#it's whatever...

um who's that

Keeping this thought so I won't forget it and hopefully I won't repeat this mistake Because of a relationship that was only a few months it's affected these last few years. There's just absolutely no way we could be friends. None. He won't allow it. He adds too much of a negative vibe to my life and WILL IF GIVEN THE CHANCE try to hurt me in any way he can. As much as I want to...I can't even care for him or worry about him without paying a price. He basically showed me a few months ago that I shouldn't have any kind of contact with him. I don't even know how it happened but I didn't want to talk to him so he had such a tantrum and punched a wall so hard that he broke his hand. He posted it on fb and talked about me[has been talking about me even today since he got his cast off..] but not directly of course. He called me out of my name and was just doing the most. Even posted pictures of a girl he was facetiming on the day he broke his hand and recently when he went on date with another??[it seemed so weird since he never usually did anything like that..I mean he never even had pictures of me on his page] He was/is trying to make feel bad for not checking on him since he broke his hand and if you know me then you know I feel bad about everything but I can't entertain his bullshit anymore. He's worse than he's ever been it seems so I'm glad he's far away and going even farther. I can't keep trying to be his friend when he has no boundaries and just has no regard for others. I really don't have enough time or mental space to spend on him. I just feel like if I can't be kind no matter what then..I'm not really a kind person......like I've reached that limit of kindness I thought I had because of him. I don't want to deal anything like this ever again tbh. I don't want to deal with a guy like him ever again... ....idk it took me like an hour to express my thoughts in these few sentences and I feel like I'm not making any sense.....