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Hiii HELLOOOOO

I'm so excited for thisssss😃

This my firssssst!!!!!!😁

Anyway, let's get to work...

ALSO PLEASE SPECIFY IF YOU WANT A SMUT PART, PLEASE WRITE ME IN THAT CASE, I WILL ADD IT

Warning: nudity, feeling, virginity, Crowley being that sweet that you'll get diabetes

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"But what if I'm not good at it?!"

You said while leaning on the bookshelf in Aziraphel's bookstore, clearly flustered while biting your nails.

"listen darling, I may not be the right person for this kind of topic..."

Aziraphel was visibly blushing, he wasn't comfortable talking about whatever you and Crowley do in your bedroom, but for a friend he accepted trying to comfort you, even if he regretted doing it already in the first minutes.

You were on edge of crying, your anxiety was eating you from the inside.

Aziraphel, tried to fight his shyness, he couldn't stand seeing his friend crying...

"Y/N I'm not very experienced on the mechanical acts... But, I know Crowley, I know you, and I know you two together... You are inseparable, you shouldn't worry about it... He clearly loves you! I have never seen Crowley buying someone flowers or go with them to their cousin wedding... He can't even enter a church! He went to wedding for you! Thank God it was in S. James Park..."

You looked at him.

He was right indeed, but the stupid voice in your head couldn't shut the fuck up.

He approached you and leaned near you on the bookcase, he handed you a cup of hot chocolate.

You looked at him again this time a little bit relieved then before.

"Y/N if you were him, would you care about that?"

"absolutely not, I love him"

"then why should you worry?"

He was damn right, you knew it...

Still you felt that sensation at the pit of your stomach.

You talked a little more before you left.

You exited Aziraphel's bookshop, put on your headphones and walked your way to the underground.

While the music was pounding in your ears, you were left with your thoughts, and the anxiety you believed to have defeated, came back even stronger.

"what if he doesn't want me anymore if I say this?"

"what if I'm not good enough"

It was almost three months into your relationship, and he was starting to send signals to you about wanting something more.

You never mentioned your virginity, you didn't tink about it until he started to demonstrate interest in such activities.

Everytime he tried to initiate something, you found an excuse to quit it right when it started.

He was starting to doubt himself too, but you couldn't know it, since the both of you didn't want to face the topic, acting like the problem didn't exist.

You hadn't told him, you hadn't found the right moment to tell him, and now it was to late to tell him.

You were brought back to reality by the electronic voice of the train informing your arrival to the right platform

You got off, exited the underground and headed to Crowley's Hause.

You knew he wasn't home, but he gave you the key, so there were more times you were at his then your own flat.

You thought taking a shower would have been a good way to clear your mind.

You went to the bathroom, took off your clothes and entered the shower.

The hot water was caressing your body and covering your hair, making it impossible for you to hear the sound of the bathroom's door opening.

Crowley started to strip of his clothes and approached you in the shower.

He knocked on the glass door and waited for you to turn around.

You jumped, scared by the sound.

You weren't expecting him that soon, and even though you were happy to see him, you were at the same time anxious.

"Hi sweetheart"

He said with a playful grin on his face, you played along, smiling and putting your arms on his shoulders around his neck.

You kissed him trying to suppress any negative thought.

His hands started to roam on your body.

Stroking, touching, squeezing...

You were growing anxious and anxious.

You were feeling conflicting emotions...

Pleasure, anxiety, fear and trepidation all at once.

He let his left hand linger down your body, toward your groin.

When he finally touched it, you felt something unbearable.

You tried to call him through the kiss, but he seemed to not notice it, until...

"Crowley!"

You pushed him away from you and leaned on the wall behind you.

You brought your hands to cover your face and you were again for the second time that day on the edge of crying.

He looked panicked.

He didn't know what was going on and what to do.

"Oh my! Y/N what happened? Tell me please... Did I hurt?"

He was almost as scared as you were and he hugged you.

"please Y/N speak to me... It's been days, I can't go on with seeing you like this everytime I try to be with you... Is that something to do with me? I can change! It's the eyes? Maybe their frightening, I should probably keep wearing glasses"

He had started to blather things but you answered only when you heard the last sentence.

"No! I love your eyes Crowley! It's not about you... It's about me..."

You said leaning even more in his embrace.

He remained silent, waiting for you to explain yourself.

"it's just..."

"Y/N you know you can tell me anything, I love you and I'll try anything I can to make you feel better"

You looked at him, he was looking at you.

You stayed like this, a moment that if you could exchange all the years of your life to live that instant again, you would give them all away.

You closed your eyes only to give him a chaste kiss on his lips.

No roughness, just a pure demonstration of the love you feel for him.

"Crowley, I realize only now that I should have said this to you before, but, I don't know... I just couldn't... The fact is that... I'm virgin"

He stayed still for a moment, then an expression that was the mix between a grin, a tender gaze and an incredulous face.

"you're virgin!? Oh you my little sweetie... Why didn't you tell me?"

"yes I am, don't try to joke about you filthy demon"

You were know laughing together and all the heavy emotions you were feeling before seemed all forgotten.

He was now smiling tenderly to you.

"My love, you could've just tell me, I would have never judged you"

"I know... It's just... I was anxious... What if I'm not go-"

He put his finger in his ears and closed his eyes

"la la la la I don't want to your bullshit la la la la"

You laughed at his childish behaviour and patted him on the chest to make him open his eyes.

"Y/N, you're the most precious thing that has ever happened to me, and believe me, I have been around for quite a few years now... I have all the time of the world to wait for whenever you'll feel ready"

You closed your eyes and rest your head on his chest.

He hugged you again and you felt like in a movie, at the perfect place at the perfect time.

"why don't we dry ourselves up and get ready to go out? There's this underground rock band that plays tonight at the new pub in Brick Lane"

"abso-fucking-lutely yes"

He opened the shower's door and got out of it.

"do you want me to stay or you prefer have the bathroom for yourself?"

"even if you laughed at me before, I give you grace"

"I thank you my Queen... Shall I roll out the red carpet and call the page boys"

In about two hours you both were ready to go.

You laughed and threw at him the towel.

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HERE IT IS

I'M SO EXCITED

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Crowley Cosplay by Me!

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Here i am with another GO shitpost....Enjoy!