#it was traumatizing

1 thing my silly ass will probs NEVER forget is like this one time when I was dating my lwk (HIGHKEY) pdf ex bf (traumatizingly life changing AF btw) & like he said "I love you" & I said "love you too" & since I didn't say the word IIIII in mine too he kinda flipped out & was like "who loves me?" So I said "I do" & he said "Then why didn't you say that" (etc etc) so like ever since then I ALWAYS say "I love you" instead of "love you" bc I panic/think that if I don't say explicitly that I love that person that situation will happen again & I'll feel bad. & also I think he kinda like pushed that paranoia (I think that's the word) onto me that if someone doesn't explicitly say that they love me and just say "love you/love you too" that they probs don't mean it n shit. soooo like yeah, that's my rant 4 the night.