One Of Your Boys
Lorenzo Berkshire x fem!reader
summary: you’ve been Lorenzo’s best friend since 2nd year, but now that your older he’d do anything to be one of your many admirers. (Not really a happy ending but not miserable either ☺️)
song: One of your girls by Troye Sivan
Sorry for being so inactive!! I’ve been so unmotivated and totally infatuated with Joseph Zada so might write for him soon if y’all want 🙈
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It was a warm spring day, a cool breeze stopping you from breaking a sweat in your uniforms. Hogwarts was beautiful this time of year, the trees a vibrant green and an array of different hues coming from the flowers all around. The overall ambience was warm and inviting. You had some time between your classes, so you spent it soaking up the sun in the courtyard with your close friends. You, Daphne, and Pansy were laying down in the grass with Draco, Enzo, Theo, Mattheo, and Blaise sitting around you. You and the girls were lost in your own conversation about astronomy while the boys play wrestled and made stupid jokes.
“Get off me you git!” Called out Theo, trying to pry Mattheo off of him.
“Not until you give me the 20 galleons you owe me!”
“Oh buzz off, you know I’ll give them to you.” Theo says, finally shaking Mattheo off.
“You two are so annoying, do you know that?” You say, propping yourself up on your elbows.
“Yeah but you love it right?” Theo says, winking at you amusingly.
“The only thing she likes is when you two shut up.” Enzo says, finally speaking up and breaking his gaze from you. Your hair was shining in the sunlight and your skin was practically glowing.
You laugh at Enzo’s joke before confirming and laying back down to finish your conversation with the girls.
Enzo’s chest puffed out after hearing your laughter. Never mind he was a Slytherin but a lion formed itself inside his chest, roaring with confidence as your giggles reverberated in his head. His glory dissipates quickly though, by the clearing of a throat coming from behind him.
He turns to see Sebastian Crowe, a Ravenclaw a year above you all.
“Hey y/n.” He says, he looks secure but Enzo can tell he might just burst out into tears.
“Hey!” You say in your sweet voice, turning to face him completely.
“Um, my friends and I are hosting a party tonight and I was wondering if you’d want to come. With me. Come to the party with me?” He says, stumbling over his words. “You can bring your friends.”
“All of them?” You clarify.
“Yeah it shouldn’t be a problem, just want you there.” He says, scratching the back of his head.
“Yeah totally. Thanks for the invite Seb.” You say, smiling up at him.
“Great! It starts at seven, I’ll meet you outside the Ravenclaw common room.” He’s smiling so wide it makes Enzo sick to his stomach.
“See you then.” You say, before he walks back over to his group friends. You can all hear the cheers and pats on the back Sebastian is receiving after relaying the information that he just scored you as his date.
“Your really going out with him?” Enzo asks, thumb pointing back to the rowdy group.
“Yeah. He’s super cute.” You say nodding your head.
“Yeah he’s in my charms class and he’s so smart and funny.” Daphne chimes in.
“Not to mention beautiful! You’re so lucky y/n.” Pansy says, smiling.
“I guess so, yeah.” You say, a slight smile on your lips as a deep blush forms across your cheeks from the embarrassment.
Enzo suddenly becomes fascinated in the grass, doing anything to avoid making g eye contact with anyone in the group as he internally notes that this is the 6th date you’ve been asked to this week. And it’s only Friday.
“Alright well I don’t know about you lot but I’m going upstairs to take a nap before this party.” You say, getting up and rubbing your hands on your skirt to get all the stray pieces of grass off.
A chorus of agreement follows suit, with the girls all following you towards the dorms.
Enzo stays behind, picking at the grass and trying to forget about the black hole that has formed in his stomach.
“Mate, you good?” Mattheo asks, staying back from the rest of the rowdy boys who have started to make their way towards the dorms as well.
Enzo quickly clears his throat, attempting to shake off all feelings of heartbreak. “What me? Oh yeah, totally, just, um, finding grass samples for herbology.”
Mattheo looks at him like he just grew three heads, but instead of mentioning it he responds with, “right, well I’m going inside, if you want to follow.”
Enzo quickly gets up, a string of yeah’s leaving his mouth as he begins to lead the way towards the common room.
“Aren’t you going to take your grass samples?” Mattheo asks, a smirk slowly taking over his face.
“Oh, yes, right. Can’t forget those.” Enzo says, backtracking towards his grass pickings and mentally cursing himself for coming up with such a stupid excuse.
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“Do you like this?” You ask, holding up a little black dress to your body and showing it to the girls.
The dorm has transformed into a beauty parlor as you all prepare for the party; piles of clothes scattered around every possible surface, makeup products being shared and left behind in random areas, and different scents of perfume, shampoo, body wash, and lotion mixing together to create a scent stronger than amortentia.
“Yes! I love!” Daphne squeals.
“And Sebastian will love it even more, especially with this!” Pansy says, throwing a black lace thong directly at your chest.
“Pansy oh my Merlin! I’m not going to sleep with him!” You say laughing, although taking the dress and the thong with you to change into.
“Right, and I’m the king of Gryffindor.” She replies, teasing her hair in the mirror as she giggles.
“You guys are so annoying!” You say, voice slightly muffled as you put the dress on over your head.
“But you love us.” Daphne responds, making kissing noises which causes Pansy to double over laughing.
The laughing is interrupted by a knocking on the door.
“Not it.” Pansy and Daphne both say in unison, forcing you to groan but get up to open the door anyway.
“Hey!” Enzo says as you open the door, revealing his tall frame and boyish grin. His eyes rake over you in your dress, drinking up every single one of your features.
“Hey, what’s up?” You ask, standing just a bit taller after the boost of confidence from Enzo’s very obvious gawking.
“Uh, the boys are all ready downstairs, sent me up to ask when you all will be ready.” He explains.
You turn around to face the girls so they can tell you how much time is needed.
“10 minutes and we’ll be down.” You say, turning back around to face Enzo.
“Perfect, see you then.”
“Yeah, see you.” You respond, smiling as you close the door.
“Omg he would literally run around all of England to be with you.” Pansy says once she’s sure the door is fully closed.
“Yeah him and all of Hogwarts.” Daphne responds, practically snorting.
“Let it go! Enzo and I are just friends, that’s literally it.” You say, exasperated by your friends who always talk about Enzo’s so-called crush on you.
“Yeah, yeah, keep being oblivious. Anyway I’m ready.” Pansy says, standing up from her spot in front of the mirror and straightening her dress.
“Yeah me too, let’s go.” Daphne says, tying up her heels and standing up off the bed.
The three of you make your way down the stairs into the common room, greeted by the rowdy group of boys sitting around and getting a start on drinking as they waited for you.
“Finally! What took you so long?” Draco says, taking a swig from a bottle of fire whiskey as he stands up from his spot on the couch.
“You lot have been waiting here for like 10 minutes.” Pansy says, rolling her eyes and taking the bottle from Draco’s hands.
“Ten minutes in what world?” Mattheo responds, clearly already plastered.
“Who cares? We’re here now that’s all that matters right.” You say, winking at Mattheo and he quickly snakes his arm around your waist and whispers something in your ear that makes you blush.
Enzo takes a drink from his own bottle, looking at the two of you. Everyone knows that you and Mattheo have been sleeping together since the summer. And you’ve been sleeping with Theo occasionally. And Blaise. He understands that Draco is off limits because of Pansy, but what’s wrong with him? He’s always been there for you, would drop anything for you if you needed him, he would give you the world. Nobody wants you as bad as he does. And these boys want you bad. He quickly fixes his hair, suddenly insecure due to wallowing over you, and attempts to nonchalantly flex. He realizes he’s been doing these things a lot lately. Looking at himself in the mirror constantly, training harder during Quidditch practice, even getting more irritable towards the boys out of pure jealousy. But he can’t help it, it’s you who makes him do this. You who makes him loathe everything that touches you. Merlin he’s even become jealous of your school skirt because it gets to touch you every day.
“You coming?” Your sweet voice interrupts his thoughts.
“Yeah, yes.” He says, standing up and mentally cursing himself for being embarrassing.
You giggle at his antics and wait for him to catch up before stepping out of the common room.
“You look nice.” Enzo says, breaking the silence.
“Thanks Enz, so do you. I like that color on you.” You say, which he notes so he can remember to go out and buy more blue shirts.
“Where’d you get that dress?” He asks, but really he wants to know what it would look like on the floor of his bedroom.
“Hogsmede I think. I’m pretty sure I got it that one time we went when Draco got too drunk.” You say, laughing at the memory.
“Yeah and we had to help him throw up outside the Shrieking Shack.” He laughs along.
The conversation continues easily as you make your way towards Ravenclaw tower. Enzo bathes in this moment, the buzz from the alcohol mixing with the sound of your laughter creates a new kind of high he’ll chase forever. Although it’s quickly interrupted by an agitating voice.
“There you are! You look amazing.” Sebastian says, walking up to the two of you after seeing you making your way over.
“Thanks Sebastian. You look nice too, I like that color on you.” You say as he puts his arm around your shoulders.
Suddenly a wave of nausea hits Enzo, causing him to clutch his chest trying to prevent anything from coming out. Did you seriously just say that to him? God he feels so stupid for even thinking you meant it when you had said it to him earlier. He hates him self even more for even letting himself think he had a chance with you. She only sees you as a friend he reminds himself, although it doesn’t help much because you had also only seen Mattheo, Theo, and Blaise as “friends” before you started fucking them. So what was his deal? Why did you stay away from him but not the rest of your friends?
“You good mate?” Antony, a Gryffindor in the same year asks as him and his friends saunter towards the entrance of the party.
“Yeah, all good, just wanted to finish this bottle before walking in.” Enzo explains, trying to rid his mind of you as he talks to his friend.
“That’s what I like to hear man! Let’s see it.” Antony says, hyping Enzo up to finish the bottle in one go, excited to party.
Enzo pretends to smile before chugging the rest of the bottle. The whiskey burns as it goes down his throat and leaves a fire in his chest, but at least it will make him numb to the idea of you. He chucks the bottle against the wall, causing it to shatter and splinter off into a million pieces before slapping Antony on the back and leading him into the party.
The music quickly engulfs all of Enzo’s senses, thumping loudly enough to make his body vibrate. The room is filled with bodies, making navigation nearly impossible. He stumbles around, attempting to find his friends when a pair of hands clasp onto his shoulders.
“There you are mate! We’ve been looking all over for you.” Mattheo says, pulling Enzo into their group circle and passing him a bottle. Enzo practically grimaces at the sight of him.
“Enzo’s sloshed!” Theo says, laughing at Enzo’s inebriated state. They all watch as he finishes half of the bottle that was just handed to him.
“Only half, stop being a pussy!” Blaise says, encouraging his friend to drink more.
This stirs him on, wanting in any way to prove his superiority to Blaise and the rest of the boys, even though you were nowhere near to see him. He quickly finishes the bottle and lifts it up in victory. The boys all celebrate around him, opening another one up and passing it among themselves.
“So, you lot got your eyes on anyone?” Draco asks, looking across the room at Pansy on the dance floor.
“I’m taking y/n home.” Mattheo states, matter of factly.
“Right, sure mate.” Theo says, giving Matt a playful shove.
“You don’t even stand a chance.” He responds, smirking.
Before Theo can respond, Enzo interjects.
“Isn’t she here with Sebastian?”
“Oh so the mute speaks!” Blaise jokes, and Enzo gives him a face.
“She’s only here with him because he asked. She has no real interest in him.” Mattheo says.
Right, so she’ll go out with guys she doesn’t even like before going out with her best friend, makes total sense, Enzo thinks.
“Yeah she has more interest in me.” Blaise jokes, flexing his muscles.
“Will you three stop thirsting over y/n?! You’re totally going to ruin the dynamic.” Draco says, exasperated.
“Bro you’ve been sleeping with Pansy for like two years and not once have you heard us complain about this “group dynamic”” Theo says, adding air quotes at the end.
“Whatever, I’m going to go find a joint.” Enzo says, excusing himself from the group and any talk about you.
“Bring it back when you find one!” Mattheo calls out as Enzo walks into the crowd.
He’s so drunk he can barely feels his body. Everything on autopilot as he makes his way through the crowd sweaty bodies. He quickly walks towards the exit, quickly realizing he needs fresh air. Now. All the alcohol mixed with his longing for you and jealousy toward your posse of boys is making him sick. He pushes out of the common room, instantly hit with the fresh outside air in the corridor. His ears adjusting the sudden quiet. He walks over to a group of Hufflepuffs, accepting a cigarette due to lack of weed and he makes his way towards the end of the hallway where he can’t see any huddles of friends.
You were outside, smoking a cigarette with your girl friend from Gryffindor, lost in conversation before seeing Enzo stumble past you.
“Enzo!” You call out, doing so again after he didn’t stop the first time.
“What?” He says, shirt half way unbuttoned and cigarette hanging off his lip.
“Are you ok?” You ask, excusing yourself from your friend and making your way over to him.
“Why wouldn’t I be?” He says, rolling his eyes and taking a long drag.
You’re taken aback by his response.
“Because you look a mess.” You say, angry at him for his unwarranted tone.
“Is that why you won’t sleep with me?”
“Sorry?!” You gasp, shocked by his words.
“You’ll sleep with Matt, Theo, Blaise, Griffin, Aspyn,” he begins, listing off the boys he’s seen you leave with before you interrupt him.
“What the fuck are you trying to say to me right now?” You ask, horrified by your childhood best friends’ words.
“What I’m saying is that everyone fucking loves you y/n and I’m in first fucking place but you won’t even look at me!”
“What do you want me to do?” You say, too drunk to process his words.
“To try it with me! Nobody wants you as bad as I do y/n. I’ll be whatever you want, whenever you want. I’ll be like the others, just a friend you call up when desperate or something more!” He exclaims, years of pent up tension spilling out easily due to the alcohol.
“You are not seriously trying to convince me to sleep with you right now are you?” You ask, laughing out of pure shock.
“No! Yes! Fuck I don’t know y/n. I’m just trying to figure out why them and not me. You’ve got all of Hogwarts wrapped around your finger but won’t even give me a second glance. I’ve never wanted anything more than to be with you. I know your favorite soup when you’re sick and your favorite horror movie and what you swore you’d only ever tell your diary and I swear to Merlin that’s more than these boys can say!”
You stare at him, dumbfounded by his words and unsure how to respond.
“Enzo I care about you a lot but I’m not someone you can just convince to sleep with you because you think I have an active sex life.”
“That’s not what I”m saying! What I’m saying is that I love you and these other boys don’t but you give them more attention than you’ve ever given me!”
“What the fuck do you mean you love me?” You ask, taken aback by the wild confession.
“I’ve known you better than anyone in this world since second year. Better than Daphne, better than Pansy, better than anyone. How could I not love you?”
“Because you’re supposed to be my best friend! That’s what you’re supposed to be. Nothing else.” You say, spitting your words at him, the anger at his past words bubbling up inside you.
“So you seriously feel nothing for me? Nothing at all?” You can practically hear his heart shatter inside of his chest.
“Enzo…” you trail off, unsure of how to feel. Anger because he talked of you like some kind of prostitute or compassion to the sweet boy you’ve platonically loved practically your whole time here at Hogwarts.
“I feel a lot of things for you. I cherish every memory we have together. How I can run to you after a hard day or after learning some new gossip. How I can count on you to skip class when I’m sick and when I just want to get out. I care for all of it, just- just not romantically.” You say, suddenly trembling despite the fact it’s 80 degrees out.
“Great, that’s just great.” Enzo says, running his hands through his hair.
“Please don’t hate me Enz. I need you. You’re my best friend.” Tears well up in your eyes. This is not how you wanted your relationship to end. Actually, you never even wanted your relationship to end.
“I could never hate you, y/n. But I, I think I just need to go.” He says, tears already staining his cheeks that you hadn’t even noticed had fallen. You want to reach out to him, help him, say something to make this all go away but you know you can’t. You know you’ll never be able to change the way you feel and he’ll never be able to change the way he does.
“So that’s it then?” You say, hugging your chest tightly.
“Just go find one of your boys that I could never be. I’m sure they’ll make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside.” He says, turning away from you and walking back towards the dorms.
“Fuck you Enzo!” You call out, right as your entire group of friends exits the party into the corridor.
