Is it horrible how jealous i feel?
Seeing the 40+ lb drop she had, since i last saw her last, has me trembling.
Im pissed at her then im pissed i aint done the same then im even MORE pissed at myself That im feeling pissed and jealous .
Ive always been the skinnier friend. Anytime she lost weight i so happened to lose weight after and we returned to normal. Her (The Heavier/ Sidekick role) & Me (The smaller/Villian or Hero role). Now its totally flipped an im freaking out.
Lose more weight, use more dope.
Less dope, more weight, more sad, more weight
More dope, more money, more chances of getting caught .
Fuck and ik losing the weight an being a fucking bitch by stealing her spotlight, is the only way ill feel better.
This is why im not a good person. Stop telling me im something that im not anymore.
Im fucked n a fucking addict ok? 👌🏼 ok.