Today I learned that you have a girlfriend
In your words, it’s your “best friend”
You’re only in a situationship but fear to admit it
I had hope, but this morning I had a dream where I asked you if you were in a relationship
You said no, that it was weird for me to ask but I just wanted to know
You have a thousand best friends anyway
But best friends don’t say “Ti amo, amore” to each other, don’t they?
I don’t know, but what I learned is that
You’re not available anymore
You never were to begin with
I was starting to think it was “love” (lol)
But a guy like you, who vapes and yells and aches
For attention, and a girl like me, who writes poems, likes her peace, would rather play it safe
We were never meant to work
I still invited you to my birthday
We may not have much to say
But we’re still friends, so
Of course I’ll cry when you’ll return to Italy
It’s 6 months from now, but I fear that my feelings will not change
The way you act is strange, so elegant yet deranged
A continued mystery yet to save
I thought we had something, turns out I dreamed it all
For once I thought a fucking guy was worthy of my heart
It is only when you get rejected that you see all their faults