i have had a weird summer this year. i started talking to this guy while looking to make friends in Vietnam before my visit so they could help me get by. so this guy, he's East European and man we matched so bad. the first night we talked, we sent each other like 1800 messages (yes you read that right) and we both pulled an all nighter. (our difference was like 03:30 hours) and we grew too close too fast, way too fast. we both have differences but the similarities just hit different. like personality wise, mannerisms wise and he's a professional drummer too while i am a bit musically inclined as well.

we were in love, like legit love, no infatuation or crush just love cause how the fuck do you even find such a person in this world but today ummm we broke off cause there's no future. he's looking to move to USA while i am planning for Europe, or Japan even. our careers are vastly different with no intersection.

i keep reading his last text where he broke it off... i keep realizing that i both found my soulmate and lost him. idc if there are other soulmates, i am just so... i don't think i can express this pain. i have been on autopilot doing what i am supposed to since i am on a trip with my parents and i have to constantly take care of them cause they don't speak much English either so i have to ensure everything goes smoothly.