oh oh im back up front and zek and fey cant stop me!!! (hi its jester)

so so so, im actually a memoryholder (and a gatekeeper, im the most powerful fucker in this system ÙWÚ), so i can tell you how we realized!! we knew systems existed, but we didnt really understand them, you know?? but we actually met a system who was happy to explain it in depth to our project server (VMV server!!), and i guess fey was fed up with going ignored

(fey was the first! traumagenic systems ((DID, OSDD-1a, OSDD-1b)) form when you're Very Small, and the body is turning 20 soon! so caramylla didnt really realize fey was There until that other system friend explained stuff more in depth)

Fey - To be blunt, I forced myself to the front and ended up scaring Caramylla and the server half to death.

jester - yeye! this was like, a year or so ago

we were told very rudely by our ex partner(s) that we needed to be diagnosed or go to therapy and Get Help (?????) to "become normal" again, which uh. isn't how it works! not to mention totally ignoring our trauma regarding therapy itself, but u know <3

so fey ended up retreating again because of that >:/

Z - thats around when i split, actually. yallve seen me post on th' blog sometimes, im zekrax and i get teased regularly fer bein' gay. i also have a Quite Noticeable accent when i type, i just aint choosin' much of the right words t' show it off.

jester - BUT luckily we are away from those partners now and we can properly acknowledge ourselves! im actually the youngest, and i split out of spite (among other things) to force caramylla to come to terms with the fact that qi wasn't alone in qir head, smh.

hm. its a lot easier to talk as ourselves with pluralkit on discord.

ANYWAYS, TLDR, it took us longer to come to terms with being a system than it did to discover we were one! and most of it was us coming to terms with our trauma and alters Other Than Caramylla forcibly fronting heehee