#jackowacko

i am different from her. i may be your bestfriend, i may be with you like most of the time, we may have our inside jokes abt penises and vaginas, we may know each other's deepest fucking secrets, we may be comfortable with each other, we may have a deep connection with one another. but i am different from her. in our every moment together, you would wish she was me. you would want to see her face, you would want to hear her laugh, and you would want to touch her hand, instead of seeing me beside you. to think that i was the one feeding every spoonful you need all this time, and you still want her. and the only appreciation i get is a simple thank you, but i bet you would do anything for her just to avoid her thoughts to run like mine rn. i am hurt. and i hate knowing that she runs in your mind like you do in mine, instead of me. i am mad. i don't know who or what to blame. you, my stupidity, or her. fuck. i watch your every glance on her, and it buries me deeper to the earth each time. my heart sinks in jealousy, and in anger. maybe the only thing i should blame is my heart, who chose you instead of the guys who could take your place, who contaminated my mind with visions of you, who made my picture of you my weakness. i just, idk. i just hope time will wear this shit off my sleeve. i can't make you feel me the way i feel you. i can't make your heart shout what mine does. it's stupid. this platonic relationship ended up onesided and fucked up. fuck this feeling. fuck you. fuck your girl. fuck my heart. fuck my mind. fuck me bye

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