#irl shit

More so now as I interact with more Moonwalkers, I’ve never felt more at ease in any other fandom. Such blessing to feel that I am apart of something that makes you feel safe and happy.

So thank you to everyone who’s read or interacted with any of my fics. I hope to continue to write more for everyone to enjoy.

I don’t usually post about real life shit on here, but tomorrow I have a doctors appointment and god I just hope it goes well. It’s been six years of doctors telling me they everything is normal, or just straight up lying to me and creating problems that weren’t there before.

I’m trying to mentally prepare myself for them to say everything is normal, but I honestly don’t know what I’m going to do if they do tell me that. I’ve gone through every test the doctors can think of and have had to bring them things to test for after they ran out of ideas. if this doesn’t go well, I’m also out if ideas, and honestly I’m running out of hope for getting a diagnosis.

I just want tomorrow to be over with, I just want answers. I’m so tired of being in pain or being nauseous all the time. I’m tired of canceling plans and losing weight because I feel too sick to go anywhere or feel too gross to actually eat enough.

I’m trying not to let this post be so bleak, I know how lucky I am to have access to doctors and to have support through trying to find s diagnosis, but I just need to get it off my chest.