#ivan hernandez

CRY MACHO (2021) Grade: C

Companion piece to Rainy Days

Ivan won’t look at you, he can’t bring himself to because the moment he does he knows that it’s over, that he’ll look into your eyes and he’ll see pity, disgust.

He shouldn’t have told you what happened, he should have just kept it locked away inside but the problem is the trial’s coming up and he has to testify…

This thing between the two of you it’s still relatively new, it’s been a couple of months of taking it slow, getting to know each other. Coffee dates, dog walks and a couple of dinners. The two of you have barely done more than hold hands and make out a little on the couch because he’s still navigating his triggers.

You’ve been accommodating, you’d known that something had happened to him but you’d never pressured him into telling you, he can’t express how grateful he is for that.  

“Ivan.” You say quietly. “Ivan, will you look at me?”

He shakes his head, his eyes stinging because he can’t stand to see the expression on your face.

“Ok.” You say softly, clasping his hand in both of yours as you raise it to your lips. “I’m here when you’re ready.”