#juicelife

hilary duff concert by myself tonight. it was fun :) it was raining so so much just before her performance and i got really lucky to get to the venue right after the rain stopped. also this was the most packed ive seen this venue. they usually have people stay on the lawn area but we were all out on the path everywhere haha.

i saw good charlotte yesterday!!!

my 12 yr old self is so so so over the moon! and so is my 33 year old self! i love them so much they were so good. (also saw a7x but i only knew bat country)

also posted them on my stories & joel viewed it :)

im on a post concert high. im all light and love and ready to fix my life and let people in, be close with others in community and be a social butterfly lol. i also have post concert depression. im sad its over and i wont get to experience another GC concert & im back to real life, im back to my problems.

basically im scared to reconnect with this guy and see him again and its like bro if its causing you this much distress just swing back a couple of shots and go out. its not even a date its just reconnecting with an old friend but its been a long time and its kinda awkward now & im scared about a couple of things he might bring up. its stupid. this is something that wouldnt scare another person. i dont wanna take anxiety meds for my anxiety cus i dont wanna be on a daily medication but girl you can self meditate in these every so often situations where you need a little boost