Summary: jongho asks u who ur bias is thinking that it is him obviously (yk since ur dating HIM) but is severely surprised (and confused) by ur answer
Notes: this is my first post so dont judge i was bored and realized I had this in my drafts (there is alot in there π€‘... n e ways lmk if u want other member fics too i have alot) also plsss ignore the timestamps i was too lazy to go back and edit them
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Random headcannon for Jongho but that man is a thigh lover to me. Like he's the type to keep his face between your thighs just for the pleasure and warmth of it.
Also, he's definitely a thigh biter. Like no matter how your skin is, it's gonna be covered in hickeys, increasing every hour you spend with him
Idk if our doing requests rn but I wanna ask if you could write jongho comforting reader after her break up π«ΆπΌβ¨
illogical
pairing: supportive! jongho x fem! reader
synopsis: jongho comforts you after a rough breakup
wc: 1.3k
tags: hurt/comfort, angst, slice of life, mentions of an unhealthy relationship, implied gaslighting and manipulation
etc: iβve no previous experience writing something like this, so bear with me! whilst writing this, i pulled some inspo from olivia rodrigoβs βlogicalβ, sheβs one of my favorite artists outside of kpop. with that being said, please read this with that in mind if your sensitive to topics similar to that. iβm so beyond grateful that someone requested from me, i love to see it, keep it coming <3 and of course, not thoroughly proofread!
The evening air is cold against your damp cheeks, but you barely notice. Your breath shuddering as you curl into yourself, tucked away in the hollowed-out plastic of the jungle gym, the faded colors were dimly lit under the streetlights. The park was quiet, understandably so at the hour, and empty except for the occasional rustling of leaves in the breeze. It feels like the world is holding its breath, waiting for you to pull yourself together, but you just canβt.Β
Your hands are shaking as you grip harder onto your phone, the glow of the screen blurring through your tear-filled eyes. You donβt type anything. No words feel right, and youβre not sure you could even form a coherent sentence if you tried. Instead, you send your location. No explanation. Just that.Β
And then you wait.
You feel the breeze pick up lightly, and you shiver as you continue to let the tears fall freely.Β
At this point, youβre not sure how long itβs been when you hear hurried footsteps crunching over the gravel. You donβt lift your head, but you know itβs him. Jongho. The one person who would come running without question.Β
βY/N?β
His voice is soft, careful, like he already knows youβre fragile. Thereβs a pause, then the sound of him climbing up into the structure, his presence filling the already small space. You feel the warmth of his body next to you before he even touches you.
He crouches down in front of you, his breath slightly uneven and out of pace from rushing here. And when you finally lift your head, his face is a mixture of concern and silent patience, his eyes scanning over youβnot just your face but the way that youβre holding yourself, cradling yourself, the way that youβre shaking.
βHey,β he says gently. βIβm here.βΒ
The moment he says it, something deep inside you rips wide open and completely. You let out a broken sob, covering your face with your hands, and without hesitation, Jongho shifts closer, pulling you into him. His arms wrap around you, solid and steady, and anchors you as your body involuntarily shakes against him.Β
He doesnβt say anything right away, just holds you, letting you cry into the nape of his neck. His hand moves in slow soothing circles against your back. You felt everything, the way his nails curved in every so often, and how his hand occasionally switched rotations, the leather of jacket against the bare skin of your arm.Β
And so, you clutch onto him like heβs the only thing keeping you from falling apart completely. Minutes pass, maybe longer. Your sobs start to subside, but you donβt pull away. Jongho doesnβt move either, just keeps holding you steady.Β
βWhat happened?β His voice is barely above a whisper, careful not to push, only offering you the space to speak if you want to.Β
You inhale shakily getting ready to speak, but the words donβt come. Theyβre caught somewhere between your mind and you throat, tangled up in the fear that if you say them, it will make everything real. That if you admit it out loud, thereβs no taking it back. And worseβwhat if he sees you differently? What if he thinks youβre too much, just like he did? Your silence stretches between you, heavy and unbroken. Jongho doesnβt push. Instead, he just stays close, his hand gently smoothing over your back, as if heβs reminding you that heβs not going anywhere.Β
Eventually, you shift slightly, your arms moving just enough for the dim light to catch on the bruises beginning to bloom along your wrist, just enough for Jongho to catch in his eyes.Β
His hold on you doesnβt changeβhe doesnβt flinch or jerk awayβbut you feel his breath hitch, hand tightening his grip on his knee, his whole body tensing just for a second before he exhales slowly. When he speaks, his voice is somehow softer than before, but thereβs something edged beneath it, something heavy. βY/Nβ¦ who did this?β
You donβt answer right away, just staring in disbelief at the darkened skin, an ugly reminder of hands that should have never touched you like that. Itβs the first time youβve really looked at it. You felt it at first, but never saw the sum of his actions earlier that night. Itβs too much. You squeeze your eyes shut, another quiet sob slipping out before you can stop it.Β
Jongho doesnβt hesitate. In one swift motion, he shrugs off his leather jacket and drapes it over your shoulder, his warmth still lingering in the fabric. βHere,β he murmurs, adjusting it so it fully covers you. His fingers linger near your skin for a moment longer, hesitating just for a moment before gently brushing over the bruised skin, his touch feathering. Pulling you back into him again.
His jaw tightens, but his voice still remains gentle. βYou donβt have to say anything if youβre not ready,β he murmurs. βJust let me stay with you. Okay?β
You nod into him, the movement barely there, but he feels it. He feels the tears soak through his top and onto his skin.
You donβt know how long you sit there, curled against him, your breathing uneven but slowly steadying. Eventually, words start forming on your tongue, hesitant but needing to be said.Β
βI left,β you whisper, voice hoarse from your cries. βI finally left.β
Jongho exhales slowly, like heβs been holding his breath this whole time. His hand comes up, fingers threading carefully through your hair before eventually coming to a halt at the base of your head, cradling it. βIβm so proud of you, I know itβs hard.β
Your chest tightens, drawing discomfort. You donβt feel proud, not at all. You feel small, broken, like you should have left sooner, like you shouldβve never let it get this far. All your past decisions seem so illogical, you thought all your problems were solvable, because you thought he meant it when he said heβd change.Β
βI shouldβveββ
βNo.β Jonghoβs voice is firmer now, but still gentle. His hand shifts from your head to your hand. Interlocking your fingers together, his thumb rubbing lazy motions on the back of your hand. βDonβt do that to yourself. You did what you could, and youβre here now. Thatβs what matters.β
A fresh wave of tears builds in your eyes, threatening to spill over again, but this time, itβs different. Itβs not just grief or exhaustionβitβs something closer to relief. Relief that someone has you, and youβre safe.
You donβt say anything else for a while. Neither does he. He just stays with you, holding you like he has all the time in the world, like heβs promising to stay as long as you need him to. And right now, itβs exactly what you need.Β
The park is still silent with the silent hum of cars passing on a nearby street and the whistle in the wind. The night air is cold, but Jonghoβs warmth lingers against you, in his jacket, in his hand wrapped around yours. Neither of you rush to leave, instead sitting in the silence, letting the moment be what it is.Β
Eventually, you shift against him, trying to pull yourself up, but he beats you to it. He doesnβt let go of your hand as he helps you to your feet. Youβre not sure what to do, but you need to go somewhere.Β
βCome on,β he says gently to you, squeezing your hand just a little. βLetβs go home.β Youβre not quite sure where home even is right now, but you know youβll be able to figure that out as you go with him.Β
Synopsis: Bodies under the sheets, buddies over the streets
genre & warnings: fluff, angst, smut, cursing, drinking, kind of like forbidden love, university setting, cheating (i do not condone this), friendly banters, oral (m&f rec), unprotected sex, dirty talking, mentions of other sexual activities and hints of public sex, petnames, TXT Beomgyu's special appearance, etc etc mdni!
You yelped and pursed your lips, turning around in your seat to glare at the boy who spoke behind you, a teasing grin on his face as he proceeded to sit beside you.
"Hello to you too, Beomgyu." you rolled your eyes and continued eating your lunch while your friend laughed at your lack of usual defensiveness whenever he points out your dumb countenance.
He went and picked one of the fries on your plate, your protests falling on deaf ears, "You should give me your food and eat his bulky ass instead." he says, subtly pointing at the man that you were previously gawking at.
Another comment from him that made your blood pressure spike.
"Don't you ever shut up?" you slapped his hand away from your tray, "And no, I will not do that, you dipshit."
Beomgyu raised his hands in defeat, feigned concern gracing his annoyingly charming face, "I was tryna help you."
"What do you want?" you groaned, looking at him and inquiring what his deal is, and like a lightbulb turned on in his head, he finally blurted out a news that you'll surely dread.
"I wanna inform you that we have swimming lessons for PE today." he suggestively wiggled his eyebrows at you, hinting at something which you immediately understood.
This is seriously not happening right now.
Your eyes naturally trailed over to the guy that you're currently interested in, chatting away with the science teacher (Lee Chan) on their table, which conveniently is your physical education teacher.
The previous one was a girl, but she had to take a leave from teaching for a while due to her pregnancy. Then your school just had to hire a hot dude for a substitute.
Choi fucking Jongho.
You weren't interested at first, but he sure as hell caught your attention when one day, he walked in on the gym wearing the tightest short that you had seen a man wear.
His thigh muscles are bulging, threatening to rip the flimsy fabric and you have to mentally kick yourself for staring.
That was the first one.
Strike two happened when a boring discussion about hand grip turned into him breaking an apple in half, a thought running in your mind that made you realize that you're doomed.
"I wish I was that apple."
You want to be that piece of juicy, red fruit just to be what? To be broken in half by his large hands?
Well damn, you're nuts for that one.
It should have been fine, you thinking of that way of your teacher. It's a small fantasy that you could live in for a while and get over it when the time comes.
It should be fine.. but your stupid self just had to say that out loud. Good thing that the whole class was roaring at your teacher's inhumane strength. Too bad, your seatmate slash best friend heard you clearly, and now, he has an item for blackmail against you.
"Whatever," you mumbled, munching on your sandwich, "it's not like we'll be standing close to each other during the whole period."
Beomgyu smiled once more, seeing right through your nonchalant attitude, "You'll never know what will happen."
Yes, you don't know what will happen unless fate or some fucking fairy guided you into some shit. But this-
This! So damn horrendous.
You see, whenever you wish for luck to come to you, it never does, and that's fine! But.. why the fuck do you have to be so unfortunate?
Like, truly miserable as your puppy eyes went down the drain when your sucker of a bestfriend gave you a thumbs up and mouthed the most inappropriate sentence you had ever encountered (you're just dramatic.)
'Go get the apple of your dreams!'
Oh, he's so dead later for putting you into this position. Later because right now, you're currently rummaging through your brain on how to survive the next (possibly the best) events of your life.
"I'm sorry for dragging you here, Ms. L/N." Jongho's voice brought you out of your inner dilemma, making you realize that you're still here, rooted on earth and standing in front of your whole class for the damned swimming classes.
You ain't a good swimmer, but to hell with Beomgyu because the guy pushed you as the offering for the person who wants to try and act as the lead model for the swimming classes.
"No problem, sir." you gave him a tight lipped smile, inhaling through your nose and trying to keep your crazy heart rate steady.
"Thank you." he smiled back, putting his attention back to the class and resuming his discussion about the proper way to dive.
"So here, put your arms in position-"
The instructor began discussing, but you couldn't focus for gods sake.
He's touching your shoulders. His hands are on your back and oh! His fingers guiding your head to tuck your chin. This is absolute heaven and hell at the same time.
Your muscles are all tense from his magnetizing touch, enjoying all of the sensations you're feeling and you are so close to fluttering your eyelids and just let your body drown in sins when suddenly, and annoyingly, you were brought back once more into reality by Jongho.
"Please do the dive for us, Ms. L/N." he gently pushed you, giving you an encouraging smile to which you could only subtly grimace at.
Here goes nothing.
You closed your eyes, held your breath and prayed, wishing for you to look like a mermaid when you enter the water. (Spoiler alert, you looked like a dying fish according to Beomgyu.)
You did your best, as you liked to think, and you really did feel like on top of the earth when Jongho himself went over to you after classes and draped a towel all over you, giving your shoulders a warm squeeze as he complimented you for your performance today.
"Great job out there, make sure to dry yourself completely so you won't get sick, yeah?" then he smiled, walking away from you before he saw your blushing face while stammering out a proper response.
He touched you. Again. Heck, he even commended you.
And he smiled at you. Again. That's like, three times now? Yeah? Right.
Oh man, looks like you're gonna go home with some delulu thoughts.. and with a wet something down there.
"You like that baby?" his deep voice resonated in your ears, his chest vibrating against your back as he pounded into your behind like you are nothing but his fuck toy.
You moaned at the feeling of his girth inside you, not satisfied with your lack of response, he went and pulled your hair, earning himself a delightful yelp from you.
"I asked you a question, doll."
"Y-yes, sir." you uttered a response, scalp stinging from his hair pulling but the sensation still managed to add to the pleasure.
"That's my good doll." he smirked, his thrusts getting erratic each second. "Since you're so good, I'll let you take all my cum inside, yeah?"
"Oh god-" you moaned out loud, loving the way he talks dirty to you, "Yes, please.. I-I want it all." you begged, tears already pooling at the corner of your eyes.
"Fuck-! I'm coming!"
"Jong-"
Three knocks and a yelling Beomgyu was all it took for your dream to be taken away. Right at the fucking climax.
"C'mon Y/N! Open up, stop sleeping all the time!"
"Ugh!" you groaned, jolting up with anger and shouting right back at the boy in front of your bedroom door.
"Why the fuck are you here?!"
Beomgyu snickers and invites himself into your sanctuary as soon as you opened your door, sitting on your spotless pink carpet and bringing some snacks and a suspicious piece of paper.
You raised an eyebrow, still slightly irritated that your wet dream was disrupted but curious at what storm your friend is brewing.
"Look." he says, showing you a poster along with tickets, "A guy named Yeonjun gave me this!"
"What the fuck is that and who the hell is Yeonjun?"
"A nice senior that I met in the frat!" he happily answered your questions despite the rude tone that you used. "Let's go and check this bar, I heard that they serve a lot of good shit."
"No thanks." you sassily replied, walking over your bed and sitting down on the soft sheets.
He rolled his eyes at your snappy attitude, plopping down on your bed as well, "Don't be such a killjoy!" he whined, "Besides, don't you want to find a hot guy and get laid? I know you haven't gotten a good fuck for like... I don't know? Months?"
You paused, contemplating the offer because yes.
It has been a while since you went out and had some fun. Maybe, you can blame it on that fact, that it was the reason why you're so frustrated.
Why you think and dream about him a lot.
Maybe, you do deserve a little treat after all the hard work that you're exerting for college.
"You actually made sense," you stood up and pat Beomgyu's fluffy hair, "that's nice."
He pouts and swats your hand away, "So, you in?" he excitedly asked.
"Yeah." you let out a little laugh at his childish antics when you finally agreed, pumping his fist in the air with a 'whoosh' coming out of his mouth, "It's a good way to let out some steam."
That is how you found yourself in your skimpiest outfit and hottest hair and make-up you could manage, dancing in some club named Hybe.
The place is classy to be honest. Glaring lights of different spectrum that shines through the mosaic tiles, blaring music from the most popular djs out there, and the fucking fancy drinks that they serve.
Yeah, you could let out some steam, like Beomgyu said.
But how do you do that exactly?
You sighed and excused yourself from the man that you're grinding with on the dance floor, giving some lame excuse of running out of social battery, to which he returned with a genuine smile and telling you to rest.
'What a good boy.' you think, returning to your booth and sitting down with a sigh before gulping down a glass of cocktail, eyes scanning the area with dismay.
Maybe this is a mistake, you couldn't get him out of your head and no matter how many handsome men come your way, they do not turn you on like how he does.
You groaned, burying your face on your hand when an eerily familiar voice resonated from behind you.
"Now, why is a gorgeous lady like you is alone?"
You turned around, eyes blinking slowly like a sleepy cat because surely, this is a dream. Right? Because how come that the Choi Jongho himself, is standing in front of you in all of his sexy glory.
"Oh." you both said at the same time, an awkward silence ensued that he broke himself.
"I.. uh, okay I'm sorry I didn't know."
A hobbling reason on his part but it is true.
In his defense, Jongho doesn't have any idea that it was you, he couldn't see your face directly because of the dim lighting, but he sure as hell can see your sexy as fuck figure that has been dancing away in the club for a few hours now.
He was so, so enamored that he thought, 'Hey, maybe I should go talk to her and get some good fuck tonight.' when he saw you walk back to your table.
He did not expect a familiar face to pop up, nonetheless, his student.
A student that he had been crushing on ever since he saw the way your boobs jiggle during a volleyball class. Or the way your ass looks great when doing the squats. Or your hot skin on his palms during the swimming lessons.
Still, he knows it's wrong for him to make a move on you, his moral compass going strong and the rational part of him kicks him in the shin when he sees your surprised face at his attempt at flirting.
He was about to go back after apologizing, really, but you just had to cripple his remaining sanity.
"Wait!" you unconsciously called out for him when he was about to leave, clutching the cuff of his suit and you paused, closing your eyes and praying to the gods out there to split open the floor right now and swallow you whole.
What the fuck are you doing? Damn, what will he think of you now?
Some kind of desperate slut?
"Yes?" he turned back around, an inquiring look on his face that made you think that maybe, just maybe, you could bag him, even just for tonight.
Yeah, you are a desperate slut. Only for him, though.
"You could.. stay?" you mumbled, wincing at how timid you sounded.
"What? Didn't quite catch that." he leaned down to better hear you, allowing you to inhale his manly, musky scent.
"I, uh.. uhm. I said, you could stay." you repeated, voice louder than before but for some reason, he still couldn't hear it.
"C'mon princess, speak up. Can't hear what you're tryna say."
What a menace. He did hear you perfectly and clearly, he just wants you to say it again. With more clarity, with more confidence. He kind of wants you to beg.
"Stay." you finally blurted out, finding some conviction when he called you princess, because who on earth would do that? It kind of gave you the impression that he is testing the waters with you, like an interim check whether he could spend the remaining time of his night with you.
"Please." you added, releasing his cuff with a sigh that you didn't know you were holding.
He smirked, breaking the nonchalant countenance and taking a seat beside you, his arm automatically flying on your shoulders, pulling you close to him.
"That wasn't so hard now, is it?" he whispered against your ear, his hot breath in contrast with the cold atmosphere in the club tickled you just enough to leave goosebumps on your skin. Before you could retort, he removed his arm, placing it on the table and waving a waiter to serve more alcohol.
You tried to hide your disappointment at the loss of contact, humming of approval when he asked you if you wanted to drink more.
Soon, you find yourself in a buzzing state, hazy mind, lips numb and swollen from the constant biting of the man you're with.
"God, you don't know how long I've been wanting to do this." he panted against your mouth, his rough hand squeezing your breasts through your thin dress.
"Jongho." you whined, lifting your back from the mattress, "Tell me then, how long?" you taunted, brushing your nose with his.
"Ever since I saw you." he admitted, peppering your face with butterfly kisses, trailing down your neck and attacking your sweet spot once he heard you moan from the surprise contact.
Your hands flew to his hair, "Tell me more."
Jongho groaned, loving how submissive yet demanding you are.
"I wanted to kiss you." he punctuated it with a peck, "Then I wanted to touch you." he continued, deft fingers trailing down your body until he reached your bottom, cupping your heat in his large hand, "Then I wanted to take you as mine. Claim you," his hand went inside your dress, pinching your inner thigh that made you squeak, "fuck you until you're crying."
If there is one thing that you're wishing for right now is that for time to stop. You don't want this night to end.
The man that you're pining since the start of the semester is basically confessing his desire for you, and you sure as hell is eating all that up. You didn't have to know whether his words were true or not, because you'll stupidly believe him. It shows how much you like him.
No need to worry though, everything that he's saying is the realest, deepest feelings and thoughts of you.
Jongho had already noticed you from the start. The way you talk politely, the hidden sass that only shows when you're bickering with your friends, your effort and dedication in your chosen course (which he really admires). And of course, the way you look at him like you wanted him to break you.
He saw it all, he felt it all.
And he loved it.
He loved the attention from you.
Who wouldn't? Anyone would be lucky to have you. The popular, intelligent, kind and pretty girl of the university.
But you didn't have to know such details on why he's so charmed by you. What's important is that you are on his bed, and that he's about to rock your world.
"Do it." you said with finality, gripping his hair to stare right into his eyes, "Do whatever you want to me."
That was all it took for him to go feral, ripping your dress (no bra, to his delight) and delving right into your soft chest. Your protests fell on deaf ears, because you really liked that dress, but then you couldn't complain anymore when he reassured you that he'll just buy you a new, better one.
You moan when he bites between the valley of your breast, groping your right mound while he busied his mouth with sucking on your nipple.
You are hyper aware of his electrifying touch. You feel everything. From his tongue flicking on your bud, the tugging of his fingers on your nipple, and the slithering hand down your navel that reached your panties.
"What's this?" he mumbles against your boobs, circling his fingers on the wet patch of the flimsy fabric, "Didn't take you for a lace girl." he snickers, making you slap his shoulders.
"Shut up." you whine, then you realize that he's still completely clothed. "Shut up and remove this." you ordered,Β pulling the silk tie of his expensive looking suit.
"Aren't you a feisty one?" he raised an eyebrow, lifting himself from you when he felt like he's left enough marks on your chest area.
"I like that attitude," he says, removing the tie from his neck, "but I don't tolerate it, especially if my doll knows that she's not the one in charge here, yes?"
You gasped when he clutched your tiny wrists using only one hand, binding your hands together using the tie and connecting it to the bed post, rendering you immovable.
"Wha-!" you tried protesting, but he shushed you once more by pushing your panties inside your mouth.
Since when did he remove your underwear?
"Chin up, princess. Watch the show." he speaks in a deep, dark voice. Basically imploring you to glue your eyes on him as he started stripping himself.
He unbuttons his crisp, dress shirt sensually, sliding the clothing to his shoulders and my god, were you blown away.
You do know that he's sculpted, given that his muscles are almost always bulging from his outfits back at school, but to see him in this natural state of bareness registered something in you... he is ripped as fuck.
"Hngg." you twisted around the bed, trying to free yourself from the restraints to no avail. You wanted to touch him, make contact with his skin because watching is not enough. You need to feel him on your palm.
"What," he chuckles, tossing his shirt somewhere in the room and continues his mini strip show, "wanna have a taste of this?" he jeered, reaching for his belt and unfastening it too slowly for your liking.
You nodded your head fervently, batting your eyelashes at him in an attempt to make him give in and let you do as you please. He shook his head, removing his pants and undergarments in one go before proceeding to grab your jaw, not giving you a second to fully admire his naked body.. or his ginormous length.
"I did remember telling you to be patient, princess." he snickers at your fallen expression when you realize that you wouldn't be able to touch him as soon as possible, "Let's make a deal, yeah?"
Your eyes lightened up with hope, and in his point of view, you're so damn adorable despite the humiliating position that you're in.
"If you don't cum within five minutes of me eating you out," he finally utters, slotting himself in between your legs and dipping his fingers into your core, taking a swift sniff of how good you smell, "then you'll be free."
You gulped, not having enough conviction that you won't cum in five minutes because it's been too long. It's been a while since a man touched you, and you're afraid that one swipe of his tongue will immediately edge you. But for fucks sake, you have to try in order to get what you want.
You nodded again, making eye contact with him with determination, a proud smile on his face before going down town on you without much of a warning. Giving your sopping core a long lick, easily finding your bundle of nerves and sucking on it.
You took a deep breath, willing yourself not to cum. You tell yourself not to give in, even if his tongue traces all the shapes in your clit, even if his wet appendage goes deep into your cunt, even if the slurping noises are making you crazy.
"Ah fuck this." he cursed, inserting two of his fingers inside and curling them mercilessly, hitting all the right spots.
"Go ahead and cum, princess. Lemme taste you." he mumbles against your clit, sending nice vibrations that add to the pleasure, "Don't worry, I'll remove the tie later." he convinces you, not wanting to do the deal anymore because you're too irresistible. Giving oral like a madman is not sufficient, he needed to feel your insides as well, to give him an idea on how tight you are.
"Cum on my tongue, baby."
You writhed around the mattress, gushing around his tongue and fingers. Complaining when he didn't stop swiping his tongue on your pussy, the overstimulation getting to you.
"Sorry, sorry. Here let me." he laughs, showing his gummy smile that doesn't match the situation but still, the lights outside the house that shines through the window were adequate to let you see his amazing visuals.
He untied your wrists and got rid of the gag, giving you an apologetic smile as he rubs your red skin, probably from the harsh pulling that you did. "Got carried away." he explains, making you giggle at his sudden cute attitude, leaning up and giving him a quick peck.
"It's okay." you say, wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him down on you, "Besides, we have better things to do." pushing the innuendo behind your sentence by lifting your hips, grinding against his hardness.
He hissed at the sensation, "You really do know how to rile me up." he smirks, finally positioning himself, sliding his cock in between your folds to gather some slick, "Hope you don't regret this in the morning."
You rolled your eyes, "Oh, I won- Ah!" you wailed when he went inside you in one go, immediately thrusting in an animalistic pace without letting you adjust first.
He hits the right spot when he shifts his hips a bit, the tip of his cock brushing on your g-spot so perfectly, "Oh god! Right there! Jong-" he cuts you off again, sliding his hand on your neck and choking you, shaking his head in disappointment.
"That's not how you should call me, Ms. L/N." he whispers in your ear in a condescending tone, and in a state of lust with the pressure of his hand on your neck, everything that is happening around you seems to arouse you more.
"S-sir," you panted, your nails scratching his back when he slowed down his pace, waiting for you to finish your sentence, "please don't slow down. Fuck me harder."
Jongho took a deep breath, how could he even resist you and say no when you're this pretty under him?
"That's my good girl." he grunts, pistoning inside you and holding your hips in a bruising grip, your angelic moans motivates him to do more.
The embarrassing loud squelches and skin slapping from where the both of you are connected echoed through your ears, stupefying you even more from the lewdness that surrounds the four corners of the room. Each thrust of his hits the perfect spot inside you, and your sensitivity makes you feel even the prominent vein on his thick length.
You chanted his name, Sir Jongho, as he liked to be called, signalling him that you're close, as if you, clenching around his cock still isn't enough to give him the sign.
"Close?" he asked, furrowing his eyebrows in concentration, sweat falling from his forehead down to your cheeks, further pounding into you with much force if that's even possible when you gave him the green light, not having the proper ability to speak.
"Go ahead, baby. Cum." he egged you on, leaning down to suck on your neck while his hand went to your clit and rubbed it harshly, pushing his cock back and forth with vigor, making it his mission to turn you into a mess.
"God, Jongho!" you howled, cupping his face and kissing him deeply, and that's what made you cum, the intimacy of the contact. Your lips on his in a chaotic, open mouthed kiss where your teeth clashed and tongued meshed around with each other.
He groaned against your mouth, releasing his seeds in your gummy walls when he felt your insides wrap around him tightly. As much as he wanted to prolong the intercourse, the pleasure was too much to handle.
That's how good you felt, he guesses.
A few minutes of silence, with only your heavy breathings can be heard passed, coming down from your highs. You felt his weight on you, but you were too spent to care. His warmth lulls you into dreamland, then everything is black.
You stirred around the bed, feeling icky and sore, and when you went to hug what you assumed was a pillow, you were mortified.
Since when did your pillow, an inanimate object, have the capacity to hug you back?
You slowly open your eyes, seeing a different ceiling, and surely this is not the scent that you are accustomed to.
Again, since when did your room smelled like wood and spices? You recalled it, crystal clear, that cherry blossoms and vanilla are your go to scents.
Then you hear someone's breathing, the mortifying reality draws near when you decided to turn your head from the figure beside you.
Shit.
You bit your lip, panicking but you ultimately opted to be rational for once in your life, trying to calm yourself and rethink what the heck happened last night.
You remember begging him to stay with you at the booth, drinking shot after shot until you were wasted out of your mind.
"Alright, I think we need to get you home." Jongho chuckles, stopping you from downing the cocktail. Sensing that you had enough alcohol for the night.
"Noo!" you whined, reaching for the glass in his hand, "And I don't wanna go home yet!" you cried out, clinging into his arm.
Who knew you were this childish when you're drunk, he ain't complaining though, Jongho thinks that you're like a lovely, sweet piece of candy in this state.
"Come on, princess." dropping a wad of cash on the table (payment and tip) and helping you get up.
It was bearable for the most part, you were like a feather in his arms, light and airy, but the hardest part of the short journey to his car was your incessant mewling and your very obvious actions of seducing him.
"Oh wow!" you exclaimed, drunkenly looking around his luxurious vehicle, "You're fucking rich." you tittered at the newfound information, touching the leather covering of the seat, "You're hot, handsome, sexy, and rich? What a catch."
Jongho's posture stiffened, avoiding your sultry gaze by taking a deep breath to calm his libido down, inserting his keys and getting ready to drive.
"Thanks." he says without much emotion, "Now tell me your address so you can rest."
"Ugh." you rolled your eyes, leaning over to his side and you didn't miss the way he ogled at your exposed legs and cleavage, "I told you I don't wanna go home yet."
"Then what do you want to do?" he sighs, running a hand through his hair (which you find really attractive), exasperated at the situation. Seriously, you're making this difficult for him.
You gripped his face and forced him to look at you, his eyes widening at your daring initiative to make a move on him. His adam apple moved when he took a gulp, and that made you fancy him more.
"I want to kiss you," you admitted, hands moving down to his chest, his eyes wandering on your lips, "then I want you to fuck me like you mean it."
There goes his sanity, crashing his mouth on top of yours in a heated lip lock, lifting you up easily and placing you on his lap. Despite the cramped space, you two managed to fit, and it only made the scene hotter.
"Let's continue this at my place, yeah?" he asked, moving away from you and returning to his previous position in the driver's seat.
You were in Choi Jongho's car. You made out with him. He took you to his place. You fucked each other... and now you wanted to slap yourself because of your stupidity. How could you even let yourself make a mistake, goodness, you really need to control your horny ass.
Then you made up your mind, yep. You'll escape then act like nothing happened. Yeah, that's a great idea! Genius.
You moved like a turtle, attempting to wiggle away but you were stopped by his strong arms, pulling you flush on his chest.
"Finally you're awake." his gruff voice in the morning stirred something inside you and for the second time, you had to remind yourself to not let your hormones dictate your actions.
"I'm sorry!" you don't know what you're apologizing for, but you do know that whatever you did and said last night was inappropriate, given that he was the one who talked to you first, it was you who persuaded him to have sex with you.
"I'll leave for now then I will pay for the drinks last n-" he puts a finger on your lips, shushing you as he puts a strand of your stray hair behind your ear.
"Don't worry, I'll pay for your drinks at the bar from now on. I'll even let you do your fantasies on me. Just do me a favor angel," you stared into his orbs, sleepy yet warm, "keep this between us."
And that is how you find yourself every weekend on the bar (that he, surprisingly, owns), wearing the dresses he bought you, drinking free alcoholic beverages and at the end of it all, your limbs are entangled with his. Passionate 'lovemaking' as he liked to call it.
You love the thrill of this forbidden romance.
Sneaking kisses behind closed doors, hugging each other goodbye whenever he insists to drives you home, sucking him under the table while he did his best to talk to a student that needs his help, then fucking you on the said table, right on top of the papers he's checking.
He made you happy, and you know you make him happy as well, you can see it in his eyes. But it was more evident on you, as Beomgyu pointed out how 'bright' you are that the shift kind of scares him.
You only brushed it off with a smile, telling him that you're only taking care of yourself. Even if you badly want to tell him the whole story, you suppressed it, keeping your promise with Jongho intact as to not ruin both of your reputations. Besides, only a few months left before your original PE teacher returns, then you can let loose. Announce the blossoming relationship with Jongho without any care in the world.
One word. It only took him one word to stain your proposal and plant a seed of doubt in your brain.
"What?" you scoffed, crossing your arms in disbelief, "What do you mean no? Are you ashamed of me?" you accused, hurt at his blatant rejection at the idea of becoming official after his contract in your university.
"No, of course not baby, listen to me," he cupped your face gently, "I'm sorry, we'll talk about this tomorrow, alright? I'm kind of stressed right now because of all the work." he smiles, giving the crown of your head a peck.
You sighed and held his hands that are still on your face, rubbing your thumb on his skin, "Okay." you resigned, trusting him with all your heart.
Come next day and everything shattered. Your trust, your heart, your world.. cluttered on his palms.
You were casually humming a tune you've heard on spotify, a pep in your steps as you walked leisurely to Jongho's office, ready to continue the conversation with him from yesterday.
Then you were frozen in your position as you heard the topic from the principal's office by accident. You weren't a nosy person, but hearing his name sparked a troubling curiosity within you.
"Mr. Choi, we really appreciate you. I was even thinking of making you a regular here." your principal speaks, but his next words brought a ringing sound in your ears, messing with you, mentally and emotionally.
"Too bad, you're about to be married soon, and abroad too!"
You heard Jongho chuckle, but that's not all, a honeyed voice laughed as well. A woman's voice.
You couldn't help but take a peek inside, and there he was, the man that you have feelings for, with a girl beside him.
A prettier, sexier, older girl. Someone who looks like she got her shit together.
She giggled like a goddamned witch (that's all in your head because right now, you're full of hatred), and then, at that moment, the puzzle pieces fell into place.
Why he wanted to keep your relationship a secret.
Why wasn't he keen on taking the title as your boyfriend.
Because you are not the main, not the original, you are the other girl.
The other girl that everyone despised. The one that you read on tiktok and stories, the home wrecker.
On this occasion, you kind of also loathed yourself. Only there to make him satisfied, to keep him company. You're convenient, but right now, you're thrown out of the picture because his one and only is here.
You've had enough of this bullshit.
You were about to turn around, ready to drown yourself in sadness and self-pity, but then you made eye contact with him. His eyes widened, dread obvious in his features. Despite the tears making your eyes glassy, you willed yourself to stand up against his betrayal, giving him a hard glare as if telling him, 'I hope you're happy, you traitor, don't show yourself in front of me ever again.'
Then you walked away, your back straightened and with your chin up. Certainly, you are not about to ruin yourself, not like this.
On the other hand, Jongho was quick to excuse himself from the meeting, giving some lame excuse and running after you, seeing you walking down an empty hallway.
'Perfect.' he thought, speeding towards your direction, catching you by your wrist and turning you around so suddenly that it gave you a whiplash. Upon meeting his worried face, you immediately pushed him away, the anger in your face that once held love for him squeezed at his heart.
"Y/N, let me explain. I-"
"Shut the fuck up." you rudely cut him off, balling your fist on your sides to prevent yourself from doing something that you'll regret.
"Please, give me a chance to explain." he pleads, but the more you hear his voice, the more it makes you feel worse.
Honestly, you just want to go home and cry. Pathetic, definitely, but you couldn't care less, you had to get these negative feelings out of your system.
"Didn't you hear me?" your voice shakes, but you continue regardless, you are about to give him a piece of your mind.
"I said shut up. It's not worth it, you're not worth it."
A look of hurt flashed on his visage and it somehow sparked something in your pride because that's good, you want your words to pierce through him like a knife. You want to give him pain as well.
"Don't say that, Y/N, I-" he starts bargaining again, to which you blocked again with a sarcastic laugh.
"Oh, I'll say what I want to say. Don't tell me what to do, Sir Jongho." you specifically emphasized the petname that you would usually use inside the bedroom to give himΒ a sense of what he had done.
"Will you please just let me say something?!" he whisper yelled, frustrated at your attitude.
You raised an eyebrow, the audacity of this man to act like a hotshot when he's the one in the wrong here.
"The floor's all yours then. Talk." you challenged him, only for him to turn silent, gaping like a fish in front of you because really, he went here without any prior thoughts.
"What are you waiting for?!" you yelled, raising your hands in defeat, worn out from this dumb confrontation.
What is he even gonna say though?
That he's sorry you caught him? He's sorry for hurting you and all that shit.
He knew what he was doing, he's not a kid, but he went through it all for the sake of adventure. You are a territory he trespassed, and he's about to pay the consequences.
"I really did like you. This," he pointed between you and him, "it's real."
He hung his head low, not having it in him to face you.
Real your ass.
"You like me?" you asked, hating the way he earnestly nodded his head, "If you really did like me, then you wouldn't make me do this." you stepped towards his figure, the eerily calm tone you're using doesn't sit well with him.
"If you like me, then you would've been honest with me." you jarringly shoved him.
"If you like me, then you should have not given me any hope that I have a chance with you."
Another shove.
"If you like me, then why the fuck do you have to put me in this position?!" you sobbed, giving him a last miserable shove. He accepted all of it, unmoving on his spot on the floor, watching you break down.
"You like me... but you love her. Right?"
"I do."
Well, that was a slap on your face. Of course he loves her, enough to break your heart. Enough to not choose you.
"Y/N, I'm truly sorry."
"No, you're not." you looked at him one last time, "Being guilty doesn't mean that you're sorry."
Then you're gone, leaving him in the hallway while he's having an internal battle with himself.
"Dude , what the fuck?" Beomgyu scrunches his nose, watching you mope around for the past few weeks. He picked up a used shirt from your floor, grimacing when something sticky adhered on his fingers.
"Go away." your muffled voice sounded from under your sheets, making him sigh in defeat and sitting down on your bed. He sets his hand on your foot that was sticking out of your blanket, giving it a tender massage.
"You know, you need to help yourself in order to move on." his soothing tone smoothens the scowl on your features, lifting your blanket from your body and facing your bestfriend.
"I know that." you mumbled sadly, "I know that.. but it's easier said than done."
After your 'break-up' with Jongho, you two went your separate ways.
You did all that you can to avoid him, the PE classes were hell and most of the time, you pretended to be sick so you won't have to attend the lessons and see his face. His presence alone made you want to throw up.
When he's gone for good, there was a moment of desperation within you, wishing that he'll call you. Hoping that maybe, he'll realize that you're the one for him. Praying that he'll choose you instead, that he'll come back to you, begging for one more chance.
All of those went down the drain when you stalked his social media, photos and videos of his extravagant wedding all over the feed, and you couldn't help but cry.
That girl in the gorgeous, white dress could've been you. It should've been you, the one he's saying his vows to, promising to protect with all his might. It would've been you, the one he will love until he's grey and old.
Although you know, right from the start, it was never you.
The denial stage was better than the acceptance stage, this shit is by far the worst you have ever gone through.
Like they all say, facts do really hurt.
You're trying your best to heal, but the insecurities are gnawing at you. Unanswered questions kept you up all night, the dark bags under your eyes are the tell tale sign of it.
You blinked when Beomgyu sighs again, bringing you out of your stupor.
"Come on up." he says, pulling you up suddenly, throwing a hoodie on your face, "Let's go somewhere."
You groaned, "No." you muttered under your breath, proceeding to lie back on the comfort of your bed to no avail, since Beomgyu, being the stronger one, dragged you down with him until you were out of the house.
"My god!" you protested, pulling away from him with a half-hearted angry glare, "You can't just drag me like that!"
"I can and I will!" he yelled back, glaring at you with the same amount of heat that you're radiating.
"And why is that?" you raised your eyebrows, putting your arms on your hips like a mom demanding an explanation.
βBecause I care.β he whispers, and you completely hear it. You did think that your ears are playing some kind of game, but then Beomgyu repeated the sentence with more conviction.Β
βBeomgyu.. I, what do you mean by that?βΒ
βYou donβt need to think too much about it.β he started to voice out his thoughts, which was a bombshell since your friend, in spite of his stubbornness and motor mouth, rarely displays what he really feels, βIβm just tired of seeing you like this, you know?β he looks into your eyes, waiting if youβll retort or something, but when he sees that youβre waiting for him to finish, he goes ahead and takes the opportunity to speak.
βItβs not like you to mope around because of some guy who canβt treat you right. I know, itβs difficult but I canβt stand seeing you so hopeless.. I, this is not the Y/N that I know and love.βΒ
Your breathing hitched, βIs he?βΒ
Beomgyu took your hand in his, the familiar coziness of his skin against yours somehow gave you a sense of solace, a feeling that he always brought with him whenever heβs with you.
βYouβre not alone, alright? So letβs go get some ice cream, my treat.β he smiled at you, and you couldnβt help but beam back, pouncing at him so suddenly that he almost stumbled back. Thankfully, his balance and core are great, so no one was hurt at the collision.
βThank you.β you mumbled, giving some space and intertwining your fingers with his, βI appreciate this so much.β
His eyes softened, the bright yet soft orange hue of the sunset cascades on his side profile, further highlighting his charms (how on earth are you only noticing this now is another mystery for you to solve.)Β
βI appreciate you too,β his eyes crinkled, a mischievous glint on his brown orbs as he disconnected your hands and ran away from you, βonly after you shower though.β he shouts, laughing like a maniac.
You were left dumbfounded, of course heβll find a way to ruin such a sweet moment.Β
Still, it wouldnβt be as fun as he didnβt. So you chased after him, ready to punch him in the gut for the playful remark he threw at you.Β
a/n: last one down! tysm for all the people who read and supported this set of fics (even if i slowed down in the middle) i really, really appreciate you all!! thank you for all the feedbacks and comments!! ππ
Your hand pressed against the cold glass as you held the phone to your ear. If someone had asked you where you would be in five years you would've never guessed it would be jail. Interestingly enough, you were happy here. Happy to have sacrificed your freedom for him. He was going to break you out anyways so you could both continue to cleanse the world of its sins.Β
The world didn't see what you two were doing as good. In the eyes of the law, murdering those who were evil made you evil too. Something that, didnβt make sense to the both of you. Clearly the system was flawed and thatβs simply another thing you would have to fix.Β Gods were what you both were.Β
Placing your hand back in your lap, you stare at the man in front of you. Mere glass separated you two and if you both were brash, you wouldβve broken out already but being in jail further helped both of your causes.Β
Jongho places his hand on the glass, reading the ink sprawled all over his hand. The cop behind you doesnβt notice, or maybe he does but since it looks like gibberish, he ignores it. βHow stupidβ you think to yourself as you finish reading the writing sprawled across the palm of his hand. How the justice system could hire people so brainless and spineless was beyond you.
A giggle escapes your lips as you watch the complete chaos happening before you. Soon, you would be out of here and making the world a better place with your lover by your side. How sickeningly sweet.Β
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Song Series One-shot: Choi Jongho - All I Have by EMO and Oskar Cyms
Genre: angst, idol au, established relationship
Pairing: ateez Jongho x idol!reader (f)
Word Count: 1.2k
Warnings: none
Disclaimer: Please note that my Song Series One-shots are purely based on how I personally interpret the lyrics of the songs I chose for this series. It is not based on the music video (if it has one).
Walking along the beach at dusk, you could feel the weight of the world pressing down on your shoulders. The waves crashed gently, leaving footprints that were quickly washed away, much like the memories you shared with Jongho.
He was walking beside you, his hands buried deep in his pockets, eyes fixed on the horizon, half his face covered by a black mask. The silence between you two was heavy, filled with unspoken words and lingering emotions.
"Jongho," you began, your voice trembling. "Do you ever think about what we had?"
He stopped and turned to look at you, his eyes searching yours for a moment before he replied. "Every day, Y/N. But it feels like weβve drifted too far apart."
Being an idol wasn't easy by any means. It also didn't help that your company was based in the absolute opposite side of the city, far away from Jongho's.
You had been dating for two years now, and Ateez was finally, gradually receiving the recognition they deserved, which means that Jongho's schedule was busier than usual.
This was a very rare occasion where both you and Jongho had some time off; he just finished recording for the next album, and your group got back from your Asia tour only yesterday. Usually, you wouldn't see Jongho this early due to your exhaustion, but you pushed that aside to see him, even if it was only for an hour or two.
The weather was chilly, so the two of you decided to meet up at a beach in the evening, knowing there wouldn't be many people at the beach on a cold day, especially since it was further away from the city.
You felt a pang in your heart, the realization hitting you hard that maybe your relationship with Jongho was coming to an end. "I need you, Jongho. I need you now more than ever," you murmured, looking down at your shoes so that he couldn't see your teary eyes.
You had poured your heart and soul into this relationship. Spending time with each other was sadly neither in your control nor in his. But every free moment you got, you never hesitated to tell Jongho about it, to check that maybe, just maybe he would be free for a little while too.
Jongho was different, though. As much as he wanted to see you when he was free, he was too exhausted to do so. It didn't help that you both were far away from each other. He only ever told you that he's free when he had a full day off.
Jongho sighed, the sound filled with regret and longing. "I know. Itβs been so hard, feeling like nothing is the same anymore, and our busy lives. But something's holding us back, and I don't know how to fix it."
It just wasn't working out anymore.
You reached out and touched his hand, feeling the warmth of his skin despite the chilly weather. "I gave you all I had. I want to be with you through all of this. I want to support you, support us."
Jongho shook his head slowly. "Is there a way to make it right? Was there ever a chance for us to truly make it through, Jongho?" You questioned, gulping.
"Right now... all I see are fleeting moments, Y/N, that are slipping away too quickly."
Tears welled up in your eyes as you listened to his words. "I thought we could find a way, Jongho. I thought love was enough," you said, the tears now falling down, absorbing into your own face mask.
He took a deep breath, his eyes glistening with unshed tears. "Can we really find our way out of this, Y/N? Because I feel lost, like Iβm wandering further away from what we had, chasing promises that never really happen."
Jongho blinked, the tears escaping his eyes. He didn't want to give up on you, but he didn't want to hold you back. He blamed himself a lot for not being able to see you more often, for not telling you he had a little free time in the middle of the day, for not be able to hold you, to kiss you, to tell you you're doing well in such a harsh industry, to comfort you when pratice gets overwhelming, to be someone you can lean on when life gets tough.
He used to be able to do that before, but now he couldn't give you that anymore despite how badly he wanted to.
You stepped closer, wrapping your arms around him, feeling his heartbeat against your chest. "We'll find our way out together. I promise. I gave you all I have, and I'll keep giving. Just donβt walk away, please..."
Jongho held you tightly, his voice barely above a whisper. "I want to believe that. I really do. But I just donβt know if we can break free."
Truthfully, you knew you had to let go. For him. For yourself. Love isn't enough to keep this going.
But you loved him. You were so in love with him as you've been for two years now. You didn't want to give up.
Before you could say anything, he continued, "I can't give up on you, Y/N. I know I should, and I know that's what's best for you cause I can't be there for you the way I was before, and I'm just not good enough forβ"
"Shh," you interrupted him, taking his hands in yours. The sound of the waves against the damp sand seemed louder now. "You being here with me is enough, Jongho. Fighting for me, for us, is enough."
Something had to change to make this relationship work, but the two of you weren't sure what to do.
As the night grew darker, you stood there, holding each other, hoping that somehow, you could find a way back to the love you once knew.
The waves continued to crash, erasing the footprints behind you, but you held onto the hope that new ones could be made.
Snowflakes fell gently from the sky, each a tiny work of art in their accumulation on the Seoul streets. The city was done up in holiday brilliance, with every storefront wearing twinkling lights and carolers serenading their way onto every corner. Against this festive backdrop, you were battling the chill of winter, walking the busy streets in search of a special gift.
It was Christmas Eve, and you had decided that this time you would find a gift appropriate for the person who meant the whole world to you. It was cold outside. You could see your breath in small clouds in the cool air as you wrapped your gloves around a cup of steaming hot chocolate. But your mind was no longer filled with the holiday cheer occurring all around; it was filled with one personβChoi Jongho.
Jongho, with his infectious smile and kind heart, was someone who had been there for you. The two of you continued to grow closer each passing day over the last year by sharing jokes and comforting each other. Lately, though, you found yourself feeling something deeper-something that extends further than friendship. With Christmas so close, you knew you wanted him to know how much he meant to you.
You turned into a quaint little shop, its windows frosted over, delicate snowflakes etched into them. A bell above the door jingled as one went inside, wrapped in the warm smell of pine and cinnamon. Inside, it was a winter wonderland: shelves lined with ornaments, scarves, and other pretty trinkets. Your perfect place to find a special gift.
As you were making your way up and down the aisles, your phone buzzed with a message from Jongho. It was just a simple text, reminding you that he had thought of you, but it made your heart flutter all the same.
Jongho:Β "Hey! Just thinking of you. Hope you're enjoying the Christmas Eve. Let me know if you need any help with your shopping."
You smiled at the message, typing a quick reply before slipping your phone back into your pocket. You continued browsing, looking around the shelves to find something that would depict Jongho perfectly.
Hours passed, and among piles of everything imaginable, you finally found it: an old music box with an elegant, lacy snowflake pattern. It opened with the soft playing of a melodical tune, enchanting and full of nostalgic hints. It sounded just like Jongho's perfect depiction-warm and beautiful, with a touch of magic.
As you left the shop, the present so elegantly wrapped, you checked your watch; it was growing late, so you hoped it wouldn't be too dark when help came in search of Jongho. You hustled a little faster through the streets toward the park where you had planned to meet.
There was a big Christmas tree that stood at the center of the winter wonderland, with its lights flickering as if thousands of stars were banded together. Families and couples were milling around in the holiday festivities. Jongho was right there; his figure stood against the lights, his cozy red scarf and bright smile making the heart jump with gusto.
"Y/N!", he yelled, his voice so warm and buzzing with excitement. He waved for you to go to him, and you quickened your pace to his side.
"Merry Christmas, Jongho!", you exclaimed, your cheeks red from the cold.
"Merry Christmas", he said tugging you into a hug. His arms were warm as you wrapped yours tightly around him, the pine and cedar subtle beneath his cologne. You hugged him tightly, basking in the moment.
Even as you drew back, Jongho's gaze held yours, all warm with fondness. "You look amazing. I'm so thankful I was able to spend the evening with you."
"Me too," you said, doing a flip inside your stomach. You steadied yourself and leaned towards the bag, taking out the music box. "I bought you something."
Jongho's face colored in shock and happiness as you passed him the gift. "You really didn't have to...."
"I wanted to," you said, your voice soft but earnest. "Go ahead, open it."
The wrapping was removed from the precious object, allowing the hands to unwrap the delicate paper to find the most carefully constructed music box. His features turned from curiosity to pure amazement as he popped the lid and listened to the tender melody.
"This is amazing," he said in an emotional tone. "Thank you, Y/N. It's perfect."
You watched him with a shy smile, feeling happy as realization flooded his senses. "I'm glad you like it."
Both of you just stood there for a while, as if the world around you melted away. The music from the box played softly, adding a magical atmosphere to the night. Jongho took your hand gently, his touch warm against your skin.
He started very seriously, in a low tone of voice, "You know, I've been wanting to tell you something. You have made this past year so special for me, and I have never met someone who understands me like you do, and.."
His words trailed off, and he looked up at you with an exposed and hopeful expression. Your heart was beating rapidly in your chest, and you knew it was the right time for which you had been waiting.
"Jongho," you said in a soft voice, "I feel the same way, you mean more to me than words can describe."
He seemed to process your words for a moment, then stepped closer, his eyes never leaving yours. The distance between you closed, and you could feel the warmth of his breath mingling with yours. Slowly, he leaned in until his lips brushed against yours with a gentle kiss.The world melted away with the deepening of the kiss, soft yet passionate, telling more in this single touch of what was shared between them and yet to be shared. His taste filled her senses like sweet nectar, and the touch of his lips to hers felt natural.
By the time you parted, you both were breathless, smiling. Jongho was so overwhelmed, his eyes shone with the utmost happiness and relief as he reached to softly cup your face.
"Merry Christmas, Y/N," he softly whispered with so much adoration in his voice, "This is the best gift I could ever have."
"Merry Christmas, Jongho," you answered, and with that, both your hearts were raised. "I feel the same way."
You two just stood, wrapped up in each other's warmth under the twinkling lights as the snow kept falling around you. In the background, you could hear the enchanting jingle of the music box, perfect to remind you of the love and magic that had blossomed between the two of you. And in that moment, when the world was aglow with festive cheer and the promise of a new year, you knew this would be a Christmas that would forever hold a special place in your heart.
The windows were fogged up, nothing but the overhead light illuminated the cramped space of the car. Rain drummed on the roof as silence settled, their breaths creating a misty veil on the windows. The tension in the air was palpable as they stared at each other.
In silence, neither of them threatening to say a word. Because they couldnβt. They didnβt know what to say to one another. The cool air made Y/N shiver as she pulled the blanket over her some more. His eyes stared at her, wanting to reach out and embrace her, but yet he knew she wouldnβt give him that satisfaction.
Y/N sighed, pulling the strings of the hoodie, his hoodie tighter, wanting to sink into the fabric and disappear from this awkward moment. Her eyes staring at the door handle, wanting to escape from the car. Yet she didn't want to go back to the house; her home wasn't safe. After what felt like hours, he finally spoke, βI can never make things right, can I?β
Rain continued to patter on the car's roof as the weight of his words hung heavy in the air. Y/N's gaze remained fixed on the door handle, her thoughts a swirl of conflicted emotions. She had rehearsed what she might say if this moment ever came, but now that it was here, the words escaped her.
βIs that why you brought me here?β She spoke, speaking bitterly as tears glistened in her eyes. He looked down, unable to meet her gaze, his jaw clenched as he struggled to find the right words. "No," he murmured, his voice barely audible over the rain.
A fragile silence settled once again, broken only by the sound of raindrops. Y/N wiped away a tear, her fingers trembling. βThen why? Why Jongho, huh?β
The tense atmosphere seemed to tighten with each passing moment, as if the rain outside mirrored the storm within. Jongho's shoulders sagged as he wrestled with his inner demons, struggling to put words to the turmoil he had caused. He took a deep breath, his gaze still averted, before finally raising his head to meet Y/N's eyes.
"Because I can't lose you, Y/N. Not again."
Y/N scoffed at his words, shaking her head in disbelief. "You can't lose me? Jongho, you had me. You've always had me." Jongho closed his eyes, the weight of her words heavy on his shoulders. He let out a shaky breath, a single tear sliding down his cheek. "I know. And I was a fool to let you go."
Jongho's voice broke, a raw pain etched into every syllable. His eyes opened, red and glistening, as he looked at Y/N, his gaze pleading. "Please, Y/N. Please forgive me. I know I don't deserve it, I know I've hurt you, but please. I can't lose you. Not again."
Y/N was frozen, unsure of what to say. She could feel the ache in his voice, the pain in his eyes. But she couldn't bring herself to forgive him. Not yet.
"Jongho, Iβm leaving. Iβm leaving Korea and going back home.β Y/Nβs words felt like a slap to the face for Jongho. The rain seemed to intensify, echoing the turmoil in both their hearts. Jongho's eyes widened in shock, his breath catching as her words hung heavy in the air.
"Go home?," he whispered, his voice barely audible against the sound of the rain. "Y/N, your home is here. Itβs always been here, with me."
Y/N turned her head away, her gaze fixed on the rain-streaked window. Her heart ached, torn between the desire to hold onto what they once had and the pain of the betrayal she had experienced.
βNo, Jongho. Home. The United States, not Korea. How am I supposed to go back to the place that's hurt me so much?β Y/N's voice trembled as she struggled to hold back tears. She could feel the weight of her decision bearing down on her, but she knew that staying in Korea was no longer an option for her. βI only came here because of you! You and your dream of being an idol. And look where it got us. Maybe my parents were right? Maybe I shouldβve known better than to follow you down this path."
Jongho's face contorted with a mix of pain and regret, his eyes reflecting the depth of his emotions. He reached out hesitantly, his hand hovering near Y/N's arm before he let it drop to his side. "Y/N, I never wanted to hurt you," he whispered, his voice heavy with remorse.
Y/N's shoulders shook as she wiped away a tear, her breathing ragged. "You never wanted to hurt me, but you did," she choked out, her voice cracking. βMaybe this isnβt what you need. Maybe I wasnβt what you needed.β Sliding off the ring she wore on her finger, she held it in her trembling hand. The raindrops seemed to amplify the heaviness of the moment, each drop echoing the ache in their hearts.
Jongho's gaze fixated on the ring, his eyes widening as he realized the gravity of her actions. "Y/N, no," he murmured, his voice a mixture of disbelief and desperation. "Don't take that off."
Y/N's tears fell freely now as she stared at the ring, her vision blurred. "This ring was a symbol, Jongho. A symbol of a day I couldnβt wait for. But that day will never come. That day I envisioned since I first met you is gone. I-I donβt think I can ever forgive you for ruining everything we had." Her words hung in the air, a mixture of sorrow, anger, and resignation.
Jongho's chest tightened as he watched the ring glisten in Y/N's hand. His heart ached, the weight of his mistakes crashing down upon him. He could feel the depth of her pain, the shattered dreams and broken promises. βY/N-β He spoke, reaching out only for her to shake her head. βJongho. Just take me home,β Y/N's voice was firm, her gaze resolute as she looked at Jongho. The rain continued to fall around them, its gentle rhythm contrasting with the storm raging within their hearts.
Jongho nodded, his heart heavy as he processed her words. He swallowed the lump in his throat, his voice soft and filled with regret. "Okay, Y/N. I'll take you home."
Without another word, he turned the key in the ignition and started the car. The engine roared to life, the sound filling the tense silence that enveloped them. As they began to drive, the rain-slicked streets outside seemed to mirror the tears that both Y/N and Jongho were holding back.
The journey back was marked by an unspoken tension, the weight of their shared history hanging heavily in the air. Each passing minute felt like an eternity, the distance between them growing with each mile they traveled.
Finally, they arrived at the place Y/N had once called home. Jongho parked the car and turned off the engine, but neither of them moved. The rain continued to fall, a quiet backdrop to the turmoil they were experiencing.
Y/N's grip tightened on the ring in her hand, her knuckles turning white. She looked at it for a moment, her heartache palpable, before grabbing Jonghoβs hand and placing the ring in his palm. "G-give it to someone who actually deserves it." she whispered, her voice strained with emotion. Her words struck frustration deep within Jongho, a mix of regret and anger welling up. He stared at the ring in his hand, his finger closing up around the ring.
βYou deserved it. You still do deserve it.β He spoke, his words surprising Y/N who looked at him with a mixture of surprise and confusion. Her tear-filled eyes met his gaze, searching for any trace of sincerity in his words.
Jongho's grip on the ring tightened, his knuckles turning white as he stared at it. "I messed up, Y/N. I can't change that," he admitted, his voice strained. "But I don't want this ring. I want you."
Y/N's heart wavered, torn between her lingering love for Jongho and the pain he had caused. She took a shaky breath, her voice trembling as she responded. "Forget about me, Jongho. Go back to living your life as an idol. Just forget about me.β
His eyes bore into hers, his gaze unwavering. "Donβt you think I would if I could? Once you leave do you think Iβll forget you? No, Y/N. I can't just forget you. You've been a part of my life that I can't erase, no matter how much I want to."
Y/N's tears fell freely as she looked into Jongho's eyes, her emotions in turmoil. "Jongho! Just forget me, please.β Her voice rang. Silence settled in the air making it tense. Jongho hadnβt uttered a word knowing that she was serious.
Jongho's gaze never wavered as he held the ring in his hand, a symbol of shattered dreams and broken promises. He took a deep breath, his voice heavy with a mixture of pain and determination. "Fine.β Those were the only words he spoke. Y/N felt a weight lift from her chest as she watched Jongho's lips form the single, heavy word. Her heart ached with a mixture of sorrow, longing, and a hint of relief. The rain outside seemed to echo the storm within as the world around them continued to move on, oblivious to the shattered pieces of their relationship.
Jongho's fingers clenched around the ring, his gaze never leaving Y/N's tear-filled eyes. The car's interior was filled with an unspoken intensity, a culmination of all the emotions they had both held back for far too long. His silence spoke volumes, a testament to the depth of his regret and the complexity of their shared history.
Y/N's hand trembled as she took a deep breath, reaching for the car door handle. She knew that stepping out of the car would mark the end of their chapter together. She hesitated for a moment, her gaze still locked onto Jongho's.
As she opened the door and stepped out into the rain, the cold droplets quickly soaked through her clothes. Y/N turned to face Jongho one last time, her heart heavy with the weight of their goodbye. The raindrops mingled with her tears, making it impossible to distinguish one from the other.
Jongho's eyes remained fixed on her, his grip on the ring tightening almost involuntarily. The car's interior suddenly felt empty without her presence, and the silence seemed to stretch on forever.
"Goodbye, Jongho," Y/N whispered, her voice barely audible above the sound of the rain. Her gaze held a mixture of pain and resolve as she started to walk away, each step taking her further from the life they had once shared.
Jongho watched her retreating figure, his heart aching as he felt the finality of her departure. He knew that he had hurt her deeply, that he had shattered their dreams together. The weight of his mistakes hung heavily on his shoulders, a burden that he would carry for a long time to come.
As Y/N's silhouette became smaller in the distance, Jongho finally allowed himself to release the grip on the ring. Itβs once shining surface glistened briefly in the dim car interior. It stared back at almost judging him. Its beauty and purpose mocked him as rubbed over the words carved into the inside of it. βMrs. Choi.β Your engagement ring. Yours nobody else.