#introspecty

see like ultimately id-wise my problem is and has always been that half of me wants to be petted and praised and half of me wants to be a disciplined and imperious dark sorceress of some sort. except the thing is that the latter bit isn't actually a domme either? she gets jealous of the other one

See, the thing is that I do have sadistic impulses, but they seem to be completely divorced from my sexuality? What actually turns me on is soft noncon and diapers and being treated like a pet? Why this. Why didn't I get the cool kinks

Does this one understand the dollkink thing... It does tend to slip into referring to itself this way internally, sometimes. And there is an appeal to that concept of stillness, no thoughts but for the execution of its master's will... It doesn't really get the physicality of it, though

you know despite everything i don't know how much i can relate to the idea of age regressing in a kink way. i could imagine it being part of a dynamic like that sometimes but-- like, i'm just not sure if regressed!aether even has a sexuality or not...?

in which meadow contemplates whether she may be a maid sort of girl after all...