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kitchen nightmares (s.jn)
023. cornered W.C: 912
The restaurant felt like a pressure cooker, with everyone trapped inside, sweating under the heat. Each shift dragged heavier than the last, and the looming shadow of the shiny new competitor down the block hung over them like a thundercloud. The steady stream of customers had become a trickle, and the tension in the kitchen was suffocating, ready to boil over at any second.
For Johnny, it already had.
Y/n could see it in the way his shoulders were constantly tense, in the clipped tone of his voice, and in the sharp, icy edges of his words. He wasnât just snapping at her; he was snapping at everyone. But somehow, when she tried to help, to take even a fraction of the weight off his back, he shoved her away like her presence was only making things worse.
And those words of hisâthey stuck. âYou donât understand whatâs at stake. You canât.â
She replayed them more times than she cared to admit, their sting burrowing into her thoughts long after theyâd been said. It wasnât just the frustration in his voiceâit was something deeper, rawer. And even though she knew the words were laced with fear, they still cut her.
That afternoon, she found refuge in the break room. Karina, Haechan, and Jeno were already there, each unwinding in their own way. Karina, as always, was the first to pick up on Y/nâs red-rimmed eyes and the tight line of her shoulders.
âOkay,â Karina said, putting her phone down and turning her full attention to Y/n. âSpill. Whatâs going on?â
Y/n sank into the chair with a heavy sigh, gratefully accepting the cup of tea Karina handed her. âItâs just⊠impossible. I get that heâs stressed and all, but itâs like everything I do is wrong. I tried to help, and he basically called me useless.â
Karinaâs brows knit together, her protective instincts flaring up. âHe said that?â
âNot in those exact words,â Y/n admitted, swirling her tea, âbut⊠close enough.â
Haechan, ever the investigator, leaned back in his chair with a sly smirk. âSounds like someoneâs overthinking. Maybe heâs losing his mind because he knows youâre right.â
âHaechan,â Karina scolded in her best mom voice, but Jeno nodded thoughtfully.
âHeâs scared,â Jeno said simply, his quiet tone carrying weight. âThe way heâs acting? Itâs not about you, Y/n. Itâs because he feels like heâs failing.â
Y/n frowned, letting his words sink in. âThen why push everyone away? Why make it harder than it already is?â
âPride,â Karina said, crossing her arms over her chest. âHeâs always been like this. But Jenoâs rightâheâs scared. Still doesnât excuse him, though.â
âMaybe heâs afraid if he apologizes, heâll start crying,â Haechan quipped, dramatically pretending to sniffle.
Karina shot him a withering glare, but Y/n let out a small, weak laugh, feeling some of the tension in her chest ease just a little.
Meanwhile, in the quiet kitchen, Leeteuk and Heechul had cornered Johnny. His arms were crossed, his face set in a hard line.
âJohnny,â Leeteuk began, his voice steady.
âWhatever youâre doing,â Heechul cut in sharply, âstop.â
Johnny turned away, his jaw tightening. âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âYou know exactly what the fuck we are talking about,â Heechul countered, his tone sharp as a knife.
Leeteuk placed a calming hand on Heechulâs shoulder before stepping forward. âYouâre snapping at everyone, shutting people out, and now youâre taking it out on Y/n.â
At her name, Johnnyâs shoulders went stiff, but he stayed silent.
âDo you really think youâre the only one who cares about this place?â Leeteuk pressed, his voice firm but calm. âPushing people away isnât going to solve anything.''
âNewsflash: itâs making things worse. And if you keep this up,â Heechul added harshly, meeting Johnnyâs eyes with a steady glare, âyouâll lose more than this restaurant. And youâll deserve it.â
Johnnyâs head snapped up at that, a mix of guilt and defiance flashing across his face.
Leeteuk softened his tone as he stepped closer. âTalk to her, Johnny. Sheâs not your enemy. None of us are.â
Johnny didnât respond, but their words lingered, carving deep into his thoughts. He wasnât sure which fear gripped him harder: losing the restaurant or losing the one person who still mattered to him.
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kitchen nightmares (s.jn)
022. punching bag w.count: 743
warnings: swearing, (let me know if you find any)
The following week brought a storm that felt otherworldly. Just a block away, a new restaurant had opened its doors, dazzling the area with flashy investments and an overwhelming marketing campaign. At first, only a handful of regulars ventured in out of curiosity, but it didnât take long for the competition to become impossible to ignore.
The once-bustling restaurantâfilled with chatter and laughterâwas now eerily quiet. Empty tables stood as a stark reminder of how quickly everything had changed, and the tension in the air was so heavy it felt like it could suffocate anyone who lingered too long.
For Y/n, the shift was undeniable. The once-familiar rhythm of the restaurantâchaotic but manageableâhad been replaced by an unsettling silence and a growing pressure that loomed over them all. Every shift felt heavier than the last. Everyone was on edge, weighed down by the uncertainty of a struggling business. Even Johnny, usually the steady rock of the team, seemed to be unraveling. His shoulders were constantly tense, his once-sharp and witty remarks growing more infrequent, the light behind his words dimming little by little.
Y/n threw herself into keeping things afloat, determined to help in any way she could. She bounced between tasks, assisting Haechan with getting clean plates out, reorganizing Jenoâs prep station, and making sure chaos didnât spill over into the already tense kitchen. But no matter how much she tried, it always felt like the stress was one step ahead, threatening to crush them all. And Johnnyâfar from the unwavering leader she was used toâseemed to be retreating into himself, becoming increasingly distant.
That fragile truce theyâd shared on the rooftop felt like a distant memory, buried beneath the weight of their shared exhaustion.
Then, the breaking point arrived. Out of nowhere, the restaurant was flooded with orders. The sudden rush was a jarring contrast to the emptiness they had grown accustomed to, and no one could keep up. In the middle of the chaos, Y/n made a mistakeâsomething small but noticeable. She delivered the wrong dish to a customer, a careless oversight in the frenzy. It wasnât a big deal, or at least it shouldnât have been. But it was enough to shatter Johnnyâs already fragile composure.
âCanât you keep up?â he snapped, his voice cutting through the clamor like a knife.
Y/n froze in place. His words hit harder than she expectedânot because of what he said, but because of who said them. She clenched her fists at her sides, biting back the retort that threatened to slip out. She reminded herself of the pressure they were all under, but the sting of his words lingered, settling deep in her chest.
The rest of the night passed in a heavy, uncomfortable silence. When the shift finally ended, Y/n lingered behind in the now-empty restaurant, too drained to move. She leaned against the counter, the weight of endless shifts and mounting stress pressing down on her. She didnât notice Johnny enter until he was just a few steps away.
âIâm sorry,â he said quietly, his voice softer now, almost hesitant.
She turned to look at him, her expression neutral. âItâs fine,â she replied automatically, though it wasnât entirely true.
âNo, itâs not,â Johnny admitted, running a hand through his hair in frustration. âI shouldnât have spoken to you like that. I just⊠I donât know how to handle this. That new place, the pressureâit feels like everything is falling apart, and I canât stop it.â
âI get it,â Y/n said after a long pause. âI really do. Every day, it feels like weâre just trying to keep our heads above water.â
The silence between them was heavy, filled with all the things they werenât saying. Y/n could see it in Johnnyâs eyesâhe wasnât as unshakable as he let on. He was tired, just like she was. Tired of fighting, tired of losing, but still holding on to whatever small hope remained.
âWeâll figure it out,â she said at last, her voice steady despite the uncertainty. âLike we always do.â
Johnny nodded, a faint, almost forced smile tugging at his lips. âYeah. Together.â
As they walked toward their lockers to grab their things, the uncertainty of what lay ahead still loomed large. But for the first time in what felt like forever, Y/n allowed herself to believe that maybe, just maybe, they had a chance. They werenât just coworkersâthey were a team.
And maybe, that would be enough to fight for.
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kitchen nightmares (s.jn)
021. the almost kiss w.count:1k
warnings: kys and choke jokes, swearing, (let me know if you find any)
The restaurant was unusually calm. For the first time in what felt like forever, there was no avalanche of orders, no angry customers, no chaotic moments threatening to tear everything apart. The peaceful shift provided a much-needed break, and for Y/n and Johnny, it was an opportunity to work side by side without the usual tension that had always hung between them.
Y/n glanced at Johnny from the corner of her eye as she arranged a tray of appetizers. He was focused, head down as he plated dishes with practiced ease. But there was something different todayâhe didnât carry the same guarded weight on his shoulders. His movements were fluid, his usual sharp edge replaced by a quiet calm.
To her own surprise, she realized she felt more at ease, too. Somehow, in the aftermath of the storm, the heavy silence that once stood between them had begun to shift. They werenât friendsâat least not yetâbut the resentment that defined their every interaction felt less suffocating.
When Y/n placed the finished tray on the counter, she cleared her throat. âCoffee?â
Johnny looked up, raising an eyebrow. âAre you offering?â
She smirked, shrugging casually. âOnly because youâre unbearable when youâre tired.â
He gave her a sideways look, the corner of his mouth quirking up in a faint smile. âIâll take it.â
Y/n disappeared for a moment and returned with a steaming cup, setting it in front of him. âCareful, itâs hot.â
âThanks, Mom,â he replied dryly, but the gratitude in his voice didnât go unnoticed.
For the rest of the shift, they found themselves falling into an unexpected rhythmâlike the gears of a machine finally clicking into place. Johnny handed her what she needed before she even had to ask, and Y/n stepped in to help him during busier moments without hesitation.
At one point, Johnny even set down a plate in front of herâa spicy dish sheâd mentioned liking weeks ago. He didnât say anything, and neither did she. Instead, she simply smiled to herself, letting the quiet act speak for itself.
At the end of the week, Leeteuk and Heechul decided to treat the staff to a night out as a thank you for surviving the storm (and the chaos that followed). The entire team packed into a cozy downtown bar, their usual uniforms swapped for casual clothes and easy laughter.
Y/n, Karina, Mark, and Haechan were the first to claim the dance floor, pulling Jeno along despite his half-hearted protests. It wasnât long before the music drowned out any lingering stress from the week, their laughter echoing above the beat of the song.
Johnny, on the other hand, stayed by the bar with Chris, sipping a drink and watching the teamâs antics from a distance. His expression was relaxed, though a touch of his usual detachment lingered.
Eventually, Y/n broke away from the dance floor and wandered over to Johnny-now alone- her cheeks flushed and her smile bright. âToo cool to join?â she teased, leaning against the bar.
Johnny turned his head, giving her a small smirk. âIâm just here to watch you all embarrass yourselves.â
âRight, because standing in a corner is so much better,â she shot back, raising an eyebrow.
He didnât argue, just held her gaze for a moment longer than necessary. Then, without warning, he set his drink down and followed her as she walked back toward the crowd.
Neither of them dancedânot the way the others did, at least. Instead, they hovered at the edge of the dance floor, exchanging quiet remarks as the music blared around them. Their playful teasing felt⊠easy. Natural. Like the sharp edges of their interactions had finally softened into something real.
Later, when the group began to scatterâsome to the bar, others to the booths in the cornerâY/n found herself escaping to the rooftop. The air was cool and fresh, a welcome relief from the noise below. The city stretched out before her, lights twinkling against the dark sky.
She wasnât surprised when she heard footsteps behind her. âYou always disappear when things get loud,â Johnnyâs voice broke the quiet.
She turned her head slightly, glancing at him as he stepped beside her, hands in his pockets. âNeeded a breather. I guess you did too?â
He nodded, his eyes scanning the view in front of them. âYeah. Guess Iâm not as tough as I pretend to be.â
Y/n chuckled softly, though her smile faded when she looked at him again. He was closer now, close enough for her to see the way the faint glow of the city reflected in his eyes.
âI didnât expect you to come out tonight,â she admitted quietly.
Johnny shrugged, glancing down before meeting her gaze again. âDidnât expect to want to.â
There was something about the way he looked at herâlike he was seeing her for the first time, or maybe just letting himself look for real. Y/n felt her heart beat a little faster as the silence stretched between them, heavy with words left unsaid.
Johnnyâs eyes flickered to her lips for the briefest second, and Y/nâs breath caught. It was barely a moment, but she felt it like a jolt of electricityâsomething fragile and real, suspended in the quiet rooftop air.
But then, he stepped back, his expression unreadable. âWe should head back. Theyâll think weâre plotting something.â
Y/n swallowed, forcing a small laugh to ease the tension. âRight. Wouldnât want them to think weâre getting along.â
Johnny smirked faintly, but it didnât quite reach his eyes. âExactly.â
They made their way back downstairs, the distance between them feeling strangeâneither too close nor too far. But as the night carried on, that almost-moment lingered like a dull ache in Y/nâs chest, a reminder of how complicated things between them had become.
And yet, for the first time, she wasnât sure she wanted things to go back to the way they were.
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kitchen nightmares (s.jn)
020. storm pt.2 w.count:843
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The next day, the storm hadnât fully cleared. Rain still drizzled softly against the restaurant windows, and the place felt frozen in timeâquiet, empty, like it belonged to a completely different world. The usual hum of conversation and clattering dishes was gone, leaving behind an eerie stillness.
But something had shifted. Johnny and Y/n worked together in sync, their movements smoother, the silence between them no longer sharp or uncomfortable. There was no sarcasm, no pointed remarks. Just a quiet understanding beginning to take shape, like the first signs of a truce.
Johnny stood by the counter, drying a small stack of clean dishes. His movements were unhurried, methodical, but Y/n couldnât help noticing that he looked more at ease. The tension that had been wound so tightly around him for weeks had softened, just a little. She paused from where she was arranging the tables, hesitating before speaking.
âJohnny,â she said, her voice quieter than sheâd intended.
He looked up at her, eyebrows raised slightly in question.
âI⊠I wanted to apologize too.â She gripped the back of a chair, like it might steady her. âI shouldnât have let everything build up the way it did. I was stubborn, I know that. But I never meant to hurt you.â
Johnny put down the dish he was holding and turned to face her fully. For a moment, she thought he might brush her words aside, but his expression softened in a way that caught her off guard.
âI didnât make it easy for you,â he admitted, his voice low but steady. âI was holding on to a lotâstuff I probably shouldâve dealt with a long time ago. And yeahâŠâ He exhaled sharply, almost like the words were hard to say. âI was scared. Scared to let you in. Scared of what might happen if I did. But that wasnât fair to you.â
Y/n blinked, surprised by his honesty. It wasnât the Johnny she was used toâthe calm, impenetrable version of him sheâd seen day in and day out. This was someone more real, more human.
âI get it,â she said after a beat, her voice a little softer. âLast night, I told youâIâve been scared too. Scared to let anyone get too close. Especially after everything with my family.â She gave a short, bitter laugh, shaking her head. âIâve spent so much time trying to prove myself. That I belong here. That Iâm more than just Leeteukâs sister. Like I have to be perfect all the time or Iâll let everyone down.â
Johnnyâs gaze didnât waver. He just listened, really listened, and for once, she didnât feel the need to hide behind sarcasm or defensiveness.
âYou donât have to prove anything to anyone,â he said simply, the words carrying a weight that made her pause. âNot to me. Not to anyone.â
Y/n looked at him, and for the first time in weeks, the space between them didnât feel like a battlefield. It felt⊠calm. Lighter.
âAnd I donât either,â he added with a faint smile, like heâd only just realized it himself.
For a moment, neither of them said anything. The quiet wasnât heavyâit was almost peaceful, filled with the soft patter of rain against the windows.
They went back to work, both lost in thought but not in a way that felt distant anymore. Johnny focused on reorganizing the spice rack, his brows furrowed in that same quiet concentration Y/n had come to recognize. She smiled to herself as she wiped down the last table, surprised at how different it felt to be here, in this silence that didnât sting.
When everything was finally done, Y/n grabbed her bag, ready to leave. She was halfway to the door when Johnnyâs voice stopped her.
âY/n.â
There was something careful about the way he said her name, like he was testing the waters. She turned to face him, curious.
âYeah?â
Johnny hesitated, his hands still resting on the counter, like he wasnât sure how to say what he wanted to say. Finally, he spoke.
âMaybe we donât have to hate each other.â
Y/n blinked, caught off guard. At first, she thought he might be joking, but there was something about the way he looked at herâserious, almost hesitantâthat made her realize he meant it.
It wasnât a grand gesture, or a perfectly worded apology. It wasnât a fix-all solution to everything that had gone wrong between them. But it was something.
A small smile tugged at her lips, tentative but real.
âMaybe we donât,â she agreed softly.
Johnny smiled backâjust a little, like he wasnât ready to give away too much yet. And that was okay.
As Y/n stepped out into the damp, rain-soaked night, she realized the storm really had passed. The air felt fresh, the silence outside no longer oppressive. They didnât have all the answers, and maybe they never would. But for the first time in a long time, there was hopeâhope that whatever came next, it didnât have to look like what had come before.
And sometimes, that was enough.
â-
(the texts take place at 9AM of the next day after the storm)
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kitchen nightmares (s.jn)
019. storm w.count: 928
warnings: swearing
The rain pounded relentlessly against the windows, its steady rhythm matching the dull thudding of Y/nâs heartbeat. Outside, the storm roared with a force that felt almost unnaturalâwind howling, rain pelting, and thunder rumbling faintly in the distance. Inside, the restaurant sat in heavy silence, stripped of its usual chatter and clatter. Only the dim glow of the emergency lights kept the space from feeling completely abandoned, casting eerie shadows over the empty chairs and tables.
The last customers had left hours ago, and the rest of the staff had practically bolted out the door, eager to get ahead of the worsening weather. Now, it was just Y/n and Johnny left to close up. Leeteuk, ever the pragmatist, had insisted that Y/n stay since she had a car. It wasnât much of a consolation as she muttered a string of quiet curses aimed at her older brother. Every tick of the clock stretched impossibly long, turning minutes into hours in the oppressive quiet.
Y/n kept herself busy, forcing her attention on the tasks in front of her: mopping the floor, stacking chairs, wiping down counters. Her movements were mechanical, her mind elsewhere, but she was painfully aware of Johnnyâs presence in the kitchen. He worked with his usual calm efficiency, scrubbing surfaces and organizing utensils, making sure everything was in place for tomorrow. Every soundâthe rustling of cloth, the scrape of metalâechoed sharply in the empty room, amplifying the tension between them.
The silence dragged on until it became unbearable.
âYou knowâŠâ Y/n finally broke the quiet, her voice softer than sheâd intended, barely rising above the rain. âThis feels like the longest shift of my life.â
Johnny didnât look at her, but one corner of his mouth lifted into a faint, dry smile. It wasnât mocking; it felt more like reluctant agreement.
âThe storm makes everything feel slower,â he replied, his voice low as he focused on the pot he was drying. âThough I imagine youâre used to things moving fast.â
The words hit her like a jab to the ribs. She froze for a moment, feeling the weight of what heâd implied. She took a breath, trying to steady herself before speaking again.
âMaybe Iâm not used to people assuming things about me that arenât true,â she shot back, her tone firm despite the slight tremble at the end.
The tension in the air thickened. Johnny finally set down the towel he was holding and turned to face her fully. His shoulders sagged slightly, the exhaustion visible in the lines of his face and the dark shadows under his eyes. For the first time, he looked less like the unshakable Johnny she knew and more⊠human.
âYouâre right,â he admitted, his voice quiet, as though the words were hard to say. âIâve been⊠assuming a lot.â
Y/n blinked, caught off guard by his honesty. It wasnât what sheâd expectedâcertainly not from him. For days, theyâd been stuck in this unspoken stalemate, avoiding confrontation, avoiding this. But now, something felt different. Maybe it was the storm, or the flickering lights that made everything feel raw and exposed, but for the first time, she didnât feel the need to guard herself so carefully.
âYou never asked me anything,â she said after a beat, her voice rough from all the unsaid words sheâd been holding back. âYou just decided who I was. I guess thatâs easier than trying to really know me.â
Johnnyâs gaze dropped for a second, his jaw tensing as if he were working through her words. Finally, he exhaled a slow breath, his shoulders slumping further.
âI was wrong,â he murmured, the sincerity in his voice unmistakable. âI thought I knew everything I needed to know, but I didnât. I tried to push you away because⊠I donât know. I think I was scared. Of what might happen if I let thisââ he gestured vaguely between them, as though the space itself carried meaningââmatter too much. I didnât want to deal with that.â
Y/n felt something twist in her chest at his words. Vulnerable Johnny was not someone she had ever expected to meet. For so long, she had seen him as calm, composed, untouchable. Yet here he was, admitting his fearâhis hesitationâin the middle of a storm that rattled the windows and shook the walls. Her instinct was to retreat, to turn away before things got too real. But for once, she didnât want to run. If theyâd come this far, it had to mean something, didnât it?
âI get it,â she said quietly. âIâve been so focused on proving that I belong hereâthat Iâm more than just Leeteukâs sisterâthat I ended up sabotaging myself.â
Johnny looked at her then, really looked at her, and for the first time in what felt like forever, the distance between them didnât seem so insurmountable. His expression softened, as though her words had unlocked something unspoken between them.
Outside, the storm continued to rage, the wind whistling and the rain drumming against the roof, but inside, the space felt still. The silence between them wasnât heavy anymore; it was calm, tentative. It wasnât everythingâit didnât fix the things that had been broken between themâbut it was something. A beginning.
They stood there for a while, caught in the strange calm of the moment, both of them aware that there was still work to be doneânot just here in the empty restaurant, but between them, too. And yet, for the first time, it felt like theyâd taken a step forward.
Sometimes, that was all it took to start over.
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kitchen nightmares (s.jn)
018. strangers w.count:772
warnings: swearing.
The next few days, Y/n and Johnny moved like complete strangers at the restaurant, carefully avoiding each other whenever possible. The tension between them was so palpable that anyone who worked there could feel it.
Karina and Haechan noticed right away. Karina, ever the determined one, tried to get Y/n to open up. She approached her during breaks, found moments to talk when they were alone, but all she got were forced smiles and quick changes of subject. Y/n clearly didnât want to talk about it, and while Karina understood that, she wasnât about to let her friend drown in her own silence.
Haechan, on the other hand, had his own approach. Being the resident joker, he tried to crack jokes whenever Johnny and Y/n were in the same room, hoping to break the tension. But even he, with all his charm and energy, gave up after a few attempts. Every time he tried, Johnny would shoot him a look that practically screamed, "Not now."
âThis is bad,â Mark murmured one night as they cleaned the bar.
âLike, end-of-the-world bad,â Haechan added, letting out a dramatic sigh.
âYouâre telling me,â Mark agreed. âI miss when they used to tease each other. Now itâs just⊠ice.â
Meanwhile, Y/n threw herself into her work. She picked up extra shifts, took on tasks that werenât hers, and did everything she could to keep her mind occupied. She had built a wall around herself, making polite small talk with customers and forcing smiles that never quite reached her eyes. Inside, she was exhausted. Every time she passed Johnny, it felt like a weight settled in her chest, heavy and suffocating. But she wasnât going to apologizeânot when she firmly believed she hadnât done anything wrong.
Johnny wasnât doing any better. He had grown colder and more distant, barking out orders in clipped tones and keeping conversations with the staff to the bare minimum. He avoided unnecessary interactions with Y/n entirely. But late at night, when the restaurant was quiet, heâd find himself staring at the door she usually walked through. A strange mix of guilt and something deeper twisted in his stomach, making it harder and harder to sleep.
One night, after closing, Y/n stayed behind to help Karina with inventory. The two of them worked silently in the wine storage room, counting bottles. The quiet was starting to feel suffocating, and finally, Karina broke it.
âAre you going to tell me what the fuck's going on?â she asked, glancing at the list in her hand.
Y/n looked up for a second before quickly focusing back on the numbers. âItâs nothing important.â
Karina set the paper down on the counter and crossed her arms. âItâs clearly important. Youâve been miserable lately. And for the record, so has he.â
Y/n swallowed hard and shook her head. âItâs⊠complicated.â
Karinaâs voice softened as she placed a reassuring hand on Y/nâs shoulder. âThen make it less complicated.â
The words hung in the air, heavy but true. Y/n pressed her lips together, trying to hold back the storm sheâd been bottling up for days. Finally, she let out a shaky breath, her voice barely above a whisper.
âIâve been trying so hard,â she said, her words trembling. âTo prove that Iâm not just Leeteukâs little sister. I want people to see me for who I am, not who they think I am because of him.â Her voice cracked as she continued, her eyes brimming with unshed tears. âAnd him⊠he just doesnât seem to care. At all.â
What Y/n didnât know was that Johnny had been standing just outside the half-open door. Heâd come back because heâd forgotten his jacket but stopped in his tracks when he overheard the conversation. Her words hit him like a punch to the gut, each one carrying a weight he wasnât prepared to confront.
He clenched his fists, guilt clawing at his insides. A part of him wanted to walk in, to say something, anything, to fix things. But he didnât. Instead, he turned and left quietly, unable to face the truth of what heâd just heard.
The next day, Johnny was even quieter than usual. Haechan noticed and made a passing comment about it, but Johnny ignored him. Y/n noticed too. She saw how his eyes lingered on her just a second too long, how his movements seemed slower when she was nearby. But she didnât say a word.
The distance between them remained, thick and heavy, but something was beginning to shift. The anger and frustration were starting to fade, replaced by something else. Something neither of them was ready to confront.
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