#it support

i am good at some computer things like i have previously been ok at various flavors of coding (when it's in a context), i can use programs and websites fine for general usage, and i know possibly every hotkeys.

but i freaking Realllllly struggle with like... code-to-computer or program-to-computer or even user-to-computer interactions, and at a very early point in the process i get genuinely too anxious to continue.

some recent but very recurrent examples:

want to practice to code; tiptaptype in Notepad or Terminal; want to run or compile or wotever; ....;. where?;.... have taken liek 5+ diff coding classes, why do i not know this ? but i really do not know this. all i can picture is using r in its Computer Desktop Program Rmarkdown, in which u can both write and compile... buttt where do i test website code?; internet search returns numerous Tech Person Forums, containing MANY new and confusing vocabulary words, each with their own rabbit holes of Tech Person Forums with MANY new an-- ; quit.

want to make website; plan out website; go to code website; uhh... where do u put a website for it to be on the internet? without being hosted by smth like neocities / tumblr / nekocities / etc.... ? and how does it.. where does the code... Live? in order for the browser to interpret it ?

want to post photo on flickr.com Website; access file explorer via typical browser-prompted pop-up; click :photos; Incorrect. this is more folders, all with strings of garbage in place of names. 'there are two doors, and one lies?' no, there are dozens of doors. all of them are lying. most of them appear to hold Nothing ! many appear to hold lots of Somethings; you cannot have any more information about these Somethings(?) without opening at least one additional program, and when you do, all of these files and folders may be different, elsewhere, or perhaps nonexistent.

want to transfer Files between Computer and Secondary Device; connect devices with Cable, open file explorer; Secondary Device may be present as a button between 0 and 4 times; in the lucky instance that the device appears as at least one clickable button containing accessible innards: innards are numerous and impossible to parse. may include 1 - 40 garbagename folders, each containing 12 - ~500,000 photos (not visible) OR any number of garbagename files which cannot be opened. ; trying to move or copy files from the Computer to the secondary device results in: no. ; trying to move or copy files from the secondary device to the Computer results in EITHER: okay! butttt it is in 32 locations and you will also never see it again, OR: no.

want to stretch a photo of a Paper(real life, physical) into square proportions, and remove background: requires two programs, a website, four total logins, installing a package, multiple screenshots, hours.

want to write a zine that has text and also Other Stuff, and can be printed on pages that will be in an Order; try text formatting in google docs text editor: no. ; try text formatting on alternative text editing website: absolutely no. ; screenshot text and print via bluetooth thermal receipt printer (because i am Afraid of trying to work a real printer since that seems to make Everybody feel physically inverted, the way i feel with these computer things i do not see ppl struggle with. therefore logically it could probably leave nothing of me but my boots.); physically cut out words and glue them to paper in the positions and orders i want them in. // i think that puts me squarely at barely-able-to-use-computer-as-typewriter skill level ?

want to transfer video from iPhone to an editing program on computer; go on iphone photos app and select videos; transfer to iphone Google Drive app over course of 1,000 years; sync iphone google drive to desktop google drive program via multiple concerted efforts; open desktop google drive program and try to download videos to Specific File; some take 3,0000 years and some say No. ; open video editing program on Computer; blindly open videos because they are all just garbagenamefiles; congratulations this has taken seven lifetimes and you have negative 18 computer storage.

code; want to reference Other File; ohgodohfuckohgodohjesus; quit.

want to burn cd; get cds; get cd burner; find good .mp3 converter website via friend; oops website is down; oke. another friend uses this browser extension, found linked on Forum; :panic ; surely this will be the demise of my Laptop Computer by fault of my own; search internet for alternative/ how other people do it; all results' consensus is a two-part(?) computer program(?) with multiple pages of instructions for how to download and install it/them(?), including, early on, an instruction for making commands in the terminal. . . . . ; my early 2000s tiny child understanding of computers tells me there is 0% chance this will not instakill my laptop computer., and even if some combination of functional programs makes its way onto my device i will surely leave some sort of Information Highway Tunnel catastrophically open and monsters from under the Internet will eat my computer from the inside; realize,, even if i manage to convert to .mp3,, the concept of coralling my .mp3s into a File with a concrete Location and somehow herding that File and all of its contents via a Secondary CD Burner Device onto a read-once cd sounds completely hopeless, and alternatively and more likely i will Fail and Destroy the precious finite cd with inevitable Nonsense Computer Garbage; face defeat.

want to code. ; have learned a wee amount of many languages over the years; forget all of them and which syntax belongs to whose name constantly; remember i was once definitely very capable of making a Button in css?javascript?+html(???)....; search on internet for How To Make A Button In Css?javascript?html(???); numerous Tech Person Forums provide MANY new and confusing vocabulary words!

throughout all of this: Computer says: "rrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHH" and similar sounds which indicate i am causing it pain.

have had the same experience on every computer i have owned (laptops mostly and also a desktop in that era where we still used mozilla firefox but windows had recently turned Evil.)... have had the same experience on other people's laptops and i think desktops. but ! occasionally ! i use somebody else's / a wealthy institution's desktop and at the very least everything feels Safe. files have locations, the ram is not overloaded by me looking at it, surewhynot i'll download and install that chrome extension i'm sure this computer has a robust immune system... etc.

but no matter what i feel like there is a ginormous foggy span between me and my whatever Computer Goal i have, and the internet seems to offer maps particularly for folks who are waaaaay on the other side of the foggy expanse already; or! for folks who have never before encountered a computing device.

Qs: is it just me? why does it feel like nobody else seems to acknowledge this particular pie slice of information around interacting with computers? why am i Afraid of the file explorer? what do i search the Internet for to learn this bridge between the techy stuff and the vvvv user-end stuff ? is this embarrassing?