⥠pairing: choreographer!junhui x choreographer!afab!reader ⥠genre: enemies to lovers, smut, angst, fluff ⥠w.c: 3.8k ⥠warnings: hate sex/rough sex, verbal power play + dirty talk, possessiveness, emotional vulnerability, toxic energy, semi-public sex, mirror sex, spanking, rough handling, degradation, semi-slow burn, hair pulling for a moment, multiple orgasms over multiple days, conflicting feelings ⥠a/n: thank you to @supi-wupi and @flowerwonu for beta reading for me! let me know who you guys want to see next!
It was supposed to be a clean collaboration, consisting of professionalism and a temporary nature.
But from the moment you were assigned to co-choreograph this high-energy dance with Junhui, the air between you was completely and utterly toxic; subtly laced with clipped comments that made your eye twitch, his constant territorial energy, and the kind of tension that makes everyone else clear the room early.
He always found a way to contradict you, whether it was to revise your counts, challenge your flow, or even push your buttons to the point where youâre either grinding your teeth or snapping back at him constantly. Youâve stormed out of that dim practice room twice. He hasnât chased you either time.
Tonight is no different.
âYou keep slowing the pace down,â you bite, hands on your hips as your chest heaves, sweat slick down your spine. âThis part needs aggression and sharpness, not whatever the fuck youâre doing.â
Jun scoffs from across the studio, and you can almost hear his eyes roll. âAnd you think youâre the only one who understands sharpness?â He tosses his damp towel aside and walks toward you, every step controlled and almost predatory. âIâve seen your work. Itâs precise, sure, but itâs so, so cold, and even worse? It feels empty.â
You step forward, closing the distance between you. âAnd yours is arrogant and overconfident. I can throw words around, too, you know. You choreograph like the floor owes you something.â
He laughs, low and bordering on dangerous. âNo. I choreograph like I own it.â
Something in you snaps, like a dusty lightbulb being turned on in a dingy basement. Before you realise it, your hands are extended out to shove him. He doesnât move far with the pathetic push, just enough to register it. Then his eyes flicker with something youâve seen before, but never directed at you like this: heat.
âYouâve wanted to put your hands on me for weeks, I can see it in your eyes,â he says, his voice molten. âYou just didnât know if itâd be to hit me, or fuck me.â
Your stomach drops and then coils. You donât respond to his snarky comment as much as you want to, but instead, you grab the front of his shirt and crash your mouth into his.
Itâs brutal.
Your teeth knock together, your eye twitching slightly from sensitivity. His hands are in your hair, then at your waist, then under your shirt like he canât decide what he wants to ruin first. You yank him closer to you, pressing your body into his until you can feel the hard line of him, already pulsing through his sweats.
âYouâre so fucking smug,â you gasp against his lips.
âAnd youâre so fucking desperate to be proved wrong,â he growls.
You slam him into the mirror, he doesn't take that well. He flips you in an instant so that you are the one backed to the cool surface instead. His eyes are fiery, fueled with anger and what you can only presume is lust.
Your back hits the glass, and before you can even look at him, heâs situated himself between your legs, his plush lips trailing down your neck with the kind of hunger that makes your knees buckle. One hand pins both of yours above your head, the other slips under your waistband, fingers dragging over your wet heat.
âLook at you,â he murmurs, satisfaction oozing into his tone. âAlready dripping. Are you sure you hate me?â
âShut up.â
He smiles against your collarbone as he presses his lips to your fiery skin. âMake me.â
You do, you bite his shoulder hard enough to leave a mark, then moan, a little too loudly for your liking, when he sinks two of his fingers inside you with zero warning. The stretch is perfect, with just a tinge of pain that causes tears to well up in your eyes briefly, which quickly subsides as he begins to thrust his fingers. His rhythm is ruthless, and when you arch against him, desperate and furious, he leans in and kisses you like itâs a war he plans to win.
Your release hits you hard, like a wave breaking. Messy, loud, and has you shattering into a million pieces. He doesnât stop his pace, however, he doesnât even slow down, which sends your body into a series of aftershocks that have you gasping for air and gripping his shirt like a vice.
You claw at his waistband blindly before yanking it down carelessly, and the sound he makes when you take him in your hand is downright filthy. You drag your thumb along the underside of his cock, then guide him to your entrance, meeting his eyes with defiance.
âDo it,â you whisper.
He thrusts into you in one brutal, perfect stroke.
And everything burns.
He fucks you like heâs still arguing with his body, not his mouth this time. Every thrust screams Iâm better than you, and your moans scream prove it. You claw at his back, red marks streaking his skin. He grips your hips hard enough to bruise, but the sensation only drags you further into your pleasure. You both hit the edge simultaneously with teeth gritted, sweat dripping, gasping each otherâs names like curses.
When itâs over, you collapse against the mirror, your legs shaking and chest heaving, sweat dripping down your skin in small rivulets. Jun leans in, his softening cock still inside you, his forehead resting against yours.
For once, thereâs silence between the two of you, almost like an unspoken argument.
Then, he speaks, his voice slightly hoarse. âYouâll still be insufferable tomorrow.â
You laugh breathlessly. âSo will you.â
But neither of you pulls away. Not yet.
â-----------------------Â
The next day, everythingâs normal. Too normal.
You arrive at the studio a little earlier than you normally do, stretching on the floor like nothing happened. Like you werenât pinned to the mirror twelve hours ago, gasping Junhuiâs name with your legs wrapped around his waist.
He walks in five minutes later, fresh shirt hugging his stupidly toned body, water bottle in hand, his jaw clenched tight. Neither of you says anything. He moves to the other side of the room and pretends to scroll through his playlist, even though it's the same playlist youâve both been using for the last 3 weeks. You count the seconds between his breaths. You can feel the ache in your thighs, almost able to feel his fingers digging into your skin still, and hate how much it thrills you.
You think maybe heâll bring it up, maybe he would throw a smirk your way, or do that annoying thing where he licks his bottom lip when heâs being a cocky bastard.
But he doesnât. And thatâs somehow a thousand times worse than if he had done something.
Because when his eyes do flick to you in the mirror, itâs not teasing. Itâs hungry. Like heâs remembering every sound you made, every place his mouth touched. He looks away from you before you can even open your mouth to say something.
You make it through half of the session. Half the routine, hell, you only made it through half a song before you explode, surprising yourself in the process.
âSo youâre going to pretend that nothing happened?â
Jun doesnât even turn to you, focused on his phone now. âNothing did happen.â
You walk toward him, your heart pounding so hard you can feel it in your ears. âYouâre lying.â
He shrugs nonchalantly. âSo are you.â
Youâre in front of him now, close enough to smell the fabric softener on his shirt, and you can see the sweat beading at his neck. âSay last night meant nothing,â you dare him. âSay it and mean it.â
His jaw flexes, so much so that his jawline looks like it could cut through glass, but he says nothing. Instead, his hand grabs your wrist and yanks you forward, his lips crashing into yours again like a match dropped on gasoline.
This time, thereâs no build-up. No slow undressing and no banter. Just pure, fiery lust that cannot be put out with any kind of extinguisher. Jun turns you around quickly and bends you over the speaker console, dragging your leggings down with a roughness that makes your pulse skyrocket.
âYou came in here dripping for me yesterday,â he growls against your neck. âWhat are the odds youâre already wet for me again? Pretty high, I would say.â
Youâre about to snap back with a clipped remark when his fingers slide through your folds and prove you wrong.
âFuck,â he breathes, almost like heâs in awe. âYou like fighting with me, donât you? Gets you fucking soaked every time.â
You reach behind yourself and blindly dig your nails into his thigh, a broken moan escaping your lips when he finally lines himself up and thrusts into you, deep and punishing. Your hips slam against the console with every stroke, but you couldnât give less of a fuck. Itâs raw and primal, just like him. Itâs the kind of sex that makes you forget what you were fighting about to begin with.
He fists your hair, pulling your head back gently so that he can whisper in your ear. âSay you hate me.â
You choke on a gasp, his perfectly timed thrusts and the sting on your scalp making you see stars. âI hate you.â
He thrusts harder, a whimper dropping from your swollen lips. âSay it again.â
âI⌠hate you,â you whimper, but your body betrays you, youâre arching, clenching and begging for more. Your body is addicted.
âThatâs right,â he snarls. âYou hate me, but I know youâre going to cum for me anyway. Cum for me.â
And you do, youâre biting your lip so hard it nearly bleeds, your thighs intensely shaking as the orgasm rips through you, even stronger than the one heâd given you the night before. He follows right after, spilling his load into you with a growl, his long fingers digging into the skin of your hips like heâs trying to brand you from the inside out.
Afterwards, he pulls out slowly, his breathing ragged and chest heaving. Neither of you dares to move. The air smells like sweat, sex, and something dangerously close to addiction.
Finally, Jun breaks the silence, his voice almost a whisper.
âWeâre never going to work.â
You look over your shoulder at him, your hair a complete mess, and your mouth red and swollen.
âNo, we wonâtâ, you agree. âBut weâre not going to stop either.â
He grins. And for the first time since you met, itâs not cocky. Itâs hungry.
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You tell yourself itâs the last time.
You leave before he wakes up. You stealthily grab your hoodie off of his laminate floor and step into your practice shoes without looking back. Itâs barely 6 a.m. and the sun hasnât even started to show its face yet, which seems like a fitting scenario, considering youâre walking out of the most unholy night of your life.
The air outside is cold. It clears nothing from your mind, clouded with thoughts and leftover lust from the hours before. By the time practice rolls around at 8 am, youâve rehearsed the line in your head at least twenty times:
âWe need to stop this.â
But Junhui doesnât give you the chance.
The moment you step into the studio, heâs already there leaning against the mirror, hair tied back in a small ponytail so it wonât be in his face, his water bottle in one hand like nothing happened. Like you didnât scream his name into a pillow just a few hours ago.
He lifts an eyebrow at you. âMorning.â
You force the words out. âThis canât happen again.â
He tilts his head, possibly acting confused. âThat's what you came here to say to me?â
You cross your arms, defiance setting in despite the lust trying to crawl its way to the surface. âI mean it, Jun. This thing? Us? Itâs just a distraction. Itâs distracting us from our main goalâ
He hums, and you aren't sure why, but that action alone has you peeved. âA distraction that had you begging for me last night in all aspects.â
You snap. âGod, you are so full of yourself.â
âAnd youâre shaking.â
Your spine straightens out at the callout, but itâs true. Your hands are curled into fists, not out of fear, but from restraint. He takes a step towards you, almost as if heâs challenging you to say something else.
âDonât touch me,â you spit, stepping back so the distance remains the same between the two of you. But his eyes go dark in that way they always do when you challenge him. When you say one thing but your body screams something else.
âWhy not?â he asks, taking a step closer. You donât step back this time, your anger beginning to dissolve into something else, a mixture of emotions.
âBecause youâll ruin me.â
He stops, your words hitting him like a freight train, and the tension shifts. Itâs not playful banter anymore, nor is it teasing. Itâs raw.
âDon't you think I have already tried to stop?â His voice is low now, stripped of any performance, providing a raw insight. âI look at you and forget every line I swore I wouldnât cross.â
You blink. That wasnât what you had expected him to say in the slightest.
âJun-â
But heâs already in front of you again, and this time, when he kisses you, itâs different. Itâs still extremely intense, and itâs still hungry. But in this moment, itâs slower and deeper. The kind of kiss that says I hate how much I want you. I hate how much I need you. But Iâm here anyway.
Your arms fall to your sides, and your fists loosen, before you finally kiss him back like youâre drowning and heâs the only one that can save you. The clothes fall off both of you just as fast again. But this time, when he lays you on the studio floor, he doesnât pin your wrists like he did that first time. He doesnât rush.
He moves like he wants to remember how you sound. Like he wants to make it hurtâbut only because it means something. Every touch is still like fire licking across your skin, but beneath it, thereâs intent. Like he's memorising the shape of your body, the way you gasp when he says your name low against your neck.
âSay itâs just sex,â he dares you between steadily timed thrusts, sweat dripping onto his toned chest.
You open your mouth, but nothing comes out. Your mind and body are at a standstill.
He slows his pace, almost dragging it out in a teasing way. âSay it.â
You drag your nails down his back and whisper, âI canât.â
And the way his body shudders against yours says everything he doesnât.
You donât remember falling asleep. All you remember is the way Junâs fingers stroked down your back long after the last wave hit, and the sound of his heartbeat under your cheek.
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When you wake up a few hours later, heâs still there. Youâre pressed close together, and his breathing is slow and even. He has one arm slung over your waist like he forgot who you are, who youâre supposed to be to each other. You shift slightly, careful not to wake him, but his hand tightens on your hip.
âDonât go.â
His voice is rough, half-asleep and barely more than a whisper, but it stops you in your tracks. You turn your head, just enough to meet his gaze. His hair is a mess, strands sticking out at every angle, and his eyes are puffy with sleep. And still, somehow, he looks unfairly good.
âWe said this wasnât going to happen again,â you murmur.
He lets out a quiet breath. âYeah. We say a lot of things.â
Youâre both quiet for a long time. Long enough that the weight of the situation settles deep in your chest.
âWhy does this feel like more?â you ask softly. âWhy do I feel like Iâm going to start missing you before I even leave?â
Jun brushes his knuckles down your spine. âBecause maybe it is more. Maybe we just never gave it a name.â
You blink and turn to face him, surprised by his genuine response. âWhat would you call it?â
He presses his forehead to yours. âStupid. Messy. Real.â
You donât say anything, you donât have to. Because for once in this whole fucked up mess, youâre not fighting it.
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It doesnât get any easier after that emotional encounter.
You both try extremely hard to act as civilly as possible in public. You give it a week of pretending to be normal, you get separate hotel rooms during the tour leg, less lingering in the studio, nods towards each other in recognition instead of smirks.
It doesnât last, not even the week that you both promised. Thereâs one shared look across the stage during rehearsal, a single whisper in passing. A momentary press of his hand against your lower back when no oneâs watching.
And it detonates all over again.
This time itâs in the dressing room. The door is locked, and so are your lips.
He pushes you up against the wall, your thighs wrapped around his hips, clothes half-on and half-ripped because Junhui just could not contain himself. Itâs frantic and brutal, youâre both like starving wolves trying to devour what theyâve already tasted and still crave. Neither of you can get enough.
âYouâre ruining me,â you pant, your fingers fumbling to tug his shirt over his head in your haste to see him bare.
âGood,â he growls, kissing down your chest. âBecause you ruined me first.â
He takes you fast and rough, similar to the first night, like heâs trying to chase something heâll never fully catch. Your name is a curse on his tongue, and he is a prayer on yours. Afterwards, you slide to the floor together, skin flushed and breathing ragged. Itâs the only sound that fills the otherwise silent area.
He leans his head back against the wall, eyes closing as if the back of his eyelids will provide him with the answers he wants.
âWeâre not going to stop,â he says, voice wrecked and hoarse.
You shake your head, resting your forehead on your palm. âWe donât know how.â
And maybe, just maybe, you donât want to.
Because what exists between the two of you is this chaotic, furious, irresistible thing, which has become like oxygen. It's a fire neither of you can survive without. Too toxic to last forever. Too addictive to give up.
So you do the only thing you can. You light the match again, ignite the fire, and this time, it continues to burn.
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You donât even remember what the fight was about.
Something stupid, was it a timing issue? Blocking problem? His huge ass ego getting in the way yet again? It doesnât matter now. Because after all the intense yelling, the stubborn silence on his end, the slammed doors as he left the studio and left you standing there fuming, he shows up at your apartment door.
Heâs completely soaked from the rain. His normally light grey hoodie is clinging to him and saturated to almost black with how much rain is pouring from the skies. His eyes seem stormy but clear.
âI canât do this halfway anymore,â he says before you even open the door fully. âIf you want me, itâs all in. If not... Iâll leave.â
You stare at him.
Heâs dripping onto your floor. He seems out of breath. But this? This is him, and itâs raw and itâs real.
âJunâŚâ
âNo more pretending weâre just hooking up. No more pretending I donât wait for your texts, or memorise the way you laugh when you think Iâm not listening. No more lying to myself.â
You feel your chest crack open, as if heâs just inserted a key into the crevice of your heart where youâd locked away your feelings for him.
âI donât want to fight you anymore,â he says, his voice tired. âI want to fight for you. For this. For us.â
The rain drums harder outside, a low rumble of thunder in the distance signals a powerful thunderstorm likely on its way.
And still, you step back. You let him in fully.
He drops his bag onto the floor, making a thwap as it hits the ground, shrugs off his soaked hoodie and throws it on top of his bag, and youâre moving before you realise it, your hands are in his hair, your mouth on his, and itâs all yes. Yes to the tension. Yes to the past. Yes to the future.
You pull him into your bedroom and undress slowly this time. No tearing of clothes and no slamming of doors. Just lingering touches and the kind of kisses that say Iâm staying.
He lays you down like heâs trying to memorise every inch of you, and when he slides inside you, itâs not a battle. Itâs a homecoming. Your bodies move in sync, like theyâve been waiting for this moment all along; no games, no roles, just truth in every thrust, every moan, every whisper.
âYouâre mine,â he breathes, forehead pressed to yours. You nod, breath catching. âAnd youâre mine.â
When you cum, itâs quiet and deep. You are tangled together with Jun in something more than just heat. Afterwards, he doesnât pull away from you. Instead, he wraps around you like a shield. Like a vow.
âI donât care what we are to everyone else,â he murmurs into your hair. âBut youâre it for me.â
You curl into his chest. âYou always were.â
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The studio seems different now.
Itâs still as intense as it ever was. Itâs still very much alive with movement and music and creation of people from all over the world, but the tension no longer cuts through the air like it used to. It hums in harmony, like a bee pollinating a flower.
When you argue with Jun now, itâs with grins rather than scolding looks or snappy remarks. When you fight, itâs about who should do which part in a choreography, not whoâll break first. He still teases you relentlessly, and you still roll your eyes at his antics. But when the others leave, and the lights go low, he pulls you into his arms and kisses you like the last time. Like every time.
And when you dance together? Itâs no longer war.
Itâs worship.



















