#imo anyway

Kind of a weird time for this maybe but I made a comic essay about the video game Blue Prince and my experience playing it. Very, very good game.

that's something you guys made up based on things that happened when they were children! sorry! the interactions we see between them as adults suggest a great deal of mutual respect and care, they're just not loud about it.

in ootp remus bosses sirius around quite a bit and lowkey stage manages him lol, and how do we see sirius respond to that? he complies. he respects remus enough to know when he should probably listen to him. sirius doesn't take fucking orders or let himself be pushed around by people he doesn't respect. he is intelligent enough to know full well when he's being manipulated, and he complies anyway. he genuinely values remus's opinion and trusts his judgment enough to defer to it when the situation calls for it.

likewise mr arms-length lupin is living in sirius's house, doing joint christmas presents that sirius is obviously funding, is presumably having to rely on him a fair bit around the full moon, is openly expressing anger about umbridge and anti-werewolf legislation to him - none of this reads as sirius being someone remus has massive deep-seated resentment for, this is someone he feels safe enough with to relax a bit and reveal himself around, and that's not something that comes easily to him!

remus might feel a certain type of way about things from the past such as the prank, the casual treatment of the full moon, being suspected of being a traitor - that would be entirely valid and reasonable, from what we see of teenage sirius. but i think if that is the case, remus isn't even being honest about it inside his own head really. i think he's quite keen to repress and self-soothe about all of that.

i think they reminisce and regress around each other in a way that's comforting for them both if not especially conducive to healing anything - i don't think they're talking out the messy emotional side of So We Each Thought The Other Was A Traitor in any great detail if at all, they're deflecting from that. whether you think they're fucking or not, they're so not beating the boomer allegations.

also - and let me scream about this one lol - the fact sirius leaves everything to harry is not evidence he does not care about his impoverished friend's wellbeing, it's evidence he is not adept at long term planning - he has been in jail!! for twelve years!! last year he was eating rats in a cave!!! i cannot emphasise to you enough how much he was eating rats in a cave. he loves harry a lot and will move mountains to show up for him, but he does not know how to be an adult who makes well-planned adult decisions about it.

the opportunity to learn the financial planning skills you would expect from a wealthy guy of his age has been taken from him by the way the judicial system has failed him (does he even get a trial?? makes me insane). he spends the last year of his life quite mentally unwell and drinking too much and confined to the Bad Vibes house being yelled at by his dead abusive mother all day. i know he's vile to poor kreacher, i know he's like throwing out valuable heirlooms in front of a whole bunch of people with so much less money than he has, but a crumb of empathy for him anyway please? he is about as vulnerable as remus is, it's just that it's in very different ways.

also he was disowned and probably would not be expecting to be the last black and inherit any of this prior to his being locked up - he is an impulsive decision maker at the best of times - how adept do we expect sirius might be at dealing with this sort of thing, based on everything we know about him?

whenever it is he's sorting out who inherits (we don't know but i've always assumed this is something he is pressed to do by the order to avoid it all going to bellatrix?) he is probably vaguely thinking "oh well i'm responsible for harry so he should be my heir, harry would help remus anyway if he ever needed it" and not reeeally appreciating that harry is a child lol, and that remus would probably not accept financial help from harry anyway. he also does not know that he won't have time to think a bit more about it later.

sirius is very intelligent and a very adept wizard, fine, but he is also shown to be not super capable in some key ways at this time in his life. he isn't expecting to die any time soon when he sorts his affairs out - he's 36! he's the first death in the first largescale battle. he goes directly from being a schoolboy into being a soldier, then is incarcerated with the dementors from 21 to 33 - yes he has a shitload of money and at one point would've had a great deal of privilege in his society as a pureblood wizard from a prominent family, but he is also like. a traumatised alcoholic fugitive dog man trapped in his abusive parents' house and manifestly Not Coping with any of that at all. but for real how dare he not have a better will drawn up.