#istg

we have been no contact since she broke up with me. it was in june, so its been two whole months.

and now, the school year has started. we have no classes together, thank god, but obviously we go to the same school. so, today i saw her for the first time and it crushed me. i was able to avoid her because it was a meeting in the gym.

seeing her makes me miss her so much. not just as a girlfriend, but as a normal friend too.

she hangs out with some of my other friends so ive been avoiding them too now. i wanna hang out with my other friend bro and her being there complicates things.

i wanna break contact because it basically already has been because we literally go to the same school, and so if we do interact it wont be awkward. but at the same time, i dont trust myself to be around her, and i dont think I’m ready to be friends with her right now even though i really want to.

idk at this point, its either i do or dont but its still so hard