Simone Weil; "Ishq".
I'm non-Muslim, and I do not belong to any one religion; personally, I am a polytheist (Tuatha De Danann) who tries also to reconnect with Christ. Speaking the truth "in the face of a tyrant", meeting the oppressed where they're at, building right relationship to land, people, and the god(s) -- these are foundational to my spiritual development. Spirituality is inherently political, in my view. So, I've been doing what I can to learn & develop since I've begun, and though I'm still very early into this, I mean to continue my whole life. Here I've gathered a few excerpts from both of these writers: Simone Weil and Jalees Hyder (one from the beginning of the 20th century and one contemporary) I've been reading a lot from. Incidentally, they both kind of "showed up" at the same time in my life, and I believe, in a way, my prayers are being answered in my being exposed to them. I'm grateful to them. My heart seeks connection to god(s), to truth, to reality, to other people, to eternity. (all emphasis in italics or bold are added by myself):
"When pain and weariness reach the point of causing a sense of perpetuity to be born in the soul, through contemplating this perpetuity with ACCEPTANCE & LOVE, we are snatched away into eternity." - Simone Weil
I felt I knew immediately what she meant, but struggled to reflect with my own words. Then, almost instantly after I finished reading for the day, I saw the Muslim writer/activist Jalees Hyder posting on my timeline on instagram about the Shia Islamic concept of Ishq, writing for this time of year as people make the annual journey on the road to Arbaeen:
"There are stages of love that comfort and delight. Then there is Ishq. Ishq is not a 'safe' emotion. It is a fire that burns away everything within you that is unworthy of surviving. It is the threshold of complete surrender, where the ordinary self dies so that the heart can truly see." "[Ishq] overturns the illusion that the self is the measure of all things. In its place emerges a different way of seeing, where one's desires, ambitions, fears cease to occupy the center."
So, when we look at the endlessness of the universe thru the lens of love and acceptance, there is a kind of joy which comes -- and too a strange lack of fear, in my experience. Existential crises can be transitionary, in my experience. We forget our own selfishness and self-centered desires in those moments where we are clearly surrendering to the void. Simone Weil believed that this is a moment where people "touch the divine, unchanging nature of eternity" in the present moment. She believed this was really how we "touch god"/eternity, which is bigger than our individual selves. Jalees Hyder had written a point:
"Love is no longer a private emotion, but loyalty to truth even when truth demands sacrifice. ... [Ishq[ is not proved only by grief," he writes, "but by service. ... Love cooks, cleans, bandages, and carries." What I've learned about Simone herself so far, was that she believed in "walking the talk" -- in a deeply literal sense, in her case. To understand the working class, she gave up her math teaching career to go work in a factory. She put aside her own personal feelings on violence (she felt more like a pacifist) and joined the anti-fascist fighters in Spain. She was chronically ill and died at 34 from her symptoms, trying her entire life to meet the oppressed where they were at.
Simone Weil believed in the "decreation" of the self; a renouncment of all the trappings of our ego to "make room for God". She considered this an act of LOVE. "Gravity", for Weil, is what weighs us down into materialism, into imaginary illusions against reality (illusions of the self, of our desires and fears; of the past, present and future). "Grace" is her counterforce which pulls us toward reality & thus, to truth. Grace is that true connection to eternity, to the universe.
Hyder wrote:
"You do not go to Karbala to abandon the world forever. You go so that you may return to it differently -- clearer in sight, steadier in loyalty, and less available for the seductions of power."
"Modernity offers its own intoxications," Hyder writes. These intoxications are: comfort, spectacle, and "the self as the only project worth perfecting." For Shia Muslims, the martyrdom of Imam Husayn is "a symbol of selfless resistance to injustice."
Weil wrote:
"The thought of death calls for a counterweight, and this counterweight - apart from grace - cannot be anything but a lie." "We must continually suspend the work of the imagination filling the void within ourselves. If we accept no matter what void, what stroke of fate can prevent us from loving the universe? We have the assurance that, COME WHAT MAY, THE UNIVERSE IS FULL."
















