#it broke

My fault

I left it in my bad and forgot to take it back onto my alter and it broke. It was a cylindrical pendulum with quartz shards inside. And the glass cylinder snapped. It's shattered. I can't fix it

It makes me really sad. Like...frustrated and really fucking sad.

I loved that pendulum. It helped me through so much, helped me with questions I was using it to talk to Loki for a while until I could afford to get him one. Now I'm broke and can't even afford my own pendulum let alone his as well.

I'm really fucking frustrated

But I also can't help but think that maybe this was a sign of some sort. Yeah it's mundane as hell because I'm just a fucking idiot but also I've been feeling really shitty these past few months and I've been thinking about my practice alot without giving been able to do anything due to energy and time.

Maybe this is a sign of some sort. Something representative or an indication of a need to move forward??

Jimmy didn’t die.

Here is a poem.