#irl character

also on that note, if its the second thing, do you think you'll still have more lives afterwards?

Technically, I've always been "destined" to live as source-accurate Andrew. The reason I say this life is a mistake is because I literally was not meant to be living this life, at least in this way. I was supposed to have been born as a theriform wolf in this life. I will be Andrew in my next life, and that would have been the case had I been born a theriform wolf instead. It's safe to assume that my soul has always been Andrew's soul, simply going through lives until landing on the life that will be my next.

People typically have the immediate "but isn't he incestuous?" thought, despite my personality and nature (my character, if you will) being arguably more troubling. Andrew is a self-centered manipulator. He takes advantage of social situations and other people to make himself seem better, or at the very least "normal". Sure, all of this ties into his incestuous attraction, but I don't doubt that he would be like that regardless of his feelings towards Ashley.

Got into Milgram… now my whole personality is being literally Mikoto, Shidou, and Yuno…

Any other Milgram fictionkins/das/irls out there (no doubles)? I feel like these two circles together create something like a deserted island LMAO

I am a fictional character. Yet my feelings and thoughts are real. I myself am both real and fictional. I am a real person with a real identity, but I am fictional simultaneously. I don't even want to be referred to as a "real person" because I am not. Despite that, I want my experiences, my thoughts and feelings, and my identity to be respected and treated as legitimate.

The same goes for my relationships. The entanglement between me and my sister* is as real to me as any other relationship. Sure, she isn't with me, but our feelings and ties to each other are real nonetheless. I view my "fictional" family as more of a family than my "real" family. Though, there are other contributing factors to that. And that's not to say I'm not grateful to my real family; I am. I care about them, albeit in my own, unique way.

Umm okay so I'm a transcharacter/IRL/fictive of the Snatcher from a hat in time and uh. I guess some general tips for like. presenting myself would be helpful

I dress very alt already and in all blacks/purples, I'm actively dying chunks of my hair purple on occasion, but I don't really have a way to buy things on my own so it has to be um. not suspicious? I guess?

(Also if you have any tips for how to get the confidence to act like source that would be great.... it's nerve-wracking!!!!)

(sorry this is so long oh my god my tumblr lags so bad when I type I hate my life)

Well, the glowing eyes are totally a thing, but I don't know how non-suspicious that would be, unless it's Halloween. Have a look at "cosplay eyes."

Tops and bottoms of the same color, a close fit, and cuts where, for example, pants end lower help create a longer silhouette. (Some people find this effect a bit of a confidence boost too.) I feel like the fashion style "ouji lolita" would be a good fit, if you don't already know it and it isn't too suspicious.

Maybe sleek hair + very fluffy scarf, even though it seems like the shape comes from his hair when he was a human? Going hard on the scarf being fluffy and everything else being streamlined would also give it an exaggerated look that could be a bit cartoony or larger-than-life.

I'm reading that he wears a mailman hat at some point, but I don't know if that's the aesthetic you're going for.

I'm not surprised this character takes a lot of confidence. There's the confidence to act different, the confidence to be over-the-top and charismatic, and the confidence to be, well, not very nice. I'm not saying you necessarily should do the last one, but maybe you can find a situation where someone deserves it or thinks it's fun to be messed with somewhat.

Either way, it's about getting to a place where the arbiter of approval/disapproval/good/bad isn't from the social world outside yourself. Like seeing how arbitrary or full of it a lot of judgments people make are and how that's something they will need to move away from in their own "character development." It can be specific individuals, and it can also be like a "social ghost." For example, there are lots of people on the internet making judgments by saying "tl;dr," but it's not a worry that could have come from anything about my blog.

I'm not condoning religious people being jerks either, but it can be a good example of how moving the "social ghost" internally and separating it from what people outside yourself think lets you say ruder things. It could just as well be a philosophy or a fictional character instead of Jesus, as long as you can truly believe in its rightness enough.

The longer life goes on, the more examples we see of how silly or misguided people's judgments can be. When you run your life on your own, that also gives you a deep confidence, but I know that may not be easy or soon. My teenage years felt long enough before even getting to the 21st-century person-with-issues extended adolescence.

I'm sure that I'll want to express myself in my future life, but I highly doubt I'll think about self expression nearly as much as I do presently. I will have many other things to worry about and will most definitely be neglecting my own needs and especially my wants. Not to mention that some of my desires will be socially unacceptable and are not things I truly want due to me knowing they are wrong. I could get into that more but.. well, that's a very long ramble.

In this life, however, I am free to post online, create artwork, dress mostly how I please, and more. I can even express the premature thoughts I have about the relationships in my future life, which is something I will certainly never do- at least to this degree- in my next life.