around, nipping the younger ones playfully despite his rank as the oldest. It’s like he doesn’t fit into the concepts of ranks between wolves that you’ve read up on. You truly can’t predict what he will do next.

But after a while of observing the wolves interact, it clicks. It’s the moment he pushes Jungkook to meet you. The strong black wolf seems nervous to make contact, but the elder is kind and convincing. He watches as Jungkook tentatively offers his head for you to scratch, ears always conveying his mood towards you. Instead of interrupting the two of you, Seokjin patiently walks off, nestling his side into Namjoon, who has jumped off the rock to join the family.

Seokjin is the backbone. He’s the spine of the pack, connecting everyone, enabling everyone to function coherently, as a unit. He’s the older brother for the pack just like he was an older brother for you during your first days at a new school. He’s the essence of home in a pack of wild, vulnerable minds. When you return to Namjoon from meeting everyone, Seokjin is there, offering his side for you to sit down and lean against, like a warm, soft pillow-wall instead of a mattress.

“I missed you,” he whispers in your mind, with all the good memories of your time together flowing towards you in a single, buzzing stream of consciousness, creating this wonderful dream-like state of comfort and reminiscent serendipity, “my little flower.”

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